His worst day ever. part 2

Author: kamadixu

-mail: this is the second part of His worst day ever, more will follow……..I think

Personal: I would appreciate it if you could give me R&R, critique is welcome, tomatoes are not . I hope that the story isn't filled with grammar faults, English is not my native language so I apologise for any mistakes.

Pairing: Gil/Nick?

Summary: sometimes you should stay in bed.

Season: after Grave Danger

Archive: of course, if you want to (just tell me where, so I can visit)

Disclaimer: None of the characters belong to me. I'm not making money out of this, it's purely for entertainment!

The house looked dark and empty. Had anybody paid attention they should have seen the shadow moving behind the window, but no one did; all were celebrating the new year.

Gil Grissom was sitting in the dark in his living room, reliving the last few hours.

"Please don't" Nick said, "I don't think I can handle your apologise right now ..I…I … need some space please.."

The pain in Nick's voice had been unmistakable, what had he done?

….."Please don't"……

He kissed Nick and had enjoyed it, Grissom could not lie about it. He had kissed many times before in his life, but never had he felt like this… about a women let alone a man..

…."Please don't"…..

What should he do? On the one side Grissom felt that he should apologise to Nick, blame the alcohol and stress of the day and hope that Nick would forgive him and that they could move one. On the other side he wanted to tell Nick how special the kiss was, how incredible it had been and then do it again. What should he do?

…."Please don't"…..

He felt attracted to Sara, the kisses she had given him under the mistletoe had been nice but for some reason hadn't felt like the fire he had felt with Nick. He wanted to be with Sara! Or didn't he? Grissom realised that he had to be honest with himself to solve this situation or he would destroy himself and most likely Nick in the process.

'Okay' Grissom thought, 'I need to know how I feel about Sara and Nick, so what do I feel?'

With Sara he felt comfortable, warm and he knew he wanted her, he could trust her to work alone on a case and not be worried. But in the company of Nick he felt strange, he always tried to team Nick up with somebody on cases. With Nick he was always worried that something would happen to him. And after the Gordon case he even felt it more, the urge to keep Nick at his side, to keep him safe because..because….

Some people say that the most important realisations in their life hit them like a sledgehammer and for once Gil Grissom understood, he understood perfectly.

The urge to keep Nick at his side was because he needed Nick, in fact he couldn't do without him. A wise man had once said that people shouldn't choose their partner because they wanted them but because they couldn't live without them and that was exactly the situation of Grissom. He wanted Sara but he needed Nick, he couldn't live without him. Now that he figured it out Grissom felt relieved, but at the same instant he realised that he had another problem, perhaps even bigger then the previous one:

…."Please don't, I don't think I can handle your apologise right now ..I…I … need some space please.."

How to convince Nick that he wasn't sorry about the kiss, that he loved him..needed him? And would Nick answer his feelings? ……and how the # could he get Nick to talk to him?

TBC……

Could anybody mail me how to post the next part?