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Sonic- 18 years
Amy- 16 years
Tails- 13 years
Knuckles- 20 years
Shadow- 19 years
Cream- 9 years
Rouge- 22 years
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Chapter 3: Ultimate Decisions and No Regrets
The summer night grew much colder than many had believed it would. Though it was a refreshing change from a regular hot and muggy night, something just wasn't right. This had to be one of the strangest phenomena to occur since recorded time.
There was pain and heartache in the chilly air. It just wasn't normal for this to happen during the summer. Summer was a time for finding love, not losing it or feeling pain of never attaining it from the one you love.
My chest was hurting from the emotional stress I had placed on my heart. The pain I felt in my heart was unbearable. There had to be some way to make it go away. I never thought pain like this existed. Some broken hearted people turn to alcohol or drugs to drown out their pain and sorrow. Since I was not a fan of either, I decided to stop by a local deli on my way home. The deli was somewhat small and had a foreign theme to it. It carried many things you couldn't buy at a regular market. They had so many things from different countries in each isle. There was coconut water, melon soda, and some sort of sugar cane drink in the drink isle. They had different types of candy that I never thought could exist. Things like milk candy, grape jelly filled marshmallows, and fruit drops with flavors I never knew could taste so good. Though candy was sweet, I needed something sweeter to soothe my aching heart and return my sweetness. I wandered around until I came to the frozen food isle. I stuck my hand into a case filled with cartons of ice cream. I took two, two gallon cartons out and sighed as I looked at them. The sweetest thing I could find was fudge sundae and triple mint chocolate chucks with cookie dough inside. I let out another heavy sigh before making my way up to the pay counter. I slowly took out a twenty dollar bill and paid the clerk, then left the place without collecting my change. I bet the clerk was happy to have such a nice tip. I just couldn't spend another second in public. I felt as if everyone was laughing at me now. Laughing at what a fool I was for even attempting to start a relationship with someone way out of my league.
I always had some idea of how he felt about me, but I just didn't want to believe it. How could I be so naïve as to think he could ever love me? Not only could he never love me, he didn't want me as a friend. After all the things I did to get his attention, it just blew up in my face. I tried my best to impress him, by acting like those girls that always hung around and worship him. I just don't get it, why didn't it work? I acted just like they did. Maybe I'm not pretty enough. Maybe I'm unattractive. Maybe I'm boring. That's probably it. That's the reason why no one wants to love me. This had to be the reason.
Tears stung my eyes as I reached my apartment. I had already unlocked my door and closed it, when I collapsed onto the soft white carpet crying my heart out. It hurt me so much to know that my first love, my only love didn't love me at all. I felt so embarrassed and humiliated to find out in a public setting. I just had to find him, but I was hoping it would be something joyous, not something hurtful. I wiped some of my tears with the back of my hand and sniffed back some of the mucus in my nose before it began to run. I grab the plastic shopping bag filled with the two cartons of ice cream and walked in a defeated manner to my bedroom.
I looked into my room before entering it. My room is just a simple bedroom; there was nothing special about it. I had a firm queen size bed with somewhat soft pillows. An old quilt covered the bed; it gave it a cozy feeling. On my dresser were bottles of perfume that I had believed would turn my love to mush. Next to the bottles were my hair brush and some various hair ornaments. I didn't believe in makeup, so I bothered never to buy the stuff. I sighed before looking at my night stand. Resting on top of it was a group picture of everyone. It was the only picture I had of him. He would never let me take his picture, nor would he let me pose with just him. This was the only time I could get a picture with him. Shadow had asked for a picture of all of his new friends, and gave me a copy of it as his way of thanking me for helping him understand Maria's last wish.
Looking at it made me even sadder. I walked toward it and laid it face down, before I sat down on the bed. I didn't bother to turn on any light. Didn't want to let anyone know I was home. Everyone knew I had one light that remained on all night. A part of me was still afraid of the dark. Sixteen year olds are not supposed to be afraid of such childish things. Hell, I still kept a diary. Maybe that was another one of my problems. I was acting like a child. Only a child chases a dream. Adults just lose the fact that their dream can never be attained.
I picked up the carton of fudge sundae and began eating it. It was sweet, but I still felt bad. Whenever I was sad my parents would try to cheer me up with ice cream as a child. It always worked, but it wasn't working now. Eating it reminded me of home. I started to remember how life was at home when I was a child. I was a lot happier before Eggman and Sonic arrived into my life. Little Planet in my memories was so beautiful before Eggman tainted it with his evil. I was five when I first meet Sonic. He came to my home planet in order to stop the evil doctor from turning my home into an armada planet and stop him from stealing our sacred treasure.the time stones. When I first saw him I knew he was the one for me. Even when he saved me from Eggman and Metal Sonic my love for him grew stronger. Many would see my actions as something someone would do when a creature like Sonic would save them. They call it hero worship, but I told them it was love.
Since that day I haven't seen my parents. Sonic took me from Little Planet and left me stranded on the main planet. I didn't miss them on that day, because I was with him. I thought that he wanted me too. I miss them now though. They were always there for me and we missed out on so much together. Things that I don't know can be repeated again. I can never live over the time I missed with them since living here. Come to think of it, they probably think that I'm dead. I wouldn't even blame my own parents for hating me, even though people say that parents can never hate their own child.
I doubt that I know what love is now. My entire life revolved around him and made me a slave to it. Maybe it would be better if I made Sonic happy and granted his wishes. I tried to get another scoop of ice cream but I had hit the bottom of the carton. I guess that I was so lost in thought that I didn't even know the carton was empty, nor did I even had the chance to enjoy it.
Looking inside the empty thing made me cry again. Something that was once full of such sweetness is now empty. I could relate to this empty carton. I felt as if Sonic had sucked out all my sweetness, just like I had did to this ice cream carton. I still had one more carton left sitting next to me on the bed. Opening the lid I couldn't help but stare at it's green color. The same green like his eyes. They were the same green eyes that stared into my own eyes and into my heart. So cold and cruel were those eyes with no regrets of what they were doing when they sucked my heart out. I never thought that I could hate anyone other than Eggman, but I did now and it was Sonic the Hedgehog.
All my feelings for him melted away like the ice cream inside this carton I was holding in my hands. I gritted my teeth as I got off my bed still holding that carton of triple mint chocolate chip and opened my bedroom window. The cold air felt so good against my face once it hit me. My eyes had long since been dried when I felt another gust of cold air. The ice cream carton still in my hands and my anger still rising, that I threw the damn thing out the window. In the same manner that I wanted to do to that so called loser of a hedgehog. He is nothing to me now, just like how I am nothing to him. They way it should have been in the beginning.
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Didn't even know she could hit that hard. Technically I did, but she always did the hitting with her hammer. She asked for the honest truth of what I thought about her, I just didn't think she'd react that way. I always thought that if I told the truth that she would be okay with it. Never in my dreams did I think I would ever hurt her feelings. Amy was just a fan girl to me. Someone who just worshiped the very ground I walked upon. Always saw her as someone with a crush on their hero or idol that they would grow out of. Besides I never did like those crazy fan girl types. If I was going to be interested with the opposite sex, I rather be in love with someone who I could be comfortable with. Someone who is true to themselves, not someone who tries to be someone they're not. That's the kind of girl for me. Wish I could find her. Just wish she existed. To be truthful, I really don't like the fan girls. They seem so phony. They don't care about me, just want to be seen and elevate their popularity. I hate when people use me. I bet that's what Amy was planning from the beginning. I shivered for a bit. It was indeed getting colder, but this shiver was feeling as if something bad just happened. I rubbed my hands against my arm to get my blood flowing. I guess what I said was hurtful. She didn't deserve that, no one deserved those hurtful words. I can't believe I said I didn't want her to exist. I looked up at the sky and saw dark clouds moving in. What was I thinking, this is Amy Rose here. Why should I be nice to her? All she has done is given me grief. Why should I even apologize to a flake like her? I wish I could find the girl in my dream. She's always clouded in darkness when I dream. When I get near her I wake up or she gets farther away from me. No matter how fast I run, or tell her to stop, she keeps slipping away from my reach. I want to be with her and only her. I feel as if she's real and doesn't just exist in my dreams. Then why can't I get this feeling in the depths of my stomach that I've lost her for good, maybe even forever. I let out a sigh and thought about earlier tonight again. I thought of Tails and how my attitude made him feel. I better go see if he's ok. He really didn't need to see all that. He's just a kid for crying out loud. Just don't know how to apologize for something like this. Never was good in that department and it looks like it would have to wait till tomorrow. I yawned before I started on my way home. Tomorrow seems like everything will be better.
Sonic- 18 years
Amy- 16 years
Tails- 13 years
Knuckles- 20 years
Shadow- 19 years
Cream- 9 years
Rouge- 22 years
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Chapter 3: Ultimate Decisions and No Regrets
The summer night grew much colder than many had believed it would. Though it was a refreshing change from a regular hot and muggy night, something just wasn't right. This had to be one of the strangest phenomena to occur since recorded time.
There was pain and heartache in the chilly air. It just wasn't normal for this to happen during the summer. Summer was a time for finding love, not losing it or feeling pain of never attaining it from the one you love.
My chest was hurting from the emotional stress I had placed on my heart. The pain I felt in my heart was unbearable. There had to be some way to make it go away. I never thought pain like this existed. Some broken hearted people turn to alcohol or drugs to drown out their pain and sorrow. Since I was not a fan of either, I decided to stop by a local deli on my way home. The deli was somewhat small and had a foreign theme to it. It carried many things you couldn't buy at a regular market. They had so many things from different countries in each isle. There was coconut water, melon soda, and some sort of sugar cane drink in the drink isle. They had different types of candy that I never thought could exist. Things like milk candy, grape jelly filled marshmallows, and fruit drops with flavors I never knew could taste so good. Though candy was sweet, I needed something sweeter to soothe my aching heart and return my sweetness. I wandered around until I came to the frozen food isle. I stuck my hand into a case filled with cartons of ice cream. I took two, two gallon cartons out and sighed as I looked at them. The sweetest thing I could find was fudge sundae and triple mint chocolate chucks with cookie dough inside. I let out another heavy sigh before making my way up to the pay counter. I slowly took out a twenty dollar bill and paid the clerk, then left the place without collecting my change. I bet the clerk was happy to have such a nice tip. I just couldn't spend another second in public. I felt as if everyone was laughing at me now. Laughing at what a fool I was for even attempting to start a relationship with someone way out of my league.
I always had some idea of how he felt about me, but I just didn't want to believe it. How could I be so naïve as to think he could ever love me? Not only could he never love me, he didn't want me as a friend. After all the things I did to get his attention, it just blew up in my face. I tried my best to impress him, by acting like those girls that always hung around and worship him. I just don't get it, why didn't it work? I acted just like they did. Maybe I'm not pretty enough. Maybe I'm unattractive. Maybe I'm boring. That's probably it. That's the reason why no one wants to love me. This had to be the reason.
Tears stung my eyes as I reached my apartment. I had already unlocked my door and closed it, when I collapsed onto the soft white carpet crying my heart out. It hurt me so much to know that my first love, my only love didn't love me at all. I felt so embarrassed and humiliated to find out in a public setting. I just had to find him, but I was hoping it would be something joyous, not something hurtful. I wiped some of my tears with the back of my hand and sniffed back some of the mucus in my nose before it began to run. I grab the plastic shopping bag filled with the two cartons of ice cream and walked in a defeated manner to my bedroom.
I looked into my room before entering it. My room is just a simple bedroom; there was nothing special about it. I had a firm queen size bed with somewhat soft pillows. An old quilt covered the bed; it gave it a cozy feeling. On my dresser were bottles of perfume that I had believed would turn my love to mush. Next to the bottles were my hair brush and some various hair ornaments. I didn't believe in makeup, so I bothered never to buy the stuff. I sighed before looking at my night stand. Resting on top of it was a group picture of everyone. It was the only picture I had of him. He would never let me take his picture, nor would he let me pose with just him. This was the only time I could get a picture with him. Shadow had asked for a picture of all of his new friends, and gave me a copy of it as his way of thanking me for helping him understand Maria's last wish.
Looking at it made me even sadder. I walked toward it and laid it face down, before I sat down on the bed. I didn't bother to turn on any light. Didn't want to let anyone know I was home. Everyone knew I had one light that remained on all night. A part of me was still afraid of the dark. Sixteen year olds are not supposed to be afraid of such childish things. Hell, I still kept a diary. Maybe that was another one of my problems. I was acting like a child. Only a child chases a dream. Adults just lose the fact that their dream can never be attained.
I picked up the carton of fudge sundae and began eating it. It was sweet, but I still felt bad. Whenever I was sad my parents would try to cheer me up with ice cream as a child. It always worked, but it wasn't working now. Eating it reminded me of home. I started to remember how life was at home when I was a child. I was a lot happier before Eggman and Sonic arrived into my life. Little Planet in my memories was so beautiful before Eggman tainted it with his evil. I was five when I first meet Sonic. He came to my home planet in order to stop the evil doctor from turning my home into an armada planet and stop him from stealing our sacred treasure.the time stones. When I first saw him I knew he was the one for me. Even when he saved me from Eggman and Metal Sonic my love for him grew stronger. Many would see my actions as something someone would do when a creature like Sonic would save them. They call it hero worship, but I told them it was love.
Since that day I haven't seen my parents. Sonic took me from Little Planet and left me stranded on the main planet. I didn't miss them on that day, because I was with him. I thought that he wanted me too. I miss them now though. They were always there for me and we missed out on so much together. Things that I don't know can be repeated again. I can never live over the time I missed with them since living here. Come to think of it, they probably think that I'm dead. I wouldn't even blame my own parents for hating me, even though people say that parents can never hate their own child.
I doubt that I know what love is now. My entire life revolved around him and made me a slave to it. Maybe it would be better if I made Sonic happy and granted his wishes. I tried to get another scoop of ice cream but I had hit the bottom of the carton. I guess that I was so lost in thought that I didn't even know the carton was empty, nor did I even had the chance to enjoy it.
Looking inside the empty thing made me cry again. Something that was once full of such sweetness is now empty. I could relate to this empty carton. I felt as if Sonic had sucked out all my sweetness, just like I had did to this ice cream carton. I still had one more carton left sitting next to me on the bed. Opening the lid I couldn't help but stare at it's green color. The same green like his eyes. They were the same green eyes that stared into my own eyes and into my heart. So cold and cruel were those eyes with no regrets of what they were doing when they sucked my heart out. I never thought that I could hate anyone other than Eggman, but I did now and it was Sonic the Hedgehog.
All my feelings for him melted away like the ice cream inside this carton I was holding in my hands. I gritted my teeth as I got off my bed still holding that carton of triple mint chocolate chip and opened my bedroom window. The cold air felt so good against my face once it hit me. My eyes had long since been dried when I felt another gust of cold air. The ice cream carton still in my hands and my anger still rising, that I threw the damn thing out the window. In the same manner that I wanted to do to that so called loser of a hedgehog. He is nothing to me now, just like how I am nothing to him. They way it should have been in the beginning.
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Didn't even know she could hit that hard. Technically I did, but she always did the hitting with her hammer. She asked for the honest truth of what I thought about her, I just didn't think she'd react that way. I always thought that if I told the truth that she would be okay with it. Never in my dreams did I think I would ever hurt her feelings. Amy was just a fan girl to me. Someone who just worshiped the very ground I walked upon. Always saw her as someone with a crush on their hero or idol that they would grow out of. Besides I never did like those crazy fan girl types. If I was going to be interested with the opposite sex, I rather be in love with someone who I could be comfortable with. Someone who is true to themselves, not someone who tries to be someone they're not. That's the kind of girl for me. Wish I could find her. Just wish she existed. To be truthful, I really don't like the fan girls. They seem so phony. They don't care about me, just want to be seen and elevate their popularity. I hate when people use me. I bet that's what Amy was planning from the beginning. I shivered for a bit. It was indeed getting colder, but this shiver was feeling as if something bad just happened. I rubbed my hands against my arm to get my blood flowing. I guess what I said was hurtful. She didn't deserve that, no one deserved those hurtful words. I can't believe I said I didn't want her to exist. I looked up at the sky and saw dark clouds moving in. What was I thinking, this is Amy Rose here. Why should I be nice to her? All she has done is given me grief. Why should I even apologize to a flake like her? I wish I could find the girl in my dream. She's always clouded in darkness when I dream. When I get near her I wake up or she gets farther away from me. No matter how fast I run, or tell her to stop, she keeps slipping away from my reach. I want to be with her and only her. I feel as if she's real and doesn't just exist in my dreams. Then why can't I get this feeling in the depths of my stomach that I've lost her for good, maybe even forever. I let out a sigh and thought about earlier tonight again. I thought of Tails and how my attitude made him feel. I better go see if he's ok. He really didn't need to see all that. He's just a kid for crying out loud. Just don't know how to apologize for something like this. Never was good in that department and it looks like it would have to wait till tomorrow. I yawned before I started on my way home. Tomorrow seems like everything will be better.