More Than a One Night Stand

When It All Feels So Wrong

Lily felt her cheeks go red and she really had to resist the temptation of pushing Potter away and storming out of the Great Hall. She glanced at Black who looked at her with his eyebrows raised. He mouthed something like 'do something' and smirked. Lily rolled her eyes and pushed herself closer to Potter. She rested her head upon his shoulder and smiled at Lisa.

"Yes, I didn't tell you because I wasn't really ready for your reaction, but I guess it's useless to hide it now, isn't it?" she asked and looked up at him. James just nodded his head and stroked her hair softly.

Lisa obviously couldn't find the right words; she just stared at them blankly as if waiting for someone to wake her up.

Few feet away from them Remus and Peter joined Lisa in gaping at the pair cuddling like they loved each other ever since they first set eyes on each other. Sirius laughed and walked over to sit down. Both Remus and Peter followed him and sat down as well.

"Good morning," Sirius smiled broadly at everyone and took an apple. "How are you all doing?"

Nobody answered him though; everyone was too busy being shocked. Lisa finally broke from her daze and stood up.

"Lily, Divination begins in five minutes. We should head to the classroom."

"Yes, you're right!" Lily said briskly and shot up from her seat. She grabbed her bag and almost ran when Sirius' look stopped her. His cold gray eyes that stared at her in disapproval made her blood hit a boiling point. She clenched her teeth, but it seemed she didn't have any other choice. He wanted to play this game? Fine! She would play along and show him that he won't win over her.

She bent over and without a single warning captured James' lips. He was really surprised at this since he stayed numb for a few seconds, his eyes opened. But then he joined to play the game Sirius has set. He kissed her back deeply, his tongue circling in her mouth. She gave a soft moan and ran her hands up his shoulders, but suddenly broke away. She watched him for a small short second before narrowing herself. "See you later," she smiled down at him and James only nodded his head absent-mindedly.

Lily turned on her heel and headed towards the exit of the Great Hall. Lisa stood on her spot shocked once more before shaking her head and following Lily. In no time she caught up with her and breathlessly asked, "Okay, I now want to know everything. What in the bloody hell has happened back there?"

"We don't have any time for explanations right now," said Lily as she quickened her pace, trying to get away from Lisa's curiosity. But Lisa wasn't willing to give up that easily. She stood right in front of Lily and blocked her way.

"I know that this is none of my business and that I should keep my nose out of it, but….how come? You two? Since when are you two together? And how did that happen? I thought it was impossible!"

"I thought so too, but we never expect the unexpected, do we? Look Lisa, let's go to class now. We'll talk later, I promise, but we have to hurry or we'll be late."

Lisa watched Lily closely as if she was to read all the answers in her green eyes, but she didn't. She sighed and stood back.

"Fine," she said and Lily let out a sigh of relief. Good, now she'll have a whole hour for coming up with some lie to cover for this.

James stared into his cauldron helplessly and watched toad's legs and beak of something collide and a black smoke erupted from it. He had to stop the smoke with his wand and when he did so, he heard sniggering behind his back. He turned around and saw Snape laughing into his face.

"What are you laughing at, Snivellus?" he gritted through his teeth and gave him a very ugly look.

"Nothing, only how incapable you are of making such an easy potion," he shrugged and turned back to his cauldron. James wasn't in the mood to jinx that slimy git so he just sat back, crossing his arms across his chest. He was actually shaking from all the anger, but this time, Snivellus had nothing to do with it.

He was angry of the way he had made a fool out of himself. In front of Lily and her friend, in front of his friends, in front of everybody. How could he ever agree to something like that? He was going to kill Sirius! He was going to kill him!

James never thought it would feel that stupid. He thought he could manage to pretend for one week, but obviously he couldn't. It just felt so wrong. That kiss in the Great Hall for example. It was hot and all, but so unreal, so fake. He had always wanted to be with Lily Evans at one point or another, but not this way. He didn't want to pretend.

That was it; he was going to tell Sirius that he will no longer be like a puppet. He didn't care that everyone will know about their one night stand. What would it do to him? Nothing. He will end this screwed up game before it gets too far.

The bell rang and James thankfully emptied his cauldron with a spell and headed out. He didn't really care that he got a zero for today's work. He was one of the best students in Potions, so it wouldn't do him much harm.

He walked down the hall when he saw Remus heading towards him. He exactly knew what was to come next. He's going to ask questions about the whole thing and James decided that he will not lie.

"Hey prongs, how was Potions?" asked Remus as he patted him on the shoulder and smiled. He looked well and the circles under his eyes, that were usually there, seemed to lighten so they weren't that visible. When the moon was only half-full, Remus was very happy and thankful for that due to his condition being a werewolf.

"It was fine, only a little boring today. I got so caught up in thoughts that I absolutely forgot about it. It nearly exploded and Snivellus made fun of me."

"Let him be happy at least once," laughed Remus. "We all know that usually your potions are better and he just cannot cope with that. Anyway, I wanted to…erm…ask something-"

"What has happened this morning?" finished James for him and Remus nodded.

"See, I know you were head over heels for Evans back in fifth and sixth year, but you, yourself, have said that you are over her. Eh…have you changed your mind? My eyes nearly jumped out of my bulges. I mean…you and Evans? I could understand everything, but you and Evans?" Remus made a funny grimace of utter confusion and James only shook his head and sighed.

"I didn't change my mind. Not exactly."

"Then what happened? Look, if you don't want to talk about it, you don't have to," he reassured him and leaned against the wall, supporting himself with his arm.

"No, it's okay. Well, it's like this…after the Halloween party there was this incident," said James nervously as he rubbed his head.

"There were a lot of funny incidents. I had to deal with quite a lot since I'm a prefect. I was in much trouble for setting the pair of dungbombs in front of Mrs. Norris and some sixth years-"

"I don't mean incidents like those, Remus," James cut in and eyed him warily. Remus closed his mouth and listened. "I drank a little too much of butterbeer and so did Evans. We had this kind of a row and then…well, I woke up with her sleeping next to me completely naked."

Remus winced and his jaw dropped indignantly. He wasn't leaning against the wall anymore, but narrowed himself and stared at James.

"Oh boy," he let out.

"Yes, those are just the words for the whole situation. Okay, back to the story. We both realized what kind of an insane thing we've done and decided to forget it and move in with our lives and live happily ever after without having to come into contact again."

"But?"

"But Sirius found out and being as thick as he is, he made us to pretend we're together for the whole week otherwise he'll spill our secret to the whole school."

"Sirius has done this to you? So surprising of him," Remus said and James sensed a bit of bitterness in his voice. Sirius and Remus made up ages ago after the incident in sixth year when Remus nearly killed Snape thanks to Sirius, but Remus obviously still couldn't quite get over it.

"He didn't mean to do me any harm. He actually thought he'd help because he thought that I'm still in love with Evans and that this is a perfect chance for me to get her. The end, that's how it happened. What you saw at breakfast today was nothing but fake. It wasn't real. Evans still hates me just as I hate her, nothing's changed and I doubt something will because I'm going straight to Sirius to tell him I am through with this!"

"Why did you agree to this in the first place?"

"Because neither I nor Evans wanted the whole school knowing about our one night stand, but now I don't really give a damn. I just feel so stupid when I kiss Evans with the knowledge that she's disgusted by it," James exclaimed and leaned against the wall with his back. He was frowning and ran a hand through his unruly hair. Remus wasn't sure of what to tell him. His best friend was obviously very upset, but there was nothing that could cheer him up at the moment.

"I don't think she was disgusted," he said softly, trying to make the situation a bit better.

"Oh really?" James retorted sarcastically and laughed bitterly. "How did you come up with that?"

"Well, when you kissed this morning, I think I would've noticed a bit of disgust on her face, but I haven't. She didn't look repulsed or something, she seemed confused and somewhat angry."

"That's because her acting skills are great. She agreed to the whole thing just because she doesn't want her reputation to flop. She's the oh-so-important Head Girl and she has to behave."

"She is not such a bitch. Reputation is not everything for her. It's normal that she doesn't want the whole school to know she has done a mistake. It's always hard to admit our mistakes. Try to understand her."

James remained quiet and decided that this conversation has ended. Remus didn't lighten up his mood at all; he now only had more to think about. Why did he always have to come with some freaking wise words to complicate the situation even more?

"Let's go to the next lesson," he said and headed down the corridor. Remus followed him.

"When will you have your quidditch training?" he asked trying to change the subject to James' favourite.

"This evening." It helped because James smiled and his eyes sparkled. "We have the first match tomorrow and I just cannot wait."

Author's Note:

I think that I explained myself the wrong way in my last author's note. I didn't mean to say I didn't like the story or the idea, I actually do. I wouldn't be writing it otherwise. I only couldn't help the feeling that there were too many things wrong with the story.I was really afraid of all your reactions. I'm not really confident in these things, but all your reviews encouraged me so much that I realized that this story is worth writing and I will continue writing it and I will do my best. All thanks to you. I love you for that, seriously. You have done just what I needed. Your words encouraged me so much and I really want to thank you for it.

Thank you.

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