"Now what?" I look at Wong for any kind of answer. I pull my arm from his grasp.
"Olivia, you called me down here for support, not solutions. It's obvious that right this second, Alex needs to be alone."
"Are you saying you know her better than I do? You think you know what she needs?" I'm so insulted. Just because he's a shrink doesn't mean he magically knows everything about a person. I know Alex. I feel myself becoming protective and defensive.
"Olivia… this is hitting you too close. You need to take a step back." His face is blank but he's visibly tense at the sight of my growing anger.
"What, and I'm just supposed to leave her? Let her figure shit out on her own?"
"You don't need to leave Alex to take a step back." He sits down in front of me and pulls the chair out next to him. I'm too emotional to sit. Instead, I'm pacing. My mind is racing. Alex needs me and I haven't the slightest how to help her. She doesn't know about me. She doesn't know who I really am and judging by how everything has been going, she's not going to accept me if I told her the truth. Then again, maybe it would help with her decision whether to keep the baby or not. Wait, but then am I poisoning her thoughts? Do I want that baby to grow up as broken as me? Olivia, get a hold of yourself… this isn't your decision to make. I can't get in the way.
"This isn't fair." I say it with defeat. My mind stops racing. I feel as though I've reached a standstill.
"What's not fair?" Wong takes the opportunity to probe. I don't stop him. Maybe I should talk about it.
"First my mother… now my girlfriend." I look at him. We've been over that whole issue before so I don't need to go on but he waits. He expects me to.
"This isn't your fault Olivia." He squints as if to say, 'you're can't be thinking that, can you?'
"My mother was raped and that's why I'm in the S.V.U." He nods because he knows this already. "I always felt like that justified why I was put on this earth. I was a product of violence so that someday I would prevent thousands more from happening…" I can see the twinge of question still in his eyes. I sigh heavily and admit it. "I couldn't even protect someone I cared about. It feels like it happened right under my nose."
"But it didn't. It happened when you two were just acquaintances. Even if you were as close as you are now, it wouldn't have mattered. She was out one night and a very bad thing happened. You can't change what happened Olivia, but you can prevent this man from hurting others, or even Alex again, if you find him."
"He's no where to be found. We have nothing on him."
"You have Dominic." He reminds me, which only angers me because Dominic has been of no help in the matter what so ever.
"He's no help." My anger begins to subside and I rub my temples to try and force my head to clear itself.
"He's not, but the evidence surrounding him is. You'll find the connection. I know you will. You're a good detective. You just need to keep an open mind so that your personal feelings don't cloud the investigation." Suddenly I remember. Hallie. I have to talk to her. I need to get her to talk about Dom. My determination returns suddenly and my ambition to search and destroy overtakes me.
"You're right... Thanks for coming by, I have to take care of something." I jog down the stairs leaving Wong and his theories behind me. I shuffle through my desk papers, grab all my information on Hallie, the book she gave Dom and run past Elliot shouting a quick 'bye, be back later'. I didn't want to work on anything at the precinct. Not with everyone watching me like I was some ticking time bomb. I've got to find a way to make Hallie tell me something useful.