Reality Sinks In-Part Seven
I know the subject I'm writing about now is really sad. It made me sad even writing it. This chapter will take place in the late afternoon on the same day we left off in the last chapter.
Lana started to drive back to the Kent farm after Clark finally wanted to leave the hospital after his father had died. Clark hadn't told her yet about the argument he had with his mother.
"Lana things are gonna have to change now,"Clark said. "What do you mean?"Lana asked confused. "When I told my mom what I was going to do, she pleaded with me. . . .She did exactly what I thought she would do. She made me feel like a . . .like a murderer . .,"Clark said and Lana cut him off right away. "CLARK,"Lana said as she slammed on the brakes and came to a complete stop, "You're not a murderer. You did what you had to do. You did what was right for that situation,"Lana said. "I don't think what I did was right. Lana, I think I'm a murderer and even worse it's one of three people I need the most. And in doing this I've lost my mother as well,"Clark said looking to his lap. "You have not lost your mother. She's still alive and would never abandon you,"Lana said. "You're wrong. She's not going to be back at the house today because I'm supposed to take my stuff and get out,"Clark said.
"Your mother . .would never say that,"Lana said surprised. "Oh yes she would. In fact, she did. That's why when we go to the house I'm going to throw my stuff in boxes and go. Like this day, let alone this week, hasn't been enough,"Clark said throwing his head back onto the headrest. "Where are we going to go Clark?"Lana asked. "I know this is all too much for me to handle anyway and I don't even have time to worry and have anxiety over making you feel uncomfortable so I thought you still own the Talon. We could stay in the apartment. If you don't want me to I can go to Metropolis tomorrow or figure something else out,"Clark said. "No, Clark it's more than okay. Staying with you isn't what concerns me. This is a way we can stay here in Smallville together,"Lana said. "At least for the time being,"Clark said. "What does that mean?"Lana asked. "It means I'm confused and overwhelmed right now and I can't think straight so I'll get back to you on the future. . . . Let's get going. I want to get my stuff and get out."
Lana grabbed all her suitcases and threw them in the car. Clark ran into his room and took his drawers and dumped them into his suitcases. He took anything he needed and left things he could live without like his map of stars and the posters of the Met U football team. As soon as he was done they got in Lana's car and went to the new place.
Clark threw his suitcases on the floor in the apartment and Lana threw her suitcases right next to them. "I'll unpack tomorrow I guess,"Clark said as he laid down on the couch that was too small for him. Lana didn't even give her next move a second thought. Her exact thought was, 'If we can almost lose our virginity up here together we can just sleep in a bed together.' She walked over and took his hand. "Come on,"Lana said pulling on him to get up. Clark got up and followed Lana into the bedroom. "I love you,"Lana said climbing under the sheets. Lana didn't understand why Clark was hesitating to get in bed. "I'll be right back,"he said as he walked to the bathroom.
As he shut the door, he went over and kneeled next to the toilet because he had a strong feeling like he was going to throw up and he did. When he got up and started to walk out he just leaned his back against the door and started to cry. He just slid down the door until he hit the cold tile floor. He covered his face as he began to shake with so many emotions through his body. 'Made of steel? Right,'were the thoughts rolling through his mind.
Lana just laid her head against the headboard as she listened to him cry and break down. She almost was about to go talk to him but she knew there was nothing that she could say to make him feel better or erase the loss of his father and everything that happened that day. After a few minutes Clark came in wiping his eyes and Lana decided to act like she hadn't heard it. "You okay Clark?"Lana asked as Clark slipped into bed and laid on his side with his back facing her no doubt to hide his tears. "Yeah,"Clark said. Lana snuggled up to him and slipped her arm over him and rested her hand on his stomach. "I'll take care of you,"Lana said into his ear as a tear rolled down her cheek. Lana drifted off, but Clark remained awake all night replaying all the horrible images in his head.