Disclaimer: I don't own Kingdom Hearts. It belongs to Disney and Square Enix

AN: This chapter starts out with a flashback to when Riku and Sora where in middle school or somewhere around there. About five years before the start of this story. Then it will switch back to Riku and his friends in the cafeteria.

WARNINGS: THIS STORY CONTAINS WORDS AND SCENES NOT SUITABLE FOR READERS WHO ARE NOT MATURE ENOUGH TO HANDLE SUCH THINGS. AFTER ALL, THE RATING IS 'M'.

First some thank yous:

Qeuchua: I'm glad you like it. The secret will be revealed soon. : )

Alli Hearts: Thanks, I'm glad you like so far.

Welcome to my Life

Chapter II

Riku's Pov

"I'll race you to the cove!" Sora yelled before he took off running.

I grinned and shook my head before running after the brunette. I easily caught up to him as we followed the small river through the forest to the cove. I contemplated letting him win but decided against it. He wanted to race so I'd be fair about it. Unfortunately that meant I would win.

The trees started to become sparser and the dirt was mixed with sand. Then it became sand entirely and the trees disappeared altogether. We had reached the cove but I didn't stop. I ran right into the water and stopped when it reached my knees. I heard Sora run into the water and waited until he was next to me before I spoke.

"I win again," I announced smiling at him.

"Yeah, Yeah. You don't have to rub it in," he said, making his cute pouting face.

"But its fun teasing you."

He scowled and I laughed. He glared but that only made me laugh harder.

"Stop laughing," he demanded. "It's not funny."

"Yeah…it…is…" I said between breaths.

He made a growling noise before tackling me and sending me backwards into the water. I pulled him under with me and didn't let him up until I couldn't breathe. When he stood up he glared at me.

"Great, now I'm soaking wet. Thanks Riku."

"It's your fault!" I said as he waded back to the beach. "You tackled me!"

"You were laughing at me!"

'He's got me there,' I thought as I followed him. But I was only laughing because he was so funny. I told him so but he just ignored me. When he got to the beach he plopped down on the sand. I sat down next to him.

"Come on, Sora," I said. "Don't be mad. I was only teasing you."

"Fine," he said reluctantly after a minute.

"Cool…So now what?" I asked as I turned my gaze to the sparkling turquoise sea.

"Dunno…"

We sat in silence for a few minutes. I stared out at the sea but I knew Sora wasn't looking at the scenery. I could feel his gaze on me. I turned my head and found him looking at my chest, where my wet shirt (which was tight enough as it was) clung to the small muscles that I had recently acquired. He had a distant look in his eyes.

I took the opportunity to study him. His shirt also clung to him, showing of the small amount of muscles he had. His spiky hair was still standing up in the back but his bangs where flat, clinging to his forehead. For some reason, he looked so damn irresistible.

"Sora…"

"Huh?" he blinked and looked up at me.

I don't know what made me do it but I couldn't stop myself. I brought my head down and captured his lips beneath mine. He gasped, and our eyes widened, but I deepened the kiss and felt him respond.

As the minutes passed, the kiss became more passionate and lustful. Our hands roamed the other's body in places we had never touched before. Only when we both moaned, did I pull away, my eyes wide in realization of what we had been doing. I scrambled to my feet and backed away frantically as Sora also stood.

"Riku, what's wrong?" he asked.

"What's wrong!" I repeated loudly. "I was kissing you! Doesn't that bother you! We're both guys! I shouldn't feel this way towards you! It's all so wrong!"

"But Riku…" he paused.

"What Sora? What!" I yelled the last part, frustrated.

"I…don't mind…I know other people say its wrong but…it felt so right."

He was right, I admitted to myself. It hadn't felt wrong at all but it scared me. What would out friends-our parents- think? I couldn't let anyone find out about this.

"I do mind," I lied. "It's wrong. I didn't mean it. I've been out in the sun too long. That meant nothing to me and it never will. Don't ever tell anyone about what happened."

I saw the hurt expression on his face but it was too late. The words were out and had already done their damage. I lowered my head, turned, and walked into the forest, heading home.

I never spoke to Sora again after that incident. I was too afraid of what would happen and I didn't want to hurt him again.

PRESENT

The table fell silent and my friends looked at me surprised and shocked. I couldn't blame them. I had always been 'straight' to my friends. This news that I had kissed my best friend, who was also a boy, was extremely shocking. Then they all started talking at once.

"What!"

"You kissed-?"

"HIM!"

"Who!"

"When!"

First all of them spoke (rather loudly too). Then Leon, then Cloud, Tifa, and Leon together, then Yuffie, then Yuffie and Tifa together. I noticed that people where staring, including Sora and his friends. 'Shit!" I bashed my head against the table. Hard. 'Ow.' Bad idea.

"Riku!"

I looked up when my four friends yelled my name. People where still staring.

"Yes, I kissed a guy. I was twelve and he was eleven. I'm not telling you who and it was during the summer," I stated calmly.

"Why?" Tifa asked.

"I wasn't–and I'm still not-entirely sure why. Do you want the whole story?"

"Yeah, it might help."

So I told them what had happened down at the cove. Of course left out Sora's name. Needless to say, they made a scene again when I was finished. I just slammed my head on the table again. Hard.

Sora's Pov

I sighed as I sat down next to Kairi at our table in the cafeteria. I was thinking about what had happened in Art. Riku had seemed sincere about wanting to talk to me and be my friend again. There was just something that screamed 'NO!'. I think it was because of what had happened five years ago.

"What's wrong Sora?" Kairi asked.

"Riku's in my Art class."

"Oh no. What happened?"

"Nothing bad. He just wanted to be friends with me again."

"No way man," Wakka said. "After what he did, you shouldn't have talked to him, ya."

"I had no choice. He was the only person I knew and I was the only person he knew."

Kairi gave me her 'what-are-you-stupid' look.

"You could've sat next to someone else," Tidus said.

"I hate talking to new people," I mumbled.

We were silent for a while as we ate. Suddenly we heard voices being raised a few tables away, then it was silent before four voices yelled out again.

"What!"

"You kissed-?"

"HIM!"

"Who!"

"When!"

We turned and looked over at Riku's table. His four friends seemed upset about something and Riku slammed his head on the table. I heard the thud when his hit the table. The others must have heard it too because Kairi said, "Ow. That has to hurt." Tidus, Selphie, and Wakka nodded in agreement.

"Riku!"

He looked up when they called his name. His friends asked some questions and it looked like he answered them. Then the table was silent for almost fifteen minutes. I didn't need to hear the conversation to know what was being said. I knew he was telling them what had happened between us years ago.

"You jerk!"

The girls responsible for yelling the insult were Yuffie and Tifa. They had stood up and were both yelling at Riku. I have to admit, I hadn't expected that. I don't think Riku, Cloud, and Leon had either. Riku slammed his head on the table again.

"What's got them all riled up again?" Tidus asked. He got his answer soon.

"How could you do that?" Yuffie asked. "You don't just kiss someone, whether you meant to or not, and then tell them that it meant nothing to you!"

"I freaked out!" Riku yelled, standing up. "What would you have done?"

"If I had been in your place I wouldn't have kissed my friend in the first place! If I had I would've tried to explain myself, not blame it on the heat!"

"Wait, are you even the least bit freaked out by this?"

"No."

"So you don't think that it was weird?"

"Nope."

Riku stood there looking confused. Most of the cafeteria was still watching also confused. The whole place was silent, trying to hear what was being said.

"I need some time to think. I'll see you all later."

He turned and headed towards the doors that were located near our table. As he walked by he looked right at me. My friends didn't notice and I don't think Riku's did either.

Third Person

"I need some time to think. I'll see you all later," Riku said.

He turned and walked out of the cafeteria. Yuffie watched and saw him look at a brunette boy sitting near the door. The kid looked back and then down at the table as Riku walked out the doors. Yuffie smiled.

"Hey Yu, what's up?" Tifa asked. "You have your evil smile on. Why?"

"I think I just found out who Riku's friend was," Yuffie said.

"Who?"

"I'll tell you later. I have a plan. Come over to my house after school today."

The two girls sat down to finish their lunch. Cloud stood up.

"I'm going to go find Riku," he said.

"He wants to be left alone," Tifa stated.

"I know."

Before Tifa could say anything else, Cloud walked away.

"He can be so nosey at times," Tifa said watching the blond leave.

When Riku walked out of the cafeteria he turned left and walked around to the back of the school. As he walked, Yuffie's words ran through his head. She'd called him a jerk (Tifa had too, he reminded himself.) 'And they were right,' he thought. 'But I freaked out what was I suppose to do?' He kicked a rock and sent it flying so high that it hit the roof of a portable room. He just kept walking. 'What am I suppose to do?'

'I don't mind…' Sora had said. Riku scowled and kicked another rock. 'It felt so right.' Riku stopped and sighed. 'Sora was right,' Riku thought, running a hand through his silver hair. 'It had felt right. I admitted it to myself then but I freaked out. Yuffie said she didn't think it was weird but I didn't know if my friends would've reacted the same way back then. Damn it.'

"What the hell am I suppose to do!" Riku yelled.

It was a good thing he was mostly alone. People would've looked at him like he was crazy. The only person who saw Riku yell was Cloud. The blond stood several feet behind Riku.

"Someone needs some anger management classes."

Riku turned and saw Cloud behind him. The blond had on an idiotic grin that made Riku scowl again.

"Go to Hell Cloud," Riku said. "I'm not in the mood to listen to your smart-ass comments."

"Come on Riku. What's bothering you?" Cloud asked, sincerely concerned.

"You were present during the little show. You tell me."

"Now who's being a smart-ass," Cloud grinned but it faded when Riku glared. "Look, how do you feel about your friend?"

"I don't know. I'm confused. I'm always hearing people say that homosexuality is a sin and blah blah blah. But when I kissed him he said that he didn't mind. He said it felt right."

"Did it? To you?"

"I…," Riku sighed then admitted, "Yes." He looked up at Cloud with an anxious look and spoke quietly. "It felt perfect. Like it was meant to be or something. I didn't want to pull away but I was scared. Why did it feel so right?"

Cloud was silent for a moment and watched two teens holding hands walk by. He had a distant look on his face, like he was remembering something. Riku wondered what it was that he was remembering.

"It felt right because…you're in love with him."

Without another word Cloud turned and walked away, leaving Riku wondering. 'In love…with Sora?' If Riku wasn't confused before he most definitely was now. How could he be in love with his best friend?

AN: It's a little shorter than the first chapter, sorry. My brain is kind of dead. I couldn't think of a way to finish this chapter! That's so bad! Oh well, this works as an ending and it leaves you wondering. What's Yuffie up to? What's up with Cloud? Is Riku going to accept that he's in love with Sora? All these questions and more will be answered soon. R&R please.