EXCERPTS FROM THE AUDIO JOURNAL OF QUI-GON JINN, JEDI KNIGHT

Nubian Cruiser on route to Naboo, 3.4:10

I have just listened to the last line of my previous entry.

'Better understanding' is not what I would call the development undergoing my relationship with Obi-Wan after the conversation we had this morning after settling on the ship.

I was about to leave his quarters after we had discussed our line of action once we reached Naboo, when his words stopped me.

"So, your council has granted you the permission to train the boy. I thought they would not."

I turned around and faced him, surprised to discover he knew of my intentions regarding Anakin.

He smiled briefly and added, "I saw it in your mind, Qui-Gon."

I nodded before asking, "Why did you think the Council would not let me train Anakin?"

Obi-Wan's eyes hardened. "Because I sense the boy is dangerous. There is too much raw power in him, too much fear and anger. I believe training him is a mistake."

I was hurt by his words and commented sarcastically, "A Sith claiming a boy is too emotional to be trained. . .is really amusing."

Obi-Wan's nostrils flared, but I sensed him release his irritation into the Force, and it shamed me, for I had not be able to do the same just a few moments before.

"We Sith hold onto our emotions, but we do keep them in check. We never allow the negatives ones to control us," he stressed coldly. "I hope for our sake your recent behaviour was just a momentary lapse in your Jedi control, and that you will be able to teach the boy well. Otherwise, we might soon find ourselves in a very dangerous situation, especially now that the Dark Lords have returned."

I paled at what he was implying, and again reacted in a way unbecoming to Jedi. I did not thank him for his concerns. I did not reassure him I would do my best with Anakin.

I simply stormed out the room.

I did not behave like a Jedi or like an adult for that matter, but just like a spoiled child and now I am afraid I might have ruined any chance I had to fill the gap separating us.

Obi-Wan was very hard with me, that's true, but if Anakin is the Chosen One, as I am sure he is, my son has all the right to be concerned about the boy's future and training.

I could have used his concerns to start a conversation, to bring us closer and instead…instead I behaved like an idiot.

I can only hope I will be granted another chance.