With that Nerdanel and the children's grabbed both Thranduil and Erestor and ran into the house.
The riot had reached the houses doors and was threatening to come in. Already servants outside, lay slayed in the front gardens. She knew that if she didn't get her children out of this place, the riot going against Feanor, outside her house would come to slay her innocent children, in hope to kill of the supposed 'evil' within them.
Gathering any servants possible and that would come, Nerdanel ran for a secret passage Feanor once made for his family, when he still cared for them as a father and Husband. That was a long time ago though; Feanor now was a insane mess, addicted to his silmarils.
As they ran up the main flight of stairs, the first remnant of the riot broke through the front door. The rampaged through the ground level of the house.
Shouting looking for the last two children of Feanor. It was at this point Nerdanel knew that someone had betrayed her two little darlings.
As she and the others reached the top level, some of the rioters had spotted them, and were hot on their tails. Ever closing in; soon they were so close, that they killed some of the servants that started to fall behind.
Fear gripped Nerdanel, not for her own life, but her children's. Just like the silmarils had become Feanors prize, Thranduil and Erestor had become hers. All the remaining alive servants started to panic, and raced even harder for their lives.
It was the 7th and final level of the house, and there was only one room on this floor. Heading straight for it Nerdanel forgot all other except her children and their Nurse Meil, who was holding Thranduil. It wasn't the first time that someone had nearly gotten hold of her and Thranduil. His primary extinct was to aid his mother however.
When they finally reached the room, Nerdanel shut the door quickly behind them. It wouldn't hold against the rioters however, who demanded she bring the spawn of Feanor out. For them they were evil in waiting, but in her heart Nerdanel knew that they were from that- they were the Feanorians family last saving grace. She ushered Meil to her.
"You mustn't let them in. Find anything you can to bar the door. I will show Thranduil the way out, and give him directions, afterwards you and me will escape as well, and we must keep parted ways though! Be brave and fear no hatred!" Nerdanel shouted the last few words with a new found courage, as Meil nodded and followed her mistress commands.
Meil admired Nerdanel greatly, for Meil had, had a baby out of wed lock, and Nerdanel was the only one who accepted her, felt pity for her and welcomed her into her home.
Turning then towards her children, who stood afraid but ready to face anything for their mother's sake, she took them towards a closet standing against a seemingly solid wall, opposite the door.
She took Thranduil to her right side and Erestor to his right side. Facing them she looked at them gravely.
"Thranduil, Erestor, you to must do something brave now. You have to leave this house, you have to leave me and Meil, and you have leave this whole place." Pausing she signed, holding back tears; she silenced Thranduils questions and continued.
"Behind this closet, is a secret passage-it will lead you down into a tunnel, you will have to walk far, but if you hurry you may be escape harms way. Afterwards, you'll come to a forked road as it seems. Then you must turn left. It will be a short while, but then you will end up on the beach-"
"MY LADY!" Cried out Meil, who had just been grabbed around the neck by a pale blood stained hand. Kicking and screaming she pleaded for her mistress to help her.
Turning Nerdanel knew she had to speed her message. For she loved Meil just like any of her other children.
"LISTEN to me. You must take a left at the forked pass, and then run, you'll end up on the beach-from there you must find a ship that will take you to Doriath." She opened the closet and took out a wooden board at the back, pushing her children through the dark opening before them.
Sharply turning them around, she looked at Thranduil.
"Thranduil…you must promise to look after your little sister. You must, promise to life a good live, and that she will life a good live. Promise to protect her, no matter what-please.
Don't forget- I also love you without conditions." She then pushed him through.
"But mother-"Thranduil cried as he fell through.
Shutting the closet again and locking it, swallowing the key, she ran to Meil's side. Freeing the pale kicking and screaming girl, she stabbed the hand that held her.
Grabbing Meil she ran to the window.
"My lady I'm afraid I don't want them to get me, I'm already punishable to them. If they get hold of me I will burn, I know it!" Meil started weeping, in Nerdanels arms.
Cradling the poor young weeping girl, Nerdanel knew what must do, to fulfill the young girls wish.
"Please, I don't want to be caught, I want to stay free!" Meil shouted to her mistress.
Lowering her head and crying Nerdanel looked down at her. She then moved towards the window, and opened it.
"Free you shall be. They will not catch you and cause you any pain." Nerdanel took the youth and held her close to the window. In her mind Nerdanel knew that the passage on the right, led to a dead end, for sure then they would catch both of them.
Then Meil knew what Nerdanel was going to do, her eyes wept, but in her mind and heart Meil was thankful to no ends, for what Nerdanel did next.
Grabbing the young girl, Nerdanel kissed her fore-head and then threw her out of the window. Seven flights down the girl fell, but when she laid on the ground, just like Nerdanel had promised, she no longer felt any pain- all harshness of the world left her face, and she found peace. Leaving this world behind, she then took another road, the one to Mandos halls, where she kept all those who had equally lost their lives company and looked down on those she loved, occasionally aiding them.
Seven stories up however, Nerdanel remained fully alive. She slowly sunk onto the floor. She had done so much in such a short time. From losing her only real children, to having to end one of her dearest friends lives. Weeping, she released how alone she was. Her heart was torn in two. Everything around seemed to go quite. Even as the rioters started to break through the door, they made no sound. Silently she wept and wept everything dear to her, was suddenly gone. Despite the fact of loving her children, she didn't wish to see them ever again, for she knew, the rest of her life would be a prison. Till the others found Feanors last two young children, and dealt with them some how, no mercy would be spared to her, in this life.
Grief was the only feeling Nerdanel could feel, and for long ages of the world, that the only thing she would ever feel.
When the rioters finally found her, the took her away- she would be questioned and then at the end, left to her own devices unless someone took pity on the poor creature and cared for her. Nerdanels life would be forever changed, never the same- now her life of sorrow and grief begun, how long it would last she could not foretell.