Hi everyone, this is my first fanfic, and although I've been reading them for years, I've finally gotten the cajones to make one… so be harsh! Hahaha
SUMMARY: Inuyasha and Kagome have been friends all their lives, but when Kagome and Kouga go out Inuyasha loses. His mind that is. Between fights with kagome and his breaking heart who knows what he'll do when Kouga starts abusing her… and breaks her own heart. (AN: I suck at summaries guys, it's better than it seems)
Hey, I DON'T OWN ANYTHING!
Chapter one
"And guess what else?" The girl beside Inuyasha chattered on, reliving the gossip of her day.
"What?" he played along good naturedly. This was obviously what she's been dying to tell him. He hadn't been her friend all of their lives to ignore the signs.
"Guess!" she urged, as he pulled onto their road in his generic teenage car.
"Hmm," he pretended to think, stroking his chin and trying to look thoughtful and confused as a slow grin spread onto Kagome's face. "Oh I don't know, just tell me."
"Kouga asked me out!" she squealed bouncing in her seat excitedly.
"Cool." Inuyasha plastered a smile onto his face, conforming his features to what he supposed was a look of happiness for his best friend. She had been talking nonstop about him for the past month.
"I'm so excited," she confessed, wringing her hands. "But I'm afraid he won't like me. What if he finds out that he doesn't like me and dumps me?"
"Then he'll be an idiot, Kagome." Inuyasha assured her, "He'd be a fool to dump you."
"I don't know."
"I do. Trust me."
Her smile lit up her face, banishing any worry. She half-hugged him across the car, "Of course I trust you Inuyasha, you're my best friend."
"I know." His voice struggled to maintain its indifference, which scared him. 'God I'm acting like Sesshomaru.' It was no secret how much the two brothers hated each other.
"Are we doing anything tonight?" she asked, climbing out of his car like she did every day.
"We could watch a movie or something," Inuyasha shrugged, "Dad's out of town again."
"Well then you should come over, we're having pizza, and Souta will be thrilled."
"Feh." He turned to go into his house as she skipped next door to hers.
'Am I more than you bargained for yet?
I've been dying to tell you anything you want to hear…'
Inuyasha sighed once more, lying face down on his bed, where he'd been ever since he got home from school. 'What am I doing?' he asked himself, 'Why can't I just tell her?' He turned over and looked up at the ceiling hoping to get some sort of answer from the swirls. "A loaded god complex, cock it and pull it." He muttered under his breath to the song. "What the hell is wrong with me!" He yelled, covering his face with his hands.
"Do you want me to answer that?" the cool voice came from his doorway, where his brother stood, leaning casually against the frame. His long blonde-silver hair flowed down to his shoulders, looking meticulously placed, perfect, as always. His white sweatshirt was just baggy enough to be comfortable and fashionable. His white ferret perched on his right shoulder, as it always is, a ball of demonic fluff. His jeans were just the right length and width, fitting perfectly. He looked as he always did, and held his usual air of power, Inuyasha had never figured out how he got that aura of authority, or how no one ever took it away from him.
"Sesshomaru, just…leave me alone."
"Girl trouble." He stated the question that was already answered.
"What do you know about anything?"
"I'm your brother, Inuyasha."
He took his hands down from his face just long enough to glare at his brother. "So? You hate me."
"I don't hate you Inuyasha, you're just pathetic."
"Close enough."
Then his brother did the unexpected, he took a step forward and actually entered Inuyasha's room, this alone was enough to give him a heart attack, but then Sesshomaru sat down. on the chair.
"W-what are you doing?"
"Helping."
"Helping?"
"Isn't that what I said?"
Inuyasha sat up very quickly, and looked over at his brother, 'what the hell has gotten into him?'
"You like Kagome, and she likes someone else."
This shocked him, "How did you know?"
"I'm not blind, Inuyasha, the girl has had a hold on you ever since you met her."
"No she hasn't!" The indignant boy tried to keep his pride intact. "She's just a friend, I couldn't care less."
"Bullshit."
"It is not!" He jumped up hands clenched, "Are you helping or just making things worse!"
"I assume that this isn't the time to try and show you how idiotic you are," Sesshomaru stood and walked out of the room stopping just long enough to have the last word, "Just tell her."
"Shut up! You don't know anything about Kagome!" He yelled down the hall, and slammed his door, returning back to his bed. 'Frigging Kouga, He doesn't even like her all that much,' He tried to console himself, 'He messes everything up, when they're over… She'll be with me soon enough,'
'Blame everyone but me for this mess
And my back has been breaking from this heavy heart
We never seemed so far
I'm hopelessly hopeful that you're just hopeless enough
But we never had it at all …'
"Who the hell am I kidding?" he asked the room at large, and no one answered, and that was an answer in itself.
"Inuyasha!" The excited little boy jumped once he caught a glimpse of his idol.
"Hey kid," he ruffled his hair, his mouth twitched, and if you knew him you might take it for a smile. "Where's Kagome?"
"Oh she's on the phone, with a boy."
His hackles rose, a boy? Kouga? 'Is that idiot already coming between us?' His heart fell, and he covered it with a smirk that resembled a snarl.
"Kagome!" he called down the hall, and went after her, He wasn't going to let Kouga ruin what they have.
"Hey Inuyasha!" She smiled that smile, lighting up her eyes and giving her cheeks that rosy color they get. Inuyasha melted and felt his heart glue itself back together. It was all okay, she was still with him, they were still friends. It was still Okay.
'Just for a little longer.' He begged whatever was listening to him at that moment, 'Just let it be the same for a little longer.'
"What's wrong?" She asked, "You look a bit flushed, are you feeling okay?" She reached out to touch his face, and he blushed even more.
"I'm fine." He snapped, "I'm just fine."
"Well…alright." She was put off, and turned her attention back to the phone, "What? I'm sorry Kouga, my friend just came over...Yeah."
Inuyasha stood there, trying to listen to every word that came over the phone,
"Tomorrow night?" Her eyes lit up, and something broke inside Inuyasha, he turned away.
"Feh."
"Seven will be perfect. See you then." She hung up, and her eyes shimmered with excitement. Inuyasha snuck a glance at her and saw her mouth turned up into an unconscious smile. 'How come she never smiles like that for me?'
"Oh I forgot! Inuyasha, we were supposed to go to the mall tomorrow. Oh no."
"It's alright." He growled,
"Are you sure?"
"Yes." 'No.'
"So, what movie do you want to watch?"
"I don't care." He turned away from her once again, so he wouldn't have to see the way her smile fell at his words.
"Okay, I'll pick then." She shuffled through a few movies and finally cried in triumph. "I love this movie!" Her smile made Inuyasha melt, "Whatever."
"You have to watch it with me, Inuyasha, you said you didn't care."
His eyes widened in horror, "What does that mean? What movie did you pick Kagome?"
She just smiled sweetly, and it struck fear into the heart of the loyal teen.
"Pretty in Pink."
He groaned, and sat down on the couch, steadying himself for an hour and a half of chick flick torture.
"It's not that bad Inuyasha." She laughed and sat down next to him, "Come on, just watch it."
"Feh." He tried not to look at the television, but the second Ducky walked on screen he yelled, "What the hell is he wearing!"
Kagome giggled and clutched her sides, "This is an old movie, Inu- giggle – yasha!"
His attention turned back towards the floor, but slowly crept up again to the television, Andy just got made fun of for her outfit by the two preppy girls.
"She should just hit them! What bit-"
"Inuyasha!" Kagome covered his mouth with her hand, "Souta is in the other room! Be good." He mumbled something and she took her hand away, leaving him a bit breathless.
They watched the movie in silence, until Ducky came into the record shop.
"Squeeze her, don't tease her, never leave her , you gotta hold her, gotta try a little—Tenderness!"
"This is my favorite part!" Kagome whispered, watching the lip sync. Inuyasha watched her face as the scene went on. Her longing was plain and not even he could ignore that.
"Don't you wish someone would like you that much?" she asked, dancing a little to the song, her lips moving to the words. The scene went on and Ducky was shot down for Blaine.
His face fell, and he stuttered, covering his hurt up with anger.
"God I would have died for you!"
Inuyasha looked over at the girl sitting next to him, she was entranced with the scene, and her face contorted with hurt for the boy on the screen. Something clicked with the movie right then, and he knew he would do anything for her.
"Here's the point Andy, I'm not particularly concerned with whether or not you like me, because I live to like you. And and- I can't like you anymore."
A small sob came out of Kagome's mouth, and she covered it with her hand.
"SO-So when you get your heart splattered all over hell and you're feeling really low and dirty, don't look to me to pump you back up. Cause, cause, maybe for the first time in your life I won't be there!"
Kagome squeaked when Ducky stormed out of the record store and out of Andy's life.
He understood the boy in some way, understood what he was going through, losing his best friend, and the only girl he ever wanted.
"Oh man this sucks so much." Kagome murmured into her hands, leaning back against the couch.
Inuyasha shifted so he was sitting next to her, and the proximity was killing him, Kagome didn't seem to notice, like always.
The plot played out and when the end came Kagome was crying.
"Ka-Kagome, don't cry, it's just a movie." It surprised him that she was moved to tears, when Andy did get her dream guy in the end.
"I always –hic- hated the ending." She bawled, burying her head into Inuyasha's shoulder. A shock went up his spine and he held her as she cried.
"Ducky's way better than Blaine," She continued, her voice muffled by the fabric, "She should have known it too."
Inuyasha's heart soared, the movie reflected his life so well, it was eerie. 'Maybe I do have a chance.' He thought to himself, taking a deep breath.
"K-Kagome?"
"Yes?" she lifted her tear-stained face and looked at him, laughing at herself. "I'm so stupid, I know it's just a movie." She wiped away her tears, and smiling looked back up at him. "Yeah?"
"Um," 'JUST TELL HER!' he roared at his mouth, which seemed to be doing something else. His lips slowly descended onto hers, meeting them gently and caressing them before parting again and he waited for her reaction.
She blushed, "Oh, Um, Uh…" She looked so confused, his heart dangled on a string, waiting for her answer.
"Inuyasha…" she sounded so torn, "I'm with Kouga and-"
He'd heard enough, jumping up from the couch he barreled through the hallway and out into the misty night. The fog clung to his clothes, making them stick to his skin. Inuyasha didn't care, he tore down the street, running as fast as he could, anywhere but here. His only goal was to get as far away from his starting point as possible. He could hear the broken pieces of his heart rattling in his chest with every footfall, the constant reminder of his rejection. His lifelong love for Kagome was to stay unrequited, she didn't love him.
Or at least, not the way he needed her to.
His feet began to falter as his breathing became haggard, and he stumbled, falling into the mud puddle on the sidewalk. It was late, the lights were on, but the street remained dark. He didn't move, he didn't have the strength to, he was in shadow, while the rest of the street was bathed in fluorescent light. He was all alone, covered in mud and water, and shivering. He didn't care, nothing mattered anymore. His life didn't matter anymore. Why should he get up? His eyes glowed red and he remembered why he should get up. Kouga. If she wanted him, that's fine. He'd just have to play the game too. Soaking and dirty he walked home, and taking his clothes off to dump into the washer machine, he took a shower, the hot water relaxing him as he formulated his plan. It would work, it had to.
He picked up his phone and dialed the number she gave to him, and waited for her to pick up.
"Hello?"
"Hey Kikyou, It's Inuyasha."