Here it is, my first fanfic. It's a songfic and is also posted on my livejournal. There are small spoilers for the tv series and spoilers for the movie.

A/N: this is roy thinking, this is the song and can be seen as ed thinking.

disclaimer: I don't own FMA, if I did ed would be with roy. Also, the song is "wanted dead or alive" by Bon Jovi, so that's another thing I don't own. Happy now?

Feedback would be much appreciated, but only if you want to. Be nice, flames will be put into my sisters painting. (I'm on a deadline, so I should be paining now.)

So, I'm back in this army. Trying to help. Wandering. Where are you now? What are you doing?

It's all the same, only the names will change
Everyday it seems we're wasting away
Another place where the faces are so cold
I'd drive all night just to get back home

Are you and your brother happy? Healthy?
Did you make friends there? Do you think about this world?
The friends you left behind.
Do you miss me?

I'm a cowboy, on a steel horse I ride
I'm wanted dead or alive
Wanted dead or alive

Back then we met so briefly. Just a trespassing while fighting, before you had to go back there and left me behind.
Did you ask your brother aboutr my eyepatch? Do you think about it?
Did you ask him... Do you think... about me?

Sometimes I sleep, sometimes it's not for days
And the people I meet always go their separate ways
Sometimes you tell the day
By the bottle that you drink
And times when you're all alone all you do is think

Did your brother tell you about me? My relationship, my voluntary isolation, my waiting for something, someone... you.

I'm a cowboy, on a steel horse I ride
I'm wanted dead or alive
Wanted dead or alive

I'm fuhrer now, my goal accomplished, but something's missing, someone... you.
What do you look like now? You had grown so tall, last time we met.
Do you miss me?
I miss you.

I'm a cowboy, on a steel horse I ride
I'm wanted dead or alive
Wanted dead or alive

Are you lookuing for another way? One that won't wreck havoc. One that won't get noticed by the people of that world.
Are you even trying?
I am.

And I walk these streets, a loaded six string on my back
I play for keeps, cuz I might not make it back
I been everywhere, still I'm standing tall
I've seen a million faces, and I've rocked them all.

I remember how you were, how we were.
I want us to be again.
I want you.

So I'm asking you...
I'm begging you...


I'm a cowboy, on a steel horse I ride
I'm wanted dead or alive

I'm a cowboy, I got the night on my side
I'm wanted dead or alive
Wanted dead or alive

And I ride dead or alive
I still ride dead or alive
Dead or alive

Come back.