Joyous Heartache Chapter 2: Indescribable Feelings, a digimon fanfic

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A/N:

YAY! I'm so glad you guys liked the first chapter

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TAKARI AND KOUZUMI and Sorato FOREVER!

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The sun's rays were shining its first light on the world. A quaint and excited town could be seen below some large mountains, the straw roof's of the houses reflecting the first rays. Above the town, a huge castle could be seen. It had a huge amount of land in front and behind of it's stony walls. It was situated on a high cliff, towering over the town. Servants could be seen scurrying about the land, already, at first light.

Up in one of the highest windows, Takeru woke with a start, his blond hair framing his face as he winced in pain, clutching his side. For a second he wondered why it hurt so much, but then he remembered the beating he got for making his brother late to dinner the night before. He sighed; it was like this every day of his life. Somehow, no matter what Yamato did, it was always his fault. Takeru didn't mind though. He had ruined enough people's lives. The only people whose lives he knew he hadn't ruined was Yamato, Sora and his newfound friend/girlfriend Hikari. But hey, it was only a matter of time before he somehow ruined them as well.

He had given up fighting back to his father long ago. It only resulted in more beatings, and sometimes being locked up with no food. He knew how his father thought about him, no matter what Yamato said, he knew that his father hated him with a passion.

Takeru slowly limped off his comfortable bed and changed into his riding clothes, preparing himself for the day ahead.

But it wasn't all bad. There were a few times when he was happy. It used to be only when Yamato was with him. He loved his big brother and respected him. He knew that Yamato would be a better King than he would ever be, but still he felt envious of all the chances Yamato would have in life. Yamato always helped Takeru, always comforted him and told him that one day, everything would be O.K. Takeru had always listened, but he had never believed what Yamato told him…

Until Yesterday.

Yesterday was the happiest day of Takeru's life. It may have had a painful ending, but it was worth it, for if he was on time, he may have never met Hika.

Now he understood what Yamato meant, and although it was still all complicated, there was now a little glimmer of light and hope shining through his dark life.

He smiled as he closed the door, thinking of Hikari as he carefully made his way down the stairs to enter the dining room. He would be seeing her this afternoon, he would be able to see her smile again, and comfort her. He was sick and tired of being the one comforted, he wanted to help someone, he wanted to make Hikari feel better, because just by coming up and talking to him last night, she had given him a reason to live.

"Takeru!" Takeru looked up to see his brother, also in riding gear. "Father says for us to meet him in the stables."

"But Yamato... What about breakfast?" Takeru questioned as his stomach growled hungrily. Another part of his punishment last night had been to miss dinner, which was the reason he was in trouble in the first place.

Yamato shrugged his shoulders in answer to Takeru's question.

"I suppose we will have it afterwards." Yamato finished.

Takeru looked down at the ground. His father was desperate to make his life miserable, and at every chance looked for reasons to stop Takeru from being a Knight. Riding was a very good way of doing this, each lesson his father found a fault in Takeru's riding, and somehow each week, Yamato saved his Knighthood.

Takeru began to get nervous as he followed his brother to the stable yard. He was afraid that this week would be different. For one thing, his side hurt terribly because of the incident last night, and he was also starving hungry.

Not the best conditions for riding a horse.

(A/N These are not the same stables that Hikari looks after, those are different stables, these are like the royal stables.)

The brothers went round a last corner, and came in sight of their riding instructor.

"Ah! There are the young princes." He cried. "You two are late, but don't worry, I won't tell the King, Takeru."

The 2 princes bowed their heads in gratitude.

"We are sorry we are late, master." Yamato said politely.

Takeru nodded in agreement before looking around. "Where is father anyway?"

"Your father had an important messenger he had to listen to. I am not sure, he may be gone for a few days again." The riding master told them

Takeru breathed easily.

"But he told me to write him up a report of what happens today, so I expect you 2 will try your hardest." The master continued.

Takeru's muscles tensed up again. Father being here was one thing, it was O.K, but when something was written down, it would only be the truth, and there would be no escape.

"But first, I have asked for a servant to get the horses ready, she should be here in a little while."

Takeru got even more frightened, if possible. Yamato put a comforting hand on his shoulder.

A little while later, a young girl appeared, she looked about 13 and had long blonde hair, and emerald eyes. Her clothes were ratty, like Hikari's had been, but still she was amazingly beautiful. It took the riding instructor a few seconds before he could gain conscious and introduce her.

The girl looked at the instructor with disgust. She hated it when men did this, it was what got her captured and taken away from her family in the first place.

"Boy's this is Lara, the servant for your lesson." He said.

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Lara looked putridly at the boys in front of her. They were courteous; they smiled politely and bowed their heads. They probably had to do that.

'I cant believe it… Just my luck, After everything, now I have to work for the princes today, of all days, when yesterday Hikari found herself a loved one, what's his name, oh yeh, the gorgeous Takeru, with clear blue eyes and sandy blonde hair, how could I forget.' She thought sarcastically, as she glared at the 2 boys.

"Lara, these are the sons of King Ishida, The princes of Ishida- Prince Yamato and his younger brother Takeru."

She stared at the youngest prince.

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He had clear blue eyes.

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Sandy blonde hair.

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And his name was Takeru.

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Lara bit her lip, trying not to say anything, but inside she was red with anger.

Takeru looked down… 'Of course, I have no right to be called a prince.' He thought sadly.

"So Lara, lets get started." Takeru pulled himself together and walked into the stable. Lara glared at him, before following, he would most likely just watch her as she worked because he liked the look of her.

'he is just a player, oh Hikari is going to be so sad if she ever finds out '

Much to her surprise though, he walked inside and retrieved the correct saddles and reigns.

"What are you doing?" She asked, before suddenly covering her mouth. She had just spoken impolitely to a Prince of Ishida, treated him like her level.

"I am helping you…" He replied.

"I don't understand, my prince."

"Don't call me that, Lara, its not like I'm treated like a prince. Call me Takeru, everyone else does." He sighed.

"I am sorry, er, Takeru…" She stuttered "Why?"

"I dunno… My father hates me… the rest of the world doesn't know about me." He looked sad, but then smiled "But things are getting better."

'I wonder if Hikari has anything to do with it.' She wondered, but still she was angry, 'I mean how can this boy come up and make a servant girl fall in love with him just because his father hates him? Many fathers are disappointed at times, but that doesn't mean they can use a girl… I swear I will save Hikari, and I will destroy this boy' she thought angrily.

Lara was about to say something rude about Hikari and him, but he spoke before her.

"Lara?" He asked as he placed the under rug onto the horses back.

"Yes, Prince Takeru?" She said, only to make him annoyed, she succeeded as he rolled his eyes.

"Do you know Hika…? Sorry… Hikari." He asked

"Do you not know of her name?" She mocked him, although she knew quite well that it must be a nickname. "Yes I do know Hikari, she is my best friend. She talked of you endlessly last night, my lord."

"I am not a lord to anyone Lara." He told her as he did up the saddle on his horse.

"I know that. You should tell her though, it would be terrible if you hurt another human, Ishida." She spat his last name.

Takeru looked at her in amazement. "Why do you hate me so, already?" he asked.

"Your father has brought me hard labour and despair. Thanks to him, I have no life and no hope." She said angrily. She couldn't believe she was actually talking to that devil's son. " I used to be a noble girl of the Takenouchi Kingdom, but now, thanks to him, I am nothing but a servant."

Takeru looked at her. "I am sorry I ever brought it up, milady." He said graciously. "But I feel the same as you do, I don't want to be your enemy, I want to be your friend."

He extended his hand, and she looked at him disgustingly, before remembering whom she was dealing with.

"Tell her." She said shortly, not moving her hand.

"Huh?" The youngest prince replied dumbly.

"Tell Hikari who you are." She glared at him. "I don't want my best friend to be hurt."

Takeru understood, and slowly nodded his head solemnly.

"I will try, I will do it when the time is right, and when she will understand." He responded seriously, and then added "I will not hurt her, Lara, she means the world to me now and I think I love her."

Lara smiled, and shook his hand as the anger disappeared. "I can assure you, Takeru, she feels the same."

Takeru smiled at her as well. "Lara?"

"Yes."

"You wont tell, will you?" He asked, his voice was nervous.

"No, I wont tell, but you should. You made her happy, Takeru, very happy. She has had a hard life." Lara replied sadly as she walked over to Yamato's horse and put on the bridle.

"What do you mean by that?"

"Takeru…" Lara was nervous now… There was a very long and awkward pause before Lara gained the courage to continue "She has been a servant all her life, but she can't remember anything before the time she was 7 years old."

There was a small pause as Takeru took in all of this.

"Don't worry, I understand." He told her, and she smiled at him, brushing away some of her blonde hair before continuing to saddle up the horse.

'Perhaps he isn't too bad, but I still feel like he is deceiving Hikari.' Lara thought to herself 'But I suppose if he loves her, and she loves him, there couldn't be a better couple, especially after only seeing each other so briefly'

"You ready?" Takeru asked her. Lara turned around to see his horse all saddled up, ready to go.

"Almost…" she replied and continued to pull at the girth. "I just cant get this girth done up…" she grunted.

"Here." Takeru walked over to her and did it up easily, as if the horse suddenly decided to suck its stomach in.

"Wow... your good." She looked at his in amazement.

Takeru just laughed. "I've had a lot of practice." He told her before leading out his horse to Yamato and the riding instructor, Lara followed close behind.

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Hikari- Midday

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The sun was in the middle of the sky as the servants slowly returned from the fields. Their hands and clothes were dirty, as usual, but they were getting a small break before they separated for their afternoon jobs.

Hikari ran into her quarters and lay on her bed. She picked up a small wooden comb she had found somewhere and tried desperately to smooth out her matted brown hair. She was failing miserably.

"Would you like some help?" She heard a familiar voice behind her.

"Lara!" she exclaimed, turning around to see her friends emerald eyes and long blonde hair.

"Merci!" She thanked Lara and turned around as the comb was pulled through her hair again.

"Lara? Where have you been? You weren't working in the field today like the rest of us." She complained to her friend.

"Martha asked me to do a special job for her." The blonde servant replied as she tugged at the comb.

Hikari winced… "Which was…"

"Nothing much, I met your boyfriend though." She replied evilly.

"Lara?!" Hikari exclaimed again, surprised "How did you know it was him though?"

"For goodness sake, Hikari, you rambled on about him for so long last night I have a permanent painting of him in my head." She laughed as Hikari turned around.

"Did he say anything?" Hikari asked shyly.

There was a short pause as Lara thought about what to say.

"Just that he loved you and he would see you this afternoon." Lara smiled, their love was defiantly meant to be, after that short talk with Takeru, she knew he would never hurt her best friend on purpose.

Hikari blushed madly. "You really think he returns my feelings?" she questioned again shyly.

Lara turned and looked at her friends crimson eyes. "Hikari…. There is no doubt in my mind, you two were made for each other." She smiled, before continuing to brush her friends hair till it was silky smooth.

Hikari got lost in her thoughts, she loved this boy, of course, but what Lara had told her the night before was true. She had never loved anyone; she didn't know how love was supposed to feel, or what you were supposed to do.

She didn't get nervous though, with her thoughts she only became happier, because she knew that whatever happened that afternoon was what was supposed to happen. She knew that if he returned the feelings, somehow they would find time to see each other, comfort each other and to confide in each other.

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Stable's- afternoon

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Hikari ran down to the stables as the afternoon bell rang it's sound all around the castle, telling the servants it was time to get back to work. Her hair flew behind her. Lara somehow achieved the impossible and made it all silky smooth, she felt more confident and happier than she ever had before.

Her heart leaped as she opened the stable door, there was no one there, but she had faith in that gorgeous boy she met yesterday, she knew he would turn up at some point that afternoon. Anyways it was only just early afternoon, he had lots of time to turn up.

She hurried away and grabbed the rake excitedly. She wanted to finish her work as quickly as possible so that she could spend lots of time being happy and enjoying the company of the young boy that stole her heart.

The sun blared in through the window, but today Hikari smiled as she drew the rake over the straw. Today she had a reason to be happy. Today she was in love and she knew it. She knew that what happened this afternoon would be the start of her new life, and a happy one.

The door creaked open and Hikari looked up from her work. She saw a boy with crystal blue eyes, and adorable messy sandy blond hair, he was wearing clothes that looked a lot newer compared to the ones he was wearing yesterday. They were dusty, and dirty though, and so was his face.

"Keru!" she exclaimed with glee, dropping her rake and running up into his warm embrace.

"Hey Hika." He replied, his voice made her heart leap, just like yesterday.

"I could hardly recognise you, spin around, something's different."

He smiled as she blushed and twirled around making her torn and brown dress flow with her. Her hair was beautiful as she did this; it flew around following her head gracefully, and silkily. At that moment she felt more beautiful than anyone else in the world.

"Do you like it Keru?" She smiled and blushed even more, making his heart leap as he stared into her beautiful crimson eyes.

"Oui, you are just as beautiful as you were yesterday." He replied softly.

She giggled uncontrollably. "I mean my hair, silly, Lara helped me comb it out this afternoon." She smiled at him.

"Of course, I know what you mean, Hika, your hair looks absolutely gorgeous, more beautiful than any princess across the seven seas." He exaggerated, filling her hearts with compliments.

He looked thoughtful for a moment. "Lara? Is she the one whom I met this morning?"

"Yes, she told me she had seen you, she is also very beautiful, right?"

He looked into her crimson eyes as they sparkled. "I suppose, but she isn't half as beautiful as you. I think the riding instructor was quite taken away with her." He laughed.

"I bet she hated that." Hikari smiled at Takeru.

"I think she did actually, which reminds me Hika, I really have to tell you something." Takeru said with urgency.

"I want to tell you something as well." Hikari replied shyly.

She sighed. "Takeru, I know its soon, but I think I have feelings for you, strong ones, I've never been in love, never even had a mother, but I am sure, Takeru, I am in love with you, I love everything about you. I'll understand if you don't feel the same… I mean…----"

She was going to continue forever, but was cut short as she felt his lips against her own; she felt comforted and so loved at that moment, she wanted to stay in that position forever. Eventually they parted though, she opened her crimson eyes and they connected with his loving blue eyes.

His voice was soft as he talked to her

"Hika, I feel the same, I understand completely, I've never been in love either, but I think I'm in love with you, we will take it slowly, one step at a time, but if this isn't love, it can't be much better, right?" he told her as she lay in his arms.

"That's exactly what I was thinking, Keru." She smiled as they kissed again.

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Hikari rested her head on Takeru's broad shoulders, as he wrapped his arms around her. They were sitting down comfortably on the haystacks as they looked at the stable, which was now completely, clean. With all the work finished they just began to enjoy their loved ones company.

Takeru looked down at Hikari and kissed her softly on her forehead.

"Tell me about yourself." He asked softly, and sweetly. The girl looked up at his blue eyes that were sparkling with love.

"Huh?" she asked him, dazed with wonder as she took her head of his shoulder to get a better view of his gorgeous eyes.

"I want to know everything about you." He looked at her sincerely. "tell me, please."

Hikari blushed, and looked down at her shoes. "Honestly, there isn't anything to tell, Keru." He pulled her closer so she was almost on his lap, comforting her as she spoke. " I cant remember anything before the time I was around 7, when I woke up in the servant market." Her eyes began to glaze over with tears as he stroked her silky hair.

"Nothing at all?" he asked her.

"Well, I can remember a few things." She smiled fondly at the memories. " I can remember laughter, a castle, and beautiful dresses." Hikari looked at Takeru.

He returned the gaze, looking at her fondly, before she continued. "Those are the things that keep me working and alive. It comforts me to know that somewhere I have a home, and once I was loved."

There was a small silence, a secure one, before Takeru placed his lips against Hikari's.

"You still are, Hika, I love you, and I promise, I will always be here for you." Takeru whispered in her ear as he pulled her into a tight and comforting hug.

"I love you too, Keru, and thankyou." She looked at him.

"Don't thank me, Hika, I love you and always will, there is no need for thanks, as long as we have each other, I am content." He looked into her eyes.

"And so am I." She replied, as they kissed again.

Hikari sighed deeply.

"What is wrong?" Takeru asked her, his eyes filled with concern.

"I don't know, Takeru, I love you, but I still just feel like a quarter of me is missing, I don't know who my family is, or even where I used to live, and I wish I did."

She paused, chuckling slightly. "Some servants say I'm lucky, not to remember another life, but its hard, I just wish I knew what happened to me, and why those idiotic Ishida's ever brought me to this stupid place."

Her hands tightened in anger, and Takeru's eyes widened at the way she had described his family.

All thoughts of telling her his true identity left his mind, at least for this night. He couldn't when she felt such hatred towards them at this moment.

There was a silence while Takeru thought; it broke his heart to see Hikari so upset.

Hikari pulled herself together first though and looked up at her thoughtful boyfriend.

"I'm sorry Takeru, I've never talked to anyone about it, especially not like that, I usually keep it at the back of my head."

There was another small pause.

"No, Hikari, its alright. Sometimes its good to talk about things, to get them off your chest." Takeru looked at her, smiling as he moved his hand to touch hers.

Hikari smiled at Takeru and nodded.

"Hika, do you really want to find out who you are?" Takeru's asked. "I mean, if you find out, wont it be hard, knowing you have a family but cant go back to them, because you are here."

"I suppose, but I would much prefer to be here, knowing my past and my family, than here, with no hope, and just an orphan."

Takeru looked deeply into her eyes, he could see she was serious about this.

Hikari just looked at him intently. "Do you understand, Takeru?"

"Of course I do, Hika." He hugged her "I understand completely."

They kissed again, enjoying the sensation of just being together without a care in the world.

It was short lasted though, as the stable door creaked open making Takeru jump in surprise and fall off the haystack they had been sitting so comfortably.

"Ow…" Takeru said as he rubbed his head sheepishly.

Lara giggled as she watched the scene before her eyes. Takeru was sitting on the floor, still rubbing his head as Hikari scrambled over to the edge of the haystack.

"Are you alright?" The girls crimson eyes were full of concern.

"Yes, Takeru, you really should be looking after yourself." Lara smiled respectfully as she teased the youngest prince.

"Lara!" Hikari smiled and jumped graciously off the haystack as Takeru got to his feet, rubbing his head.

The energetic girl then grabbed Takeru's hand and ran up to meet her best friend.

"Hello Lars!" She smiled.

"Have you ever heard of knocking?" Takeru asked from behind his girlfriend.

"I'm sorry I scared you, Takeru, and I am also sorry if I interrupted you two lovers." She answered humbly, brushing away her blonde hair.

"Don't matter." Takeru shrugged. "I just won't sit too close to the edge next time."

Lara smiled at Takeru again, noticing the fact that their hands were still interlocked.

"So, why are you here, Lars? We finished all the work." Hikari asked

Lara pointed to the window, the sun was low in the sky and had almost disappeared. "I was afraid that the 2 of you had lost track of the time. It is almost sundown, and Martha wants us all back on time today, Hikari."

Hikari looked apologetically at Takeru.

"That's O.K, Hika, I've got to go as well." He faced her, looking at her features that made his heart leap, her chocolate brown hair that looked so attractive as it fell superbly on her shoulders, her amazing figure, and her adorable, incredible, one-in-a-million crimson red eyes, that burned with such love as she looked into his own sapphire blue eyes.

His own Ishida trademark eyes.

And she looked into them, all of his Ishida trademarks, that she loved so much, although she didn't fully comprehend yet, she just felt that blazing love somewhere deep within her soul as she stared into his sapphire eyes, looked at his cute, handsome, sandy blonde hair that matched all his features so flawlessly, and everything about him, everything that she loved, and that she was destined to love.

Hikari blushed slightly as they kissed on the lips in front of Lara.

Although the blush disappeared suddenly as she forgot Lara was there and they both kissed passionately and affectionately, enjoying the comforted feeling of touching one another, enjoying that indescribable feeling, that feeling that burned on their lips, on their fingers, every time they touched, that wonderful feeling of loving, and being loved… as they kissed… indescribably.

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A/N: Yay! I finished this chapter! I hoped you liked the lots of Takari.

Well, I am starting to wonder about the next chapter.

Davis is going to come in, at some point (most likely next chapter), and I need an opinion of the character you want him to be.

a) Servant like Hikari.

b) A noble

c) A prince

Just tell me what you think, I have ideas for every one, and I like all of them, and I just can't decide, each one is really interesting… I just can't decide.

Another thing to look forward to next chapter is SORATO!!!

I know, there was like NONE in this chapter, but the next chapter will have some, definitely.

Sorry this chapter took a while, I know, I was on another Ranma ½ high, and Gundam wing… and also the 4th series of Digimon finished on Thursday (14th August)

Neways, I may not be updating for about 2 or 3 weeks on this fic (unless I get HEAPS AND HEAPS of reviews) because I only have around 2 more chapters until my other story Losing sight of Fate is finished.

So if you want it too be updated sooner, please review more! I will work on the next chapter of this story if I get 15 reveiws… that sounds fair? Doesn't it?

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While you are waiting for this fic to be updated… please read my other story, losing sight of fate… merci! If you liked this fic, you will love that one, cause it has Takari, and Sorato as well! (also Kouzumi)

I think I went a bit over board with arrows last chapter…. Ah well….

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