ch.2
G-Major always seemed the same. Nothing was ever different about it. Usually... As I entered the front doors, the first thing I noticed was a mass of people I didn't even recognize running around everywhere. No doubt E.J.'s business. "Jude! Just in time!" I heard a familiar someone shout out. Speaking of E.J. I thought. "Hey, what is all this?" I asked, gesturing towards everything surrounding me. "It's for you! Your party's only two days away. Better to have everything planned and ready than to wait till the last minute! Well, that's what I always say" she said hastily. "Ok...then what am I supposed to do? Wheres Tommy?" I asked. E.J. kept looking around in all directions, avoiding me basically it seemed. "Oh, he's around here somewhere...Now don't put those over there! I told you they go in the far right corner! Not against a wall! That just looks stupid! uhhh!" she yelled frantically, as she took off towards a man holding a big vase of Tulips and babies breath. I couldn't help but let out a laugh.
"For someone whos going to be 18 in a couple days and taking on more responsibility and not to mention alot more stress, you sure seem happy" Tommy said. I turned around to face him and smiled brightly. He always makes me smile for some reason. "Tommy!" I exclaimed and practically jumped into his arms. "Whoa! whoa! Ok to much love here Jude..." he joked. "Sorry...I just, It feels like I havn't seen you in forever" I stated honestly. He shot me a confused expression. "You saw me last night...in the studio" he said. I laughed slightly. "I know, I know but your always with Sadie these days" I blurted out. I didn't mean to say it and immediately regreted it. I noticed how his jaw tensed up and his eyes glazed over. Giving off a unreadable look of what was almost anger. "I guess it would seem that way" he responded bluntly. I suppose I deserved the hint of sarcasm and truthfulness his words held. But it still hurt me. "I...I didn't mean for it to...I'm sorry if I..." I just couldn't seem to find the right words. "It's cool, you just focus on your party and writing the final song for your album" he said, smiling warmly. "Got it" I simply said. For a moment we just stood there. Staring. Not always at each other but still it was a bit awkward. Then the sound of my over-acheiving sister broke the moment. If you could really call it "a moment". "Tom, You were supposed to pick me up for lunch! You didn't show so I had to drive all the way over here! And to find that the reason you never came was because you were chatting with my sister!" she exclaimed. "I forgot, sorry..." Tommy said with pleading eyes. I still don't know how he can put up with her. I don't know how I even put up with her! "Sadie chill" I said. Her eyes directed to me at once. "Just because your turning 18 in two days doesn't make you more important Jude, but out of our convo" she said. I shook my head and just laughed. "Sadie, you might be pretty, smart, and perfect to other people but you couldn't be more immature, selfish and pathetic to me" I said in disgust. It felt good telling her off! I had wanted to do that for a very very long time.
"Sadie, go wait by the viper I'll be there in a sec" Tommy said. Reluctantly she did as he said and scoffed off, pouting. "Jude, why can't you guys just get along for once? I mean is it so hard to be civil to each other" he said. I thought about what he said for a moment. Why was it so hard for me and Sadie to get along? She was my sister. I love her right. I look up to her, I'm supposed to admire my older sibling. We should be like best friends. But we're not. I've never felt completely secure with Sadie. I can't trust her. I can't rely on her. I can't talk to her about my problems. It's sad. Really sad that we can't bond or even tolerate each other. The hardest part of it all is wondering if it's all my fault. If I'm the reason why we're not close. And if it is me, how am I supposed to fix it?
"Jude? Jude..." Tommy said as he waved a hand in front of my face. His gesture brought me back to the real world. "I...we just never have had a good relationship...me and Sadie" I said carefully. He nodded his head. Maybe he understood. Maybe he has similar problems with his siblings. This thought made me think even more. Does Tommy have any brothers or sisters? I've never talked to him about his family or his background. Other than knowing he was a former boy bander, I really knew nothing about Tom Quincy. "Do you have brothers or sisters?" I asked, semi going off the subject of me and Sadie. "I had a younger sister. She died about 5 years ago." he stated sternly. But I knew him better. He was hurting inside. Every time you think about a loved one who has passed on you hurt inside. It's just part of being human. You can't help it. "I'm sorry, I didn't know" I said, looking down at my feet to avoid his stare. I could still feel his eyes penatrating right through me though. "She had cancer. The doctors did what they could. I invested thousands of dollars in getting her the best treatment. Didn't help, I still lost her" he said, his voice cracking. I almost thought he was going to break down and cry. But he didn't. Before I even got to tell him how I felt about what he went through he interuppted. "Listen, I gotta go. I won't be coming in tomorrow, got some stuff to take care of. But I'll see you at your party." Then he smiled and walked out the front doors of G-Major. I felt so sad for Tommy. I'm sure the last thing he wants now is sympathy. He has always had trouble letting his emotions show. He locks them up inside and keeps them there. If he would only release some of it I know he would be a better person. Not that I'm saying he's a bad person! He's one of the best people I have ever met. It's just, he needs to feel.
I stood there for probably 30 minutes pondering. Thinking about everything and anything. Tommy...Sadie...My album...My party...Jaime...Speaking of Jaime! I havn't talked to him today. I should call him. No, he should call me. Wait, I should call him. He is my boyfriend. Maybe I should wait until he calls me. Why am I arguing with myself? Just get out your cell phone and call him! It's not a big deal. I exhaled then reached in my pocket for my phone. Ironic as it may sound, right as I was about to punch in his number, my phone started to ring. I looked at the caller ID and saw that it was none other than Jaime himself. "I'm glad you called..." I breathed into the phone. "Long time no speak" Jaime replied. That's what I love about him. He's such a dork but still sincere. "I was just about to call you" I said. "Funny, so...excited about this friday?" he asked. I could almost see his mile long grin that I knew was plastered on his face at that very moment. "Semi" I said. "Semi? what's that mean?" he asked curiously. "Well, I love the fact that I'm finally turing 18 but the whole party thing...I'm dreading it" I stated truthfully. "You shouldn't, You'll have me there!" he said. I smiled before responding, "Yes, that's true". I heard him exhale then sigh. "Listen, Jude, I know your previous parties havn't been all that great. But this is a new beginning. A time to start new and fresh! Leave all that other crap behind!" he exclaimed. I knew he was right. He's always right. "Ok ok...I trust you on this one" I said. "Alrighty then... uh oh, Jude I gotta go. My mom made Tune Surprise for dinner. I need to go grab a burger and fries so at least I'll get some type of real food tonight." he said. I found myself laughing at the horror I could tell was in his voice. "I'll talk to you later then, see you on Friday?" I asked. "You may see me sooner than that, but I'll call you tomorrow" he said. "Ok, sounds good" I replied. "Bye Jude..." he said. "Later Jaime" I responded, then hung up.