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better then nothing at all ! Even though I don't receive money for it...and
you know what ? It's better that way ! 8)
A/N : And again I wanna thank everyone who reviewed ! Thanks for your good words, guys ! With each review my inspiration is growing and all I want to do - is to write, write....WRITE ! I'm using every free minute when I'm not preparing for exams to write this fic. Well, I better shut up and allow you to read the next chapter. Hope you'll like it.
CHAPTER - 10
Early in the morning Hermione woke up with a strange feeling that she was not alone in the room. Lavender, Parvati and other girls were gone on a winter holidays so the whole dorm was all hers. So there shouldn't be anyone in the room except for her. However there was and it took only a few seconds for her to realise who it was. " Harry ! " - she thought.
- Harry, you can become visible now. I can feel that you're here. - Hermione smiled searching for Harry's ghoust. It appeared right next to her near the window. This time she wasn't afraid of his sudden appearance.
- How did you know that I'm here ? - he asked curiously. His arms were crossed across his chest and there was a huge smile on his face.
- I don't know I just felt your presence.
- You felt a cold breez ?
- No, I just felt that you're here.
- Hmm... That's interesting...By the way, yesterday you were saying something about the spell you have to invent... did you think it up?
Hermione's eyes widened. The spell ! She had completely forgot about it and it's the most important thing in a process of revival which was described in a book. For a moment panic captured her. But then she calmed herself down. She still has enough time to invent it.
- No. Not yet. - she simply answered looking straight at Harry. - Hey, you have never been here in a girls dormitory before. So ? What do you think ?
Harry examined the room and answered.
- Opposite from our dorm... it's clean in here... - he smiled. Hermione giggled.
- That's why it's girls dorm. But I must say that the only clean part of the boys dorm is around your bed.
- Oh, stop it ! You're embarassing me ! But thanks anyway.
Silence took the room. Hermione was looking at Harry. There was only one thing she wanted right now... to tell him everything she felt, to take him in her arms, to feel the heat of his body, his heart beating.... and forget about everything that happened. To throw this terrible memories away like garbage... to hold him and never let go. " Soon... " - she told herself. Minutes seemed to last infinitely. Yesterday she was busy all the time so the day passed very fast. But now when almost everything was ready and she only needed to wait until it was evening, time was moving like a turtle or even slowly. She sighed and got up from her bed.
- Okay, I'm gonna take a bath. - she said heading to the bathroom. She stopped at the threshold and added. - And alone. Alone - means you're not gonna follow me there.
- I didn't even think about it. - Harry said a bit hurt. Hermione gave him an encouraging smile and disappeared behind the door.
Harry was looking at the door for some time as if Hermione was standing there. Then he flew to the window and sat on a window-sill looking somewhere outside dreamingly.
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While Hermione was in the bathroom standing under the warm streams of water she was trying to think up the spell. But again, her head was filled with too many useless thoughts which she couldn't get rid of. It was quite easy for her to deal with almost everything. Why is it so hard right now ? In an instant centaur's words came back to her : " The spell must come from your heart."
" Maybe I can't invent this damn spell only because I'm thinking about it all the time ? I must force myself to think about something else...or not think about anything at all. Then it will appear itself. " - she made a conclusion. She turned off the water and took a towel. She got dressed and walked out of the bathroom. Hermione looked around searching for Harry's ghoust. Then she noticed him sitting on a window-sill. His head in his arms, eyes half closed. Seen him like this it seemed that he was still alive. " I wish it was really so. " She closed her eyes for a moment trying to hold back tears. She started to move closer to him. Step by step she was aproaching him. He didn't turn back to look at her. He didn't even move.
- You know...when something bad happens... you begin to understand many things... - he suddenly said. Then he turned to face her. His face was very serious and painful. - I haven't told you SO many things... and what if you couldn't find a way to revive me ? Then you would never knew it...
- There's no "if". You're gonna be alive again. I know it.
- I was so stupid... And I must ask you to forgive me.
- For what ?
- I told you a terrible thing... I told you that you're nothing for me...That's not true. You're everything for me. You were always there for me even when there was no one to support me ... even Ron once turned away from me. Remember our fourth year at Hogwarts ? - she nodded. - You were helping me with everything...You were risking your own life... I can't imagine my life without you. I want you to know it.
- Thanks, Harry. I knew from the start that you weren't serious when saying this. You was angry, I was angry... we told each other stupid things... but let's just forget about all this.
- I agree. And let's promise each other not to quarrel again for stupid reasons.
- Yes. And lets promise to invent a potion against Mackled Malaclaw.
- All right. - Harry smiled. He made a pause and then asked. - Are you scared ?
- Yes. - she answered honestly. - I'm afraid of loosing you.
- You think it won't work out ?
- No. I have no doubts that everything will work out. But anyway I'm afraid to lose you. I can't imagine what my life may be without a boy with messy hair, emerald green eyes and a smile which always made me feel better....
- I would've died....earlier.... without you. You have done so many things for me...
- And you for me.
- No. Everything I gave you is risk and danger. I'm like a magnet drawing troubles...
- That's not true. Don't say such things. It's not your fault. You gave me many things.
- Like what ?
- You made my life interesting and.. full. You're became the closest person to me. Even more close than my parents.
- Can't wait till I'll be alive again... I have so many things to tell you.
- So do I. Don't worry, we only need to wait until it will be evening.
- Oh, it's SO long !
- I know...
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Hermione and Harry's ghoust talked all day. They were interrupted only once by Lupin who came to take Harry's invissible cloak. They were just sitting in girls dormitory and taking. The time stopped, the world disappeared. It was as if they were in their own world where there was nothing except for them. Hermione felt that she was happy for the first time during these past few days. She suddenly thought that she never talked to Harry THAT much. Of course they were talking sometimes but there was surely no time to talk like this....without been interrupted, without a need to hurry somewhere. And of course there was no Ron who could hear what they were talking about. They were talking about everything. About everything they can only think of. Except maybe for their feelings for each other as both of them decided to themselves that it was better to talk about it when everything will end. Hermione wasn't thinking about anything. There were no doubts that something will go wrong, there was no fear that everything may not work out. She was just talking to Harry and feeling that she's happy. " Why did I never think of how I really feel about him before ? " - she asked herself. " He's so wonderful ! "
Meanwhile the sunset began. So they had to stop their endless conversation. Hermione got up from the bed and walked to the window where Harry was sitting. The sun as red as blood was slowly disappearing behind the horizon colouring the sky in a colour of puple and scarlet. A cold wind was blowing and dark clouds were slowly moving from the West.The storm was about to begin.
She suddenly remembered about something she had totally forgot of. The spell. But only this time there was no need to torture herself to think it up. The right words appeared at once in her head : " Amontremor ". Somewhat she was sure that this spell was right. She couldn't explain why but she knew it. She wrote it on a piece of parchment and put it in her pocket.
- What did you write ?
- The spell.
- You thought it up ! - Harry said excitedly.
- Yes. Now everything is ready. Any minute now Lupin can walk in with your body and the storm is coming. All we need now - is luck.
Suddenly the door opened itself. Harry and Hermione turned around to see who it was. But there was no one at the threshold. Hermione understood at once who came in.
- Professor Lupin. It's all right. There's no one in the room except for me and Harry.
- How many times do I have to tell you to call me just Reamus, Hermione ?
- I can't get used to it. - she explained.
- Oh, well. Are you two ready ?
Harry's ghoust floated to Reamus Lupin and looked at his own body. Horror suddenly appeared on his face. He was looking at it for some minutes and then looked at Lupin.
- This is me ? - he asked. His voice shaking.
- Yeah. - Lupin answered. - You know...it's very odd to see both of you here at the same time. Let's just take you back into your body.
- And quickly. I'm tired of floating above the ground.
- Okay, let's go ! Quickly ! - he said disappearing under Harry's cloak. The ghoust of Harry James Potter became invisible again. Hermione felt herself extremely foolish. Like she was crazy or something. She was walking through the corridor all alone and whispering something as if she was talking to herself. Student's must've thought that Hermione had gone mad after Harry's death. In fact she doesn't care what the other will think about her. She was feeling that Harry and Lupin were following her and she was trying not to pay attention at them. But it was very hard. They were wispering something to her and again she was struggling with the urge to turn around and ask them what they were talking about.
They almost reached the exit when suddenly Hermione saw professor McGonagall walking to her. She stopped and felt a terrible fear that she may not allow her to walk out of the castle. it was so risky ! But McGonagall said nothing but one phase.
- Hermione, are you going to miss the supper ?
- Yes. I have no appetite... - 'Mione was looking at Minerva's sad face fearing for her new words to be : " It's late. If you're going to miss the supper then go back to your dorm and sit there. " But McGonagall wasn't even thinking about saying anything like that.
- Okay then... You better take a walk. But do not walk near the Forbidden Forest. It's dangerous.
Hermione was a little shocked. She stared at transfiguration proffesor for some seconds and then nodded in agreement. McGonagall placed her arm on her shoulder and smiled at her weakly. When she walked away into the Great Hall and was out of the ear shot, Hermione heard Harry's amazed words :
- Wow! I have never seen her so sad.
- As I told you... it is a great loss to everyone. You must've see Dumbldore...I can't recognise him anymore.
- And all the others can't. - Lupin added. - He locked himself in his office. He barely leave it. We can see him only during the feasts but he's not talking to everyone except for McGonagall maybe. He's not making speeches anymore. He did it only once when he announced mourning. He had changed...that's true. And so do everyone. Everyone were thinking that Harry's not like the other humans...that he's some kind of a superhero who can't be harmed. Now they can see that it's not true. - Lupin whispered. - But not only that. They understand that now there's nobody to protect them. Of course Voldemort was always afraid of Albus but he can't kill him. And everyone know that. You were the only person who could defeat him. And now you're gone. Of course they're thinking that all of them will die.
Harry and Hermione said nothing. They just continued moving on the field. Slowly they reached the place where Harry was killed. Terrible memories came back to Hermione. The memories of Harry's death. She stopped suddenly causing Harry and Lupin to stop too. Hermione was looking at the spot on the ground where Harry's lifeless body laid a few days ago. It was terrible. It was as if she was experiensing the same moment over and over again. Like it was a nightmare which is not ending.
Harry floated to 'Mione slowly and looked at her worriedly. Her eyes were wet from tears which didn't escaped them yet and she could feel that her ankles were shaking a little.
- Hermione, are you okay ? - Harry asked with a concern in his voice.
- This is the place where... where you...died.
- I know. So let's bring me to life. Don't even think about anything depressing.
- I'm afraid that the spell which I invented is wrong. It's risky, Harry...what if everything won't work out ?
- Let's try at least. I believe in you. There's nothing you can't handle with.
Lupin threw the cloak off and turned to Hermione.
- Where do I need to place Harry's body ? - he asked.
- You need to place it exactly on the place where it lied when he...was...he was...killed. - she instructed still not daring to take a step forward. - And you Harry must stand near your body. - Harry took the right position. Lupin stepped backwards and Hermione drew out her wand. Bright lightnings were cleaving the sky and a loud thunder was forcing them to shiver. It was very scary to stand there on the field. It seemed that a firebolt can hit you at any minute. But it was more scary to think that she may never see Harry alive again. She pointed her wand at Harry's ghoust and shouted :
- Amontremor ! - when she cried out that spell it seemed that the sky was on fire. It lightened up with a red glow but only for a minute. In the next moment it became dadly black again.
- Amontremor ! - she shouted again. The earth began to shake. Lupin fell to the ground still looking at the sky. Thousands of bright points were flying in the sky with improbable speed and disappearing as unexpectedly as they appeared. Lots of firebolts were striking the ground forcing it to shake. The thunder became deafening.
- Amontremor ! - she shouted for the third time. A green firebolt escaped from the sky and hit Harry's ghoust. Hermione screamed and fell to the ground covering her head with her arms. There was a bright red flash that blinded her and professor Lupin who was also lying on the ground. Then everything fell silence. She felt something cold and wet on her face and understood at once that it was rain. When her vision became clear she looked around. The ghoust disappeared. Harry's body was lying on the same spot still not moving. She was too far from it to see if Harry James Potter is alive. She felt that for some reasons she was afraid to move. She was afraid to come near him and find him dead. She lowered her head and tried to find the courage to stand up. Step by step she was aproaching Harry....
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Well, this is chapter 10. Is Harry alive ? You will learn it in chapter 11. :)) Please, review !
A/N : And again I wanna thank everyone who reviewed ! Thanks for your good words, guys ! With each review my inspiration is growing and all I want to do - is to write, write....WRITE ! I'm using every free minute when I'm not preparing for exams to write this fic. Well, I better shut up and allow you to read the next chapter. Hope you'll like it.
CHAPTER - 10
Early in the morning Hermione woke up with a strange feeling that she was not alone in the room. Lavender, Parvati and other girls were gone on a winter holidays so the whole dorm was all hers. So there shouldn't be anyone in the room except for her. However there was and it took only a few seconds for her to realise who it was. " Harry ! " - she thought.
- Harry, you can become visible now. I can feel that you're here. - Hermione smiled searching for Harry's ghoust. It appeared right next to her near the window. This time she wasn't afraid of his sudden appearance.
- How did you know that I'm here ? - he asked curiously. His arms were crossed across his chest and there was a huge smile on his face.
- I don't know I just felt your presence.
- You felt a cold breez ?
- No, I just felt that you're here.
- Hmm... That's interesting...By the way, yesterday you were saying something about the spell you have to invent... did you think it up?
Hermione's eyes widened. The spell ! She had completely forgot about it and it's the most important thing in a process of revival which was described in a book. For a moment panic captured her. But then she calmed herself down. She still has enough time to invent it.
- No. Not yet. - she simply answered looking straight at Harry. - Hey, you have never been here in a girls dormitory before. So ? What do you think ?
Harry examined the room and answered.
- Opposite from our dorm... it's clean in here... - he smiled. Hermione giggled.
- That's why it's girls dorm. But I must say that the only clean part of the boys dorm is around your bed.
- Oh, stop it ! You're embarassing me ! But thanks anyway.
Silence took the room. Hermione was looking at Harry. There was only one thing she wanted right now... to tell him everything she felt, to take him in her arms, to feel the heat of his body, his heart beating.... and forget about everything that happened. To throw this terrible memories away like garbage... to hold him and never let go. " Soon... " - she told herself. Minutes seemed to last infinitely. Yesterday she was busy all the time so the day passed very fast. But now when almost everything was ready and she only needed to wait until it was evening, time was moving like a turtle or even slowly. She sighed and got up from her bed.
- Okay, I'm gonna take a bath. - she said heading to the bathroom. She stopped at the threshold and added. - And alone. Alone - means you're not gonna follow me there.
- I didn't even think about it. - Harry said a bit hurt. Hermione gave him an encouraging smile and disappeared behind the door.
Harry was looking at the door for some time as if Hermione was standing there. Then he flew to the window and sat on a window-sill looking somewhere outside dreamingly.
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While Hermione was in the bathroom standing under the warm streams of water she was trying to think up the spell. But again, her head was filled with too many useless thoughts which she couldn't get rid of. It was quite easy for her to deal with almost everything. Why is it so hard right now ? In an instant centaur's words came back to her : " The spell must come from your heart."
" Maybe I can't invent this damn spell only because I'm thinking about it all the time ? I must force myself to think about something else...or not think about anything at all. Then it will appear itself. " - she made a conclusion. She turned off the water and took a towel. She got dressed and walked out of the bathroom. Hermione looked around searching for Harry's ghoust. Then she noticed him sitting on a window-sill. His head in his arms, eyes half closed. Seen him like this it seemed that he was still alive. " I wish it was really so. " She closed her eyes for a moment trying to hold back tears. She started to move closer to him. Step by step she was aproaching him. He didn't turn back to look at her. He didn't even move.
- You know...when something bad happens... you begin to understand many things... - he suddenly said. Then he turned to face her. His face was very serious and painful. - I haven't told you SO many things... and what if you couldn't find a way to revive me ? Then you would never knew it...
- There's no "if". You're gonna be alive again. I know it.
- I was so stupid... And I must ask you to forgive me.
- For what ?
- I told you a terrible thing... I told you that you're nothing for me...That's not true. You're everything for me. You were always there for me even when there was no one to support me ... even Ron once turned away from me. Remember our fourth year at Hogwarts ? - she nodded. - You were helping me with everything...You were risking your own life... I can't imagine my life without you. I want you to know it.
- Thanks, Harry. I knew from the start that you weren't serious when saying this. You was angry, I was angry... we told each other stupid things... but let's just forget about all this.
- I agree. And let's promise each other not to quarrel again for stupid reasons.
- Yes. And lets promise to invent a potion against Mackled Malaclaw.
- All right. - Harry smiled. He made a pause and then asked. - Are you scared ?
- Yes. - she answered honestly. - I'm afraid of loosing you.
- You think it won't work out ?
- No. I have no doubts that everything will work out. But anyway I'm afraid to lose you. I can't imagine what my life may be without a boy with messy hair, emerald green eyes and a smile which always made me feel better....
- I would've died....earlier.... without you. You have done so many things for me...
- And you for me.
- No. Everything I gave you is risk and danger. I'm like a magnet drawing troubles...
- That's not true. Don't say such things. It's not your fault. You gave me many things.
- Like what ?
- You made my life interesting and.. full. You're became the closest person to me. Even more close than my parents.
- Can't wait till I'll be alive again... I have so many things to tell you.
- So do I. Don't worry, we only need to wait until it will be evening.
- Oh, it's SO long !
- I know...
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Hermione and Harry's ghoust talked all day. They were interrupted only once by Lupin who came to take Harry's invissible cloak. They were just sitting in girls dormitory and taking. The time stopped, the world disappeared. It was as if they were in their own world where there was nothing except for them. Hermione felt that she was happy for the first time during these past few days. She suddenly thought that she never talked to Harry THAT much. Of course they were talking sometimes but there was surely no time to talk like this....without been interrupted, without a need to hurry somewhere. And of course there was no Ron who could hear what they were talking about. They were talking about everything. About everything they can only think of. Except maybe for their feelings for each other as both of them decided to themselves that it was better to talk about it when everything will end. Hermione wasn't thinking about anything. There were no doubts that something will go wrong, there was no fear that everything may not work out. She was just talking to Harry and feeling that she's happy. " Why did I never think of how I really feel about him before ? " - she asked herself. " He's so wonderful ! "
Meanwhile the sunset began. So they had to stop their endless conversation. Hermione got up from the bed and walked to the window where Harry was sitting. The sun as red as blood was slowly disappearing behind the horizon colouring the sky in a colour of puple and scarlet. A cold wind was blowing and dark clouds were slowly moving from the West.The storm was about to begin.
She suddenly remembered about something she had totally forgot of. The spell. But only this time there was no need to torture herself to think it up. The right words appeared at once in her head : " Amontremor ". Somewhat she was sure that this spell was right. She couldn't explain why but she knew it. She wrote it on a piece of parchment and put it in her pocket.
- What did you write ?
- The spell.
- You thought it up ! - Harry said excitedly.
- Yes. Now everything is ready. Any minute now Lupin can walk in with your body and the storm is coming. All we need now - is luck.
Suddenly the door opened itself. Harry and Hermione turned around to see who it was. But there was no one at the threshold. Hermione understood at once who came in.
- Professor Lupin. It's all right. There's no one in the room except for me and Harry.
- How many times do I have to tell you to call me just Reamus, Hermione ?
- I can't get used to it. - she explained.
- Oh, well. Are you two ready ?
Harry's ghoust floated to Reamus Lupin and looked at his own body. Horror suddenly appeared on his face. He was looking at it for some minutes and then looked at Lupin.
- This is me ? - he asked. His voice shaking.
- Yeah. - Lupin answered. - You know...it's very odd to see both of you here at the same time. Let's just take you back into your body.
- And quickly. I'm tired of floating above the ground.
- Okay, let's go ! Quickly ! - he said disappearing under Harry's cloak. The ghoust of Harry James Potter became invisible again. Hermione felt herself extremely foolish. Like she was crazy or something. She was walking through the corridor all alone and whispering something as if she was talking to herself. Student's must've thought that Hermione had gone mad after Harry's death. In fact she doesn't care what the other will think about her. She was feeling that Harry and Lupin were following her and she was trying not to pay attention at them. But it was very hard. They were wispering something to her and again she was struggling with the urge to turn around and ask them what they were talking about.
They almost reached the exit when suddenly Hermione saw professor McGonagall walking to her. She stopped and felt a terrible fear that she may not allow her to walk out of the castle. it was so risky ! But McGonagall said nothing but one phase.
- Hermione, are you going to miss the supper ?
- Yes. I have no appetite... - 'Mione was looking at Minerva's sad face fearing for her new words to be : " It's late. If you're going to miss the supper then go back to your dorm and sit there. " But McGonagall wasn't even thinking about saying anything like that.
- Okay then... You better take a walk. But do not walk near the Forbidden Forest. It's dangerous.
Hermione was a little shocked. She stared at transfiguration proffesor for some seconds and then nodded in agreement. McGonagall placed her arm on her shoulder and smiled at her weakly. When she walked away into the Great Hall and was out of the ear shot, Hermione heard Harry's amazed words :
- Wow! I have never seen her so sad.
- As I told you... it is a great loss to everyone. You must've see Dumbldore...I can't recognise him anymore.
- And all the others can't. - Lupin added. - He locked himself in his office. He barely leave it. We can see him only during the feasts but he's not talking to everyone except for McGonagall maybe. He's not making speeches anymore. He did it only once when he announced mourning. He had changed...that's true. And so do everyone. Everyone were thinking that Harry's not like the other humans...that he's some kind of a superhero who can't be harmed. Now they can see that it's not true. - Lupin whispered. - But not only that. They understand that now there's nobody to protect them. Of course Voldemort was always afraid of Albus but he can't kill him. And everyone know that. You were the only person who could defeat him. And now you're gone. Of course they're thinking that all of them will die.
Harry and Hermione said nothing. They just continued moving on the field. Slowly they reached the place where Harry was killed. Terrible memories came back to Hermione. The memories of Harry's death. She stopped suddenly causing Harry and Lupin to stop too. Hermione was looking at the spot on the ground where Harry's lifeless body laid a few days ago. It was terrible. It was as if she was experiensing the same moment over and over again. Like it was a nightmare which is not ending.
Harry floated to 'Mione slowly and looked at her worriedly. Her eyes were wet from tears which didn't escaped them yet and she could feel that her ankles were shaking a little.
- Hermione, are you okay ? - Harry asked with a concern in his voice.
- This is the place where... where you...died.
- I know. So let's bring me to life. Don't even think about anything depressing.
- I'm afraid that the spell which I invented is wrong. It's risky, Harry...what if everything won't work out ?
- Let's try at least. I believe in you. There's nothing you can't handle with.
Lupin threw the cloak off and turned to Hermione.
- Where do I need to place Harry's body ? - he asked.
- You need to place it exactly on the place where it lied when he...was...he was...killed. - she instructed still not daring to take a step forward. - And you Harry must stand near your body. - Harry took the right position. Lupin stepped backwards and Hermione drew out her wand. Bright lightnings were cleaving the sky and a loud thunder was forcing them to shiver. It was very scary to stand there on the field. It seemed that a firebolt can hit you at any minute. But it was more scary to think that she may never see Harry alive again. She pointed her wand at Harry's ghoust and shouted :
- Amontremor ! - when she cried out that spell it seemed that the sky was on fire. It lightened up with a red glow but only for a minute. In the next moment it became dadly black again.
- Amontremor ! - she shouted again. The earth began to shake. Lupin fell to the ground still looking at the sky. Thousands of bright points were flying in the sky with improbable speed and disappearing as unexpectedly as they appeared. Lots of firebolts were striking the ground forcing it to shake. The thunder became deafening.
- Amontremor ! - she shouted for the third time. A green firebolt escaped from the sky and hit Harry's ghoust. Hermione screamed and fell to the ground covering her head with her arms. There was a bright red flash that blinded her and professor Lupin who was also lying on the ground. Then everything fell silence. She felt something cold and wet on her face and understood at once that it was rain. When her vision became clear she looked around. The ghoust disappeared. Harry's body was lying on the same spot still not moving. She was too far from it to see if Harry James Potter is alive. She felt that for some reasons she was afraid to move. She was afraid to come near him and find him dead. She lowered her head and tried to find the courage to stand up. Step by step she was aproaching Harry....
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Well, this is chapter 10. Is Harry alive ? You will learn it in chapter 11. :)) Please, review !