An: Well to tell you the truth, I wasn't going to update in a day or two. So here is why I updated: I just got back from the hospital and I was in an extremely good mood. So I got home not really thinking of going on the computer, but then decide to type up chapters 9-12.My computer signed me onto Msn and I saw that I got 2 reviews. This made me even more happy ( I have been told that I get excited by the tiniest things) so I decided I would post one of my favorite chapters. Also I posted this so I could answer hieisfiredemoness's question.

Answer to question: Suki really is Kohana's older sister, and yes she hates Kohana with a passion. It's ok that you got confused, I dont think I was very clear about their relationship. It will all be way more clear in the 14 chapter.

Also I wanted to ask people if they think the story is moving to fast. I hate it when that happens. Am I making everything to obvious? Because if I am please tell me.

So I hope everyone enjoys this really short chapter

It's not me who goes singing,
But the flowers I walk past.
It's not me who goes laughing,
But the wine I still taste.
It's not me who goes weeping,
But the love I have lost.

-It's not me who goes singing... Jacques Prevert.

Kohana sat on Yukina's bed in the darkness. All she could think about was the dream she had that day.

'You know I love you right?'

Kohana shook her head. "Why am I always thinking about him?" She asked herself out loud.

"He probably forgot about me the moment he stepped out of the room." Kohana sat there in silence until the door opened and Yukina walked in.

"Kohana are you alright? You have been acting odd since dinner." Yukina asked worriedly, and Kohana opened her mouth to answer.

"And don't tell me you are fine, or that you are just tired from shopping. Please just don't lie to me." She said softly as she sat next to Kohana on the bed.

"How can you read me like an open book? No matter how much I pretend or lie, you always see right through it." Kohana looked at Yukina.

"In a way, it scares me." Kohana whispered and looked out the window. After about a minute of silence Kohana decided to talk to Yukina.

"I have been having these.. dreams lately." Yukina nodded her head knowingly.

"Nightmares?"

"In a way, I guess. They are mostly about my past." She whispered lightly, and Yukina waited for her to go on.

"There was this guy, named Ryoichi. I don't know what he did or why he was there, Just that he came to see me everyday. He made me feel safe in an unsafe place. He would come after They came to collect my tears. He would always make me laugh and forget the awful things they did to me. He even taught me to cry on demand.

"I can't stand to see such a pretty girl cry for such a horrible reason." So he told me to think of something that scare me or made me sad. "And then, when you can cry with out getting hurt I wont have to come here and kiss everything better." He always took care of me, no matter what." Kohana looked down at her hands helplessly.

"What happened to him?" Yukina asked after several seconds of silence.

"He left." Kohana replied bitterly, and looked at Yukina. "He left me.. even though he promised to always be there. He just left.. and let me figure out that he wasn't coming back." Kohana looked away from Yukina.

"After he left, the beatings started again, and I began to feel lonely and empty. I was powerless against those feelings. I finally realized that I was a prisoner and that there was no hope of ever being.. Free. I understood that a human that could cry tear gems was not normal.. and that I was a freak. And in a way.. I loved it. I loved being alone and empty. It was the only thing I had left. 'A fallen angel drowns in their loneliness and emptiness and curses it, but at the same time loves it, for it's all they have left.'" Kohana said as Yukina's eyes began to water. Within seconds they were surrounded by tear gems. Kohana picked one up and looked at Yukina.

"Why are you cry?" She asked softly while rolling the tear gem between her index finger and thumb.

"Because you wont!" Yukina cried out and flung herself at Kohana.

"I… I.. just… I…" Kohana let the sentence fall unfinished. She didn't know what to say.

"curses it, but at the same time loves it, for it's all they have left." Yukina said in a very bad impression of Kohana's voice.

"Is that how you feel? That all you have is yourself? Because you are wrong! I am here for you!" Kohana looked at the crying Yukina that was in her arms. She finally allowed her own tears to escape.

"Of course I don't feel that way now. I use to, but stopped when you were first shoved into my cell… you saved me from drowning in a way." Kohana whispered as she kept crying. She couldn't stop even if she wanted to.. Not that she did.

They sat there and cried. After about 10 minutes they were swimming in a sea of blue and red gems. Perfect and Flawless red and blue gems.