An: Whoot! I got my first review! I could just do my happy dance, but I wont. I always end up hurting myself. I'm awkward that way. Anyways.. I noticed that I haven't said why the rating is M.

Well, it isn't because there is sex or anything. Its mostly just swearing, and people talking about sex in later chapters.

So enjoy. Also, the dream in this chapter is one of my favorites.

Yes, my love,
This world of ours bleeds
With more pain than just the pain of love.

-Faiz Ahmed Faiz, "The love I gave you once" An Elusive Dawn.

Kohana and Yukina made it back safely in one piece. When they walked into the living room, Kohana quickly lost her smile and looked around expressionlessly around the room. Although she would never admit this to anyone, but Yukina and the voice in her head, she was starting to grow found of everyone that was living with her.

At the moment though, she was slightly pissed of.. And a little flattered that they spied on her and Yukina. 'Don't we deserve privacy? They had no right. They could have been a little more inconspicuous too.' Kohana thought as she sat down next to Yukina on the couch.

'So you bought the fox something. I thought you hated him.' 'Bob' the voice in Kohana's head asked her. 'I thought I already went through this. Yukina got him something. Not me. Silly disembodied voice.' she replied.

"So Yukina, did you and Kohana have fun on your shopping trip?" Yusuke asked Yukina slyly.

"Oh yes, it was really enjoyable." Yukina replied. 'Could you be any more obvious Yusuke? I know you were spying on us.' Kohana though as Yusuke grinned stupidly.

"So did you get me anything?" He asked.

"No. Why would we get you anything?" Kohana answered as Suki and Kurama burst into the room.

"Yukina and Kohana have been kidnapped!" Suki exclaimed and Kurama looked at Kohana and Yukina sitting on the couch. He tapped Suki and the shoulder and pointed to where they were sitting.

"So Yukina… How does it feel to be kidnapped again with only 2 months in between being captured and released? I know I am might pissed off. Are they feeding you and what not?" Kohana asked sarcastically. Yukina laughed and shook her head as Kohana snickered. Everyone just looked at her in awe. Did she just laugh while they were around her?

"Who ever knew that Kohana could be sarcastic?" Yusuke laughed along with Kuwabara. Kohana stopped laughing and glared at Yusuke. 'Way to ruin the moment Yusuke' Kurama thought as Kohana started to pick something up to throw at him. Yukina, sensing what her friend was about to do, shoved a bag into Kurama's hands.

"This is for you." She said quickly while eyeing Kohana.

"What is it?" Kurama asked politely.

"Open it and find out!" She said excitedly. Kurama just smiled down at her and opened the bag. In the bag was a book about Flowers. Where to find them, How to grow them, what they could be used for, and so on.

"Thank you very much Yukina. I have been looking everywhere for this book." He said and hugged Yukina. 'Obviously not everywhere. Unless.. You consider everywhere that girls mouth.' Kohana thought in disgust. Hiei who had obviously been listening to her thoughts, smirked. He also accidentally let a laugh escape his lips. Kohana looked at him along with everyone else. 'Why would her be laughing? Nothing funny happened…. unless… could he have been… OH SHIT!' Kohana thought as she pointed to him.

"Have you.. been.. Are you.. Kurama is he.. telepathic?" Kohana asked. Kurama looked at her confused and nodded his head.

"Yes he is, that is part of his demon powers." He said simply as he watch whatever colour that was in her face drain away.

"Bob?" she squeaked out.

"Hiei." He said and smirked at her. She shook her head and continued pointing at him.

"Bob." She said louder.

"Hn. Hiei. Baka Onna." He looked out the window.

"His name is Hiei, Kohana. Are you feeling ok?" Yusuke asked as she slowly started to back away from Hiei.

"Would you be ok if you had a crazy midget in you mind 24/7?" She asked Yusuke slowly, as if he was retarded. Hiei glared at her.

"Oh yes.. I said crazy mid- AHH" Kohana gave a high pitched squeal and she ran behind Kurama, hiding from the katana wielding fire demon. She pushed Kurama to Hiei and started to run around the room with Hiei chasing after her. After 10 minutes of him chasing her, he got bored so he tackled her.

"Not fair! You used you demon abilities. It was unfair.. So I win" Kohana said as she smiled at him. He still had her tackled so they were just lying on the floor. For some unknown reason, Kurama started to get jealous. Like he wanted to be the person lying on top of her. Using all the energy she had left she flipped Hiei over so she was on top.

"Told you I won." Before he could do anything she got up and offered him her hand. He stared at it then looked into her eyes. 'They are different. They are different from the first time I saw them. Is she happy here? Or does she still wish she was in that god forsaken room?' He asked himself as he accepted her hand. Much to the surprise of everyone. They were pretty much in shock about what just happened.

"How about I start dinner?" Suki asked breaking the tension. All she got in response was a bunch of nods.

"Is it ok if I help?" asked Yukina timidly. She knew that Kohana wouldn't eat anything if she didn't cook it. Especially if Suki was cooking it. Suki nodded her head and went into the kitchen with Yukina following her.

"Well.. Me and Kuwabara are going to go to the arcade. We will be back in time for dinner." Yusuke called over his shoulder as him and Kuwabara left the room. Kohana looked at Hiei and Kurama, the last 2 remaining people in the living room. She smiled at Hiei and left the room to go to her bedroom. Hiei sat down and stared out the window while Kurama decided to start reading the new book Yukina bought for him. Strangely he could not focus. 'Why does Kohana hate me- us? Why does she ignore me-us? Why was I jealous of Hiei? No, I wasn't really jealous of him.. I was scared he would hurt her.. Yeah that's it.' These were the thoughts that were constantly running through his head as he tried to read.

"Kohana really got the book for you." Hiei said suddenly, making Kurama jump.

"She did? Then why did Yukina give it to me?" He asked, hoping that Hiei didn't notice him jump.

"She told Yukina to say it was from her. She was scared that if she gave it to you, you wouldn't like it." Kurama looked down at the book that Kohana really got for him. For some reason it seemed better now.

"How do you know?" He asked after a moment of silence. Hiei smirked and looked Kurama in the eye.

"Her thoughts are really interesting. She has no mental barrier to speak of." Kurama looked at Hiei with wide eyes.

"If you want, I could reflect her thoughts to you." Hiei smirked at Kurama's surprise.

"W-Why would I want that?" Hiei just gave Kurama a look that said 'do I look stupid?'

"I don't know what caused you to think that I would want to know what goes on in her head. I don't like her that way. She is Suki's sister, so I only show interest in her for Suki. That's all. But you should respect her privacy and not read her thoughts all the time Hiei." Kurama said and sat down to start reading the book that Kohana got for him.

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-Kohana-

Kohana plopped down on her bed. She stared at the ceiling while thinking about the dream she had last night. It was the same one she had 2 months ago. 'Why am I thinking about Ryoichi?' She thought and turned so she was laying on her side. 'He left me for death. He doesn't care. He doesn't… didn't love me.' She thought over and over again until she fell into a restless sleep.

-Dream-

A 13 year old Kohana sat on her bed. Today was going to be the day that she would finially tell Ryoichi how she felt about him. Although she hadn't named the emotion she knew that he would be able to. Maybe then, he wouldn't get so upset seeing her.

He opened the door right on time and walked into the room. As soon as he saw her, he broke out into a bright smile. The smile that her reserved only for her.

"Ryoichi!" She exclaimed and ran up to hug him. Just as she started to pull away, he held her tighter. They stood like that for a minute or two, neither of them wanted that moment to stop. But sadly it did. Ryoichi grabbed her hand and led her towards her bed.

"You know I love you right?" He told her and he made her sit on his lap.

"Of course I know. You tell me all the time." She giggled. He smiled at her sadly, although she couldn't see him, her back was facing him

"No matter what, we will meet again." He said softly into her hair. Kohana smiled. This was a game they use to play when she was scared. When the beatings got to harsh, or she didn't cry enough tears. When she thought they were finally going to kill her.

"Where?" he hugged her tighter from behind. Even though it hurt a little, it didn't bother Kohana, she had felt worse pain.

"Where ever you want." She giggled. He always changed the answer.. so the game wouldn't get boring.

"How will you know it is me you see, when we see each other?" He stood up, which caused her to fall down. He held her hand and helped her up.

"I will know its you because you will be the most beautiful girl there. Our eyes will meet across the room, and my heart will speed up. That's how I will know." He said softly and kissed her hard on the lips. When he pulled away he looked her in the eyes and then left the room.

Kohana was confused. He changed the ending. He never changes the ending. It was always "You will be wearing a clowns nose." to make her feel better. That was when Kohana realized that the kiss he gave her was a goodbye kiss. This whole meeting was to say goodbye. He was leaving her, when he promised that he would never leave her.

'Am I alone now? Why is this room so cold looking all of a sudden? What is this feeling, why do I feel like I am going to die?' Kohana thought as she stood in the middle of her room.

That was the first time she realized what her room really was, and that was the last time she ever spoke.

-End of dream-

Kohana slowly opened her eyes. Her dream was running none stop in her mind. She hated her dreams, they were always about things she wanted to forget. It wasn't just her dreams that her memories invaded, they also invaded her while she was awake. It seemed that no matter how hard she ran, she couldn't escape her past. After composing herself, she got up and walked downstairs. Dinner was probably ready.

"Oh Kohana! Dinner is re- are you alright? Is something wrong?" Kohana looked at her with sad eyes and a forced smile.

"Of course everything is alright Yukina. I am just a little tired. Shopping must have taken more energy then I thought." Yukina frowned slightly at her friends lie, but decided to leave it alone.

"Ok, well maybe you should go to sleep after dinner."

"Maybe I will." Kohana said as she walked into the dinning room with Yukina. Yukina had no idea that sleep was the last thing on Kohana's mind.

All Kohana could think about was the one who promised to protect her. The one who, in a way, made her the was she was today. 'Ryoichi, why after so many years are your memories still plaguing me? Why.. Did you lie to me? Why can't I forget you..?' Kohana thought a she forced back tears. 'Don't I deserve to be happy?'