An: Well, here is my next chapter. I think it is my favorite so far.
There are more Suki's childhoods coming, but not for a couple of chapters. I think I might even throw in some of Ryoichi's childhood. So yeah.
Enjoy!
If suddenly you forget me
do not look for me,
for I shall already have forgotten you.
-Pablo Neruda - If You Forget Me
Suki's Childhood part 1
Everything was fine. I was happy. I was even excited to be getting a little brother or sister. If it was a boy, I was going to teach him how to play all the sports because our father threw like a little girl. If it was a girl, I was going to teach her how to put on makeup and have tea parties with her. I even remember how excited I was when mom told me she was pregnant.
-Flashback to when Suki was 5-
"Ok you two, sit down. I have a 'present' for you both!" Sakura Saito said as she sat her daughter and husband down on the couch.
"Actually it is a 'present' for the whole family!" She said and pulled out a white jewelry box.
"What is it mommy?" Suki asked and Sakura smiled.
"You have to guess." Yuki Saito, Suki's father and Sakura's husband, rolled his eyes.
"Last time you make me guess at something, you hit me for getting it wrong." Sakura sighed and smacked him lightly on the arm.
"That's because I asked you to guess what we were having for supper and you said carpet." Yuki smirked and Sakura rolled her eyes.
"Can I guess what the present is?" Suki asked and Sakura laughed.
"Of course honey." Suki smiled and started to think about what it could be. 'Mommy said it was for everyone.' Suki thought and started to play with the sleeve of her shirt.
"Could it be a new couch or car?" Suki asked and Sakura shook her head.
"No better!" Yuki sighed.
"Is it a new hammer for me?" Sakura laughed and he glared at her.
"I would like to see you hammer something. You would cut your arm off. And no, it isn't a hammer. You don't even like tools." Yuki laughed and scratched the back of his head.
"Oh yeah. I thought I would, you know, be manly." He said and Suki giggled.
"Neither of you are right. Now open the box Suki!" Sakura said and handed the box to her daughter.
"OK!" Suki said and opened the lid. Inside the box was a beautiful locket with a cherry blossom on it.
"Wow, it is so pretty!" Suki said and Sakura squealed.
"Read what is inscribed on the back!" Suki smiled and turn the locket over.
'Congratulations on becoming a big sister. Love Mom' Suki looked wide eyed at her mother.
"Really? I am going to be a big sister!" Suki said and Sakura nodded her head while smiling.
"That's great honey, you are going to be a big sister.. Wait… What? That means your.. I'm going to be a dad?" Yuki exclaimed and was about to hug his wife but stopped when he saw the look she was giving him.
"You are already are a father." She said and pointed to Suki. He laughed and picked Suki up.
"I got carried away in all the excitement."
-End of flashback-
Everything changed because of grandmother. Pretty soon all that mattered was the baby.
-Flashback-
"Mother, I am not having a home birth. I had Suki in the hospital and nothing went wrong." Sakura said and Suki grabbed her hand.
"Well, this baby girl is going to be different. She is like me. She has my power, my grandmother's power. I can feel it." Sakura sighed and shook her head.
"I don't care mother. I will have her in the hospital." Amaye Mausi, Suki's grandmother rolled her eyes.
"And how will you explain it to the doctors when she cries tear gems? Or that she took all his power when he delivered her? They will take her away and experiment on her like some sort of.. Animal." Sakura squeezed Suki's hand and looked over at Yuki who was leaning in the door way.
"Fine, we can have her at home. But if anything goes wrong, we will take her to the hospital." Sakura said and ran her hand through her hair.
"I think I am going to go the bed." She said and walked out of the room to her bedroom.
"Is mommy and the baby going to be ok?" Suki asked her father. He just glanced at her and went to follow his wife. Suki looked at her grandmother.
"Is everything going to be ok?" Amaye glared at her.
"Yes." She said and walk out of the room leaving Suki wondering what she did wrong.
-End of flashback-
My family use to love me. My grandmother would tell me stories of training in the demon world. My mother would bake cookies with me every Sunday. My father -attempted- to teach me how to play football but stopped when I started to beat him.
Everything was fine. Everything. Until, Kohana was born. I don't know what happened, only that I was sent away for 3 months. No one would tell me why my mother was in pain, or why my father was so stressed out. Or why my grandmother hated me. All I know is that when I came home, everything was different.
-Flashback to when Suki was 6-
"Mommy!" Suki screamed as she saw her mother in a wheelchair at the airport holding a bundle in her arms.
"Suki! How is my big girl?" Suki looked at her mother in confusion. She never called Suki a big girl.
"I'm ok.. What's that in your arms?" Sakura smiled and Yuki checked his watch.
"This is your little sister Kohana." Sakura said and showed Suki the baby. Kohana was indeed adorable. She had a little pink nose and big bright blue eyes. She even had a little bit of hair.
"Can I hold her?" Suki asked and Sakura stopped smiling.
"Sorry honey but no. You might have germs or dirt on your hands and clothing. Kohana might get more sick. You don't want your little sister to die do you?" Suki shook her head.
"Good, now lets go home." Suki nodded her head and looked at her dad.
"Why is mommy in a wheelchair?" Yuki looked down at Suki.
"Mommy is just a little tired that's all." He said and started to walk off. Suki looked at him wheeling her mother away. She didn't have the words to describe what she was feeling then but 10 years later she did.
At that moment she felt abandoned. Like her parents didn't even really want her to come back. And although she never would know, they didn't.
-End of flashback-
It got worse. I was constantly ignored. Everything was Kohana this and Kohana that. I had to walk to school by myself, and came up with a game to see if they would care if I never came back. I would take as long as I could coming home to see if they were worried. One time I got up to three hours and when I got home, no one even noticed that I was gone.
-Flash back to when she was 7-
Suki walked into Kohana's room. It was a nice room, it had blue walls and a nice tiny bed. Kohana was 2 years old and already could talk well and read a bit. Mainly because their grandmother spent every waking hour with her it seemed. All because Kohana was 'special'.
Suki knew how 'special' Kohana was. Once she pulled Kohana's hair and she started to cry. Pretty little gems came instead of tears.
Kohana was a freak to Suki. It wasn't normal for a human to cry tear gems or predict the future. It would have been ok if she was a demon like their grandmother, but no. She had to be some sort of… monster.
"I hate you, and I hope someone comes and takes you away." Suki said and Kohana opened her eyes slowly and smiled when she saw Suki.
"Suki! Want to play?" Kohana asked and Suki glared at her.
"No. I hate you!" Suki hissed and closed Kohana's door. Suki stood there a moment to make sure that Kohana didn't come out of her room or start to cry. When she felt confident that she wouldn't, Suki decided she wanted a glass of milk.
She crept down the stairs and heard voices from the living room. It sounded like her mother, father and grandmother were arguing. 'Why would they be fighting now?' Suki thought and decided to investigate. She tiptoed and waited outside the doorway leading to the living room.
"I saw the future Sakura. You have to get rid of her and save your lives. You have to save Kohana's life!" Amaye said.
"What you are proposing is insane! I am not getting 'rid' of her. Stop talking about her like she is a dog or something." Sakura shouted and Yuki put a comforting hand on her back.
"Listen Amaye, I know that your 'visions' usually come true, but we are not getting rid of our daughter. Now if you say anything about it again, I will have to ask you to leave. You are upsetting Sakura, and you know that when Sakura is upset that Kohana senses it and also becomes upset." Yuki said coolly.
"Fine, I will leave. I will not watch you throw your lives away because of some jealous little girl." Amaye said and she started to leave the room. She stopped at the door way right across from where Suki was standing.
"I will never forgive you for what you will do to this family." She said and Suki knew she was talking to her.
-End of flashback-
That was the last time I ever saw or spoke to my grandmother. I wish my parents did send me away, that way they would still be alive. The bad thing is, if I could do it all over again I would. If Ryo Hart, Ryoichi's father asked me to deliver him Kohana again, I would do it in a heart beat. I would just make sure that Kurama and his pathetic friends wouldn't save her.
I would also make sure that Ryo wouldn't also take my parents. He wasn't suppose to! He was only suppose to take the stupid bitch Kohana, but he also took my mother and father because they would make her cry if they were hurt. I was left behind, just like always.
I will be left behind again because of Kohana. So, I don't really love Kurama, we just don't have that chemistry anymore. Before, we couldn't keep our hands off each other, now I find him boring and routine. I absolutely hate his friends. But they all love Kohana, so I can't let her have them. She can't have my Kurama. He is suppose to marry me, and we will have the perfect life. I won't let her ruin it again. She wont ruin my life again, or I will stop her. No matter