Disclaimer: I own nothing
Spoilers: Nothing much I think.
Reviews: Yes please.
a/n: I didn't really think I would put up another part, but here you go. There just ain't enough weever fics out there, so I just had to ) And I got an idea. Hate this fic, go write your own weever story! Love this fic, press the review button, and then go and write your own weever story ) I'm posting fanfiction, then I'm sure you can.
Weevil's POV:
This is the one night each year, that I really feel like I don't belong. It sounds strange even to me, being the outsider that I am. Although I'm no 09'er I still get respect. Or maybe people are just scared, I don't know, and usually I don't care. On this night though, I feel like I'm somewhere in between. I knew I should never have gotten involved with any of those white princesses, but still I did. I knew I was screwed, but still I jumped in with open eyes. Man, I must have been stupid.
I know I won't be troubled down here tonight though, no one comes down here at night. Unless of course the 09'er crowd decides to throw a party in our back yard. I'm pretty sure that won't happen tonight though, since the top troublemaker is probably feeling the same things I do. Oh, the irony of life.
As I see the Pitt bull running across the beach I know I'm not alone anymore. I knew I had forgotten something, coming down here tonight. Of course she'd be here, she needs as much quiet solace as I do tonight. And she's after all the person who is always coming down to the bad parts of town, only her dog to protect her. Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't want to be on her wrong side with that Pit bull around. Unless you where half a mile away with a sniper rifle, I'm pretty sure you wouldn't either.
"Hey" I hear from my side. There are an uncertainty in her voice. So I turn my head to face her, and I see I'm not the only one who are lost tonight. She looks startled that my eyes are on her, like she hasn't even seen my head turning. She give me a short smile, and then sit down next to me. Not to close, but not so to far away either. Our hands are almost touching, like the others presence could give some comfort.
"How are you doing?" I ask. Surprised at the softness in my voice. Before I met her, and got to know her, my compact wall never came down like that. Not in public, not in front of anyone other than my grandmother and a couple of other female family members. Guess I'm a sucker for women, I almost forgot about Lilly. She really wouldn't have appreciated that. But there is a safety in knowing, that both Lilly and Veronica would never tell anyone, they can't. I'm wrong, and they know the world will never believe them.
"I'm good" she answers. And I know that if my walls are down, hers are still up. She still uses her best school voice. The voice she has perfected through the year. I'm glad though, that I can make her break down her walls, with only one non-believing look from me. Her voice is raw as her real answers come. The one she has probably held in all day.
"Ok, so not good. This is just a bad day for me you know. Keep having this nightmare about her, and I don't wanna go back to sleep. So I found out that I'd just stay awake instead." She looks shocked at her own revelations. Her eyes look far away, and I can practically see her thoughts running through her head.
"I know how you feel" I say, trying not to let her slip completely into her won mind. I can see I startled her.
"I know you do" she replies. Then she continues so silently, that I almost can't hear her "You loved Lilly, didn't you?" She looks shocked as those words leave her mouth, and I can see fear as well. Can't say I blame her. Lilly is a sore subject. She betrayed me, but I probably should have known she would. In the end she would have married Logan, and lived happily ever after. Never wasted another thought on me. But love? I feel like crying, but I push the tears back. I have shed my tears over Lilly a long time ago. I won't do it again.
I feel her look at me, and I turn to meet her eyes. I can see her trying to read my eyes, but it's not all there. So again I lay it all out for here. I know she'll never tell, like Lilly never told anyone about me. It hurts.
"I really don't know anymore V! Did I ever love her? At least she never loved me. It still hurts though, thinking about her dead by the pool Which leads me to think about Aaron Echolls, the bastard that nearly killed you." My voice are even now, I'm only stating the facts. I can feel the anger rise inside me though, and something else I try to hide. From myself as much as from her.
I hear her sigh, and I'm not sure I succeeded. I put my arm around her, telling myself it's only because of the tiredness in her face. I feel her relaxing into my arm, and that sooths me. It's nice having someone to be silent with.
Her breath is even, and I'm sure she's falling asleep. Finally her dog has decided to join us, like he know that we've finally calmed down. He's laying on top of her feet, eyes on me. Like he's waiting for me to do something, watching me for any sudden movements.
I'm sure she's asleep now, and I kiss the top of her head. I settle to watch her sleep, I hope at least I can sooth her for one night. And although I won't admit it, ever. I wish I could hold her like this every night.