HIS WORSE DAY EVER. part 4 HIS WORSE DAY EVER. part 4

Author: kamadixu

mail: This will be the last part of in the serie: his worst day ever. I like to thank everybody for their wonderful reviews, and please feel free to send me your opinions on this final chapter.

Personal: I hope that the story isn't filled with grammar faults, English is not my native language so I apologise for any mistakes.

Pairing: Gil/Nick?

Warning: This will be a very sappy part. Sorry (no, actually I'm not, grin)

Summary: see previous parts.

Season: after Grave Danger

Archive: of course, if you want to (just tell me where, so I can visit)

Disclaimer: None of the characters belong to me. I'm not making money out of this, it's purely for entertainment!

"Nick,….we need to talk."

"No, we don't"

'Fantastic', Grissom thought, 'what did you expect, moron; that he throws himself at you? You 're lucky enough that Catherine decided to help you get Nick here instead of coming after you and killing you for hurting him.'

"Yes, we do Nicky, I need to say some things and you need to listen."

"Dammit, Grissom we don't need to talk, now open the door and let me go." Nick demanded walking towards the door, ready to open it and walk out of Grissom's life.

"I'm sorry Nick but I can't let you do that," and with reflexes faster then anyone could expect, he clicked a handcuff around Nick's wrist.

"What the……Grissom what the hell do you think your doing?"

"Keeping an eye on you" Gil replied lifting his own cuffed wrist. "We're tied together now, till I had the chance to talk to you. And before you say anything else, I will not release you until you listened to me……after that you're free to leave but first you've got to listen."

Grissom felt like he was begging, well actually he knew he was begging but he was desperate. Nick needed to know the truth about Gil's feelings for him, so eying Nick anxiously, he was relieved when a strained "Ok," could be heard.

Releasing the breath he had been holding, he quickly led Nick to the small coach that was present in the hallway. " OK, then. As you know I had an horrible day and evening," seeing that Nick was about to interrupt him, Grissom quickly said, " I also know that it is no excuse but it will explain why I kissed you, so bear with me please."

A small nod was the only reaction Gil got.

"I was late for work, fell down a ladder and into dirt, had to borrow clothes and on top of that had to drink the spiked punch, which let to the fact that I was standing in the door opening trying to stay upright. Unfortunately for me this was also the doorway with the mistletoe and then the entire floor decided that they should kiss me. I..I finally decided then that the first person who tried to kiss me again would be in for a surprise…and that person was you, I'm so sorry Nick that I hurt you. But you have to know that the moment that I kissed you something inside of me changed. Nick, I now how this will sound but please you have to believe me.."

"So, what changed Grissom?" Nick' voice was filled with hurt, "You wanted to play a bit more with my feelings?…..Dammit Grissom you know how I reacted to you, you felt it. You have to know what I felt for you, still feel for you…..I just don't understand why you keep on hurting me now."

"Nick, listen to me; first of all; yes I did notice your reaction and I'm sure you noticed mine, and I believe that you could tell that it wasn't a played reaction. Second, after the kiss I began to think about our relationship and I realise now that I need you Nick…….I think I needed you all along. After your abduction things changed and now I know why. When you disappeared I felt like I had been reduced to nothing, that I could not ever be happy again, it was as if someone gutted my heart from me. At first I thought it was simply concern for one of my co-workers, but after I kissed you I realised that there was something more. And now I finally understand, but it's very difficult to say….you know me Nick I'm not good with people and words but..but.."

"Try it Grissom, tell me how you feel. Tell me that you didn't try to hurt my feelings." Nicks plead was heartbrokenly honest. Grissom could almost feel the hope that had settled itself in Nicks eyes.

Taking a deep breath, Grissom continued, laying his heart, his soul, his very being into Nicks hands. "I don't think I can tell you how I feel exactly. No matter how many people tried to put it into words I don't belief anyone had it right. And I'm sure my speech to you isn't the answer to it but I can try to express some of it in words, I hope that the other part you will be able to feel inside your heart. Nick, being with you makes me feel alive, you have the ability to make me feel weak and strong at the same time. You help me stay grounded when I feel like falling. Nick without you I can't breath. I, Gil Grissom, need you, Nick Stokes, in my life."

With those words Grissom finished his speech. Knowing that everything was out of his hands now, he produced the key of the cuffs and released Nick's chain.

" Your free to leave now, thank you for listing. I hope that one day you can forgive me Nick and that perhaps we can become friends again." Grissom slowly lowered his face to his hands scrubbing his eyes in a symbol of universal tiredness while he waited for Nick to leave. What he didn't expect however was the tug on his own still cuffed wrist, resulting that his face fell several inches before he remained his composure again and realised that Nick had clasped the empty cuff back around his wrist.

"N.Nick..What..?"

"Speechless Gris?" Nick questioned, giving a smile that caused Grissom heart to beat faster. "And here I thought that you were on the right track getting to understand the human behaviour."

An surprised "Huh?" was al Grissom could say.

"I forgave you, Gris. How could I not, after your speech? I know for a lot longer then you that I needed you also, and too make sure that you understand that I put us back together in the most symbolic way I can think of. You can't get rid of me now Gris."

Giving a shaky laugh, Grissom pulled Nick towards him, "I would never think of getting rid of you Nicky, I loved you before this started, I loved you during this and I will keep on loving you till the day that I die and probably when there is an afterlife even then ."

And with those words Grissom kissed Nick, realising that sometimes the worst days in someone's live were the most precious ones of all, after all his worst day revealed the truth about his feelings and had given him Nick. All in all not bad for a day that he had considered as the worst day in his life.

Fin