Disclaimer: These characters aren't mine, only the story is.

Title: Purple on Purple

Fandom: Saiyuki x Yami no Matsuei

Rating: PG13 as for now because of certain hints, but will be R soon.

((Thanks to Writtenwords and Kikiro Tsuatashi for reviewing! Sorry for the long delay, we had our semestral break and then one whole week of school with nothing but biochemistry… Grrrr…))

PURPLE ON PURPLE – Pondering

Hakkai woke from his slumber the moment he felt Sanzo getting up from his sleep. The monk's bed was just right beside his, and any movement from him is definitely noticeable. But he didn't open his eyes. He didn't need to anyway because of his heightened senses. And because he knew how Sanzo sounds like even when he's not talking.

He never usually bothered to know what Sanzo was doing everytime the monk got up from bed at night. The blonde usually just gets up, walks around, haves a smoke or two, and then goes back to sleep. Nothing more, although sometimes there would be an occasional drink from the secret alcohol container. He knew the familiar click of Sanzo's gun which he hears on stormy nights. He knew when Sanzo finally lies back down in bed and he would go back to sleep as well.

But that night, he was surprised. Sanzo did get up, but he walked over him to Gojyo's bed where he roused the redhead from sleep. What is he up to?

A sense of jealousy crept right up his spine. Somehow, he couldn't help wondering why it was Gojyo the monk chose for company and not him. What could be the reason for this? For what would he pick Gojyo over me?

He closed his eyes even more tightly, and felt the pain sear through him. It couldn't be something he would need a friend for. And that crosses out a whole lot of possible things. And he CANT be attracted to Gojyo. I'd die if that happened. He winced at the thought and heard the two leave. But what if he is?

When he was sure that the two were already far from their tent, Hakkai got up and sat near the entrance. Goku was still snoring peacefully like he always did. Such a heavy sleeper, he sighed. If I were like that, maybe I wouldn't have been feeling this way. Maybe I wouldn't have spent nights lying awake next to the one who makes my heart go crazy. Maybe I wouldn't have rejected Gojyo so badly. He thought of what happened a few months ago when the half-demon openly expressed his feelings.

-------------------------------------------A few months ago-------------------------------------------

Hakkai had been busy daydreaming about Sanzo when Gojyo suddenly burst into the room and kneeled down in front of him. He had taken his hands into his and looked up at him with shining eyes. There had been flowers too, a big bunch of red roses that looked specially big and beautiful. Hakkai had been totally taken by surprise and he laughed at his friend before Gojyo even began to speak. When Gojyo said those three words in his serious tone, he had laughed even harder. That was when Gojyo seized him and pinned him to the wall.

"Listen 'Kai, I'm serious about this." Gojyo stared at him in the eyes while pinning him to the wall. "I need you. I love you."

"Gojyo…"

"Remember when I told you that I had finally found the one?"

"Uhm…"

"It's you. I knew I loved you ever since I first saw you. And when you stayed with me in my house, I thought I was going to go mad because of nervousness..."

"We…" Gojyo pressed his lips against his to stop him from talking.

"I became crazy. Infatuated-crazy for you. And don't tell me you've never noticed." Gojyo looked at him with those shining eyes and waited for an answer that never came. Hakkai stared back at him wordlessly, his mind spinning. Yes, I've noticed. Of course I have. You've been making so many moves that I grew used to them. But..

"I've noticed, Gojyo.. " A sigh. "But…"

"But!" Gojyo snapped before he was able to continue what he was going to say. "Gods., that fucking word! Why are you using that now 'Kai? You never used that word!" Hakkai stared at him helplessly. "Why do you have to use that on ME!"

"I'm sorry… I just don't feel what you're feeling.."

Gojyo broke down at those words, and then quietly left. Since then, he had been as amiable to him as possible, but Gojyo had built an indestructible barrier around him.

But Hakkai did feel what Gojyo was feeling somehow. What would he do if he came proposing to Sanzo like this and ended up getting the same answer? I just don't feel what you're feeling… shit hakkai, you have to stop being so curt! He regretted the way he treated Gojyo ever since, and Gojyo's hurt look never left him his dreams.

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I cant help it, Gojyo. I'm crazy for someone else, someone who might reject me the way I did you. Maybe I'd never even tell him I like him. But maybe I will.

His thoughts shifted to what happened earlier. He sighed. If the two are getting it on, then, good for them. But he's never noticed anything between the two before. At least he got nothing from Sanzo. Gojyo was an extremely horny person anyway and he knew how the redhead fantasizes about almost everyone he liked. And Sanzo WAS hot. That was why he was attracted to the monk. Even if he was a monk. And a rude one at that too.

"Wake up.." Someone stroked his cheek softly. Hisoka was startled to see darkness all around him. And then it all came back to him. He had been lying on Gojyo's chest all this time, and his neck hurt.

"Let's go back to camp. You'll be able to sleep better there." Gojyo waited for Hisoka to sit up, and then he pulled himself up. "Come on," he extended a strong hand to the blonde who accepted the support gratefully. Gojyo placed an arm around him as they walked, and, although hesitantly, Hisoka found himself wrapping an arm around the redhead's waist as well.

"Hey, Gojyo.."

"Hmm?"

"I don't know anything about you."

"Me neither." That earned a soft chuckle from the shinigami, but he remained persistent.

"How can we actually have a relationship without knowing each other?"

"You think we're going to have a relationship together?"

Hisoka was struck dumb with his reply. "Well.. Yes?"

"You sure you want to stick with me?"

"Why do you think I made a move?"

"Coz you're attracted to me."

"And you're attracted to me too."

"But you made a move on me. And that fast too."

"You would have done something as well if I didn't."

Gojyo laughed out loudly to himself. Damn, this kid is good.

"And what do you think would I have done?"

Hisoka was silent. He didn't know. And before anything else happened, Gojyo was kissing him up his neck He shivered when he felt Gojyo's tongue lightly caressing his earlobe, and his knees weakened on the spot, making him stumble right into Gojyo's loving arms. Something inside told him that something that was so wrong felt so good.

((There! I couldn't update here in the dorm because the internet's down, so I'm uploading this at school. There's going to be another grueling week of studying for our comprehensive exam in anatomy so the next update's coming in 1-2 weeks.. Hehehe.. And it's Friday! skips off and packs for home.. For any suggestions (cause I do NEED them), comments, or what-have-you, please leave a review! Thanks!)))