Disclaimer : I don't own the characters and the song ain't mine either
Okay people because a few people asked me to write a chapter this christmas i decided to give it a try , And before i start please know this isn't going to be a happy chapter , it's a drama/romance story after all !
Chapter 8 : Each time you break my heart
Each time you break my heart
Each time you break my heart
'' Well...Haruka ...you see ...I mean ...'' Michiru was stuck . She didn't know how to tell Haruka how she was feeling and about everything that happened in the past . She had to tell someone because it was eating her alive inside .
'' It's okay you can tell me later .'' Haruka said whiping a tear away from Michiru's face .
'' No .'' Michiru started .'' If i don't tell you now it will be to late .'' Haruka was kind of scared on the moment . What did Michiru mean ? Was she in some kind of trouble ?
'' Okay , I'm listening , do you wanna sit down ? '' Haruka asked . She could see in the eyes of her smaller friend this was important to her .
'' Yes .'' Michiru said and sat down on the couch . Haruka followed but kept her distance .
'' Go ahead whenever you are ready .''
'' I am ..ready .'' Michiru said and took a deep breath . '' It's just , before i came here i built walls around my heart . I wouldn't trust no one anymore after all that happened to me . But then there were you , you seemed to appear out of nothing and you were so nice to me even after i was so mean to you and don't tell me you don't care because i could see the hurt in your eyes Haruka .''
I know how it feels to be the talk of the town
I'm not gonna let you go and run around
I need to know that you'll be true to me
'Cause that's the way it's got to be
Haruka stayed silent and listened .
'' See , i feel save around you Haruka but on th eother hand hanging out with you could cost me my life . I'd rather be death , believe me but somehow the thought of dying scares me . I tried many times just to end my life but i couldn't .'' Michiru was crying now but Haruka didn't react . Michiru needed to finish her story even though Haruka couldn't believe Michiru really tried to kill herself . It seemed to unreal .
'' I walked away from home awhile ago Haruka , I can't tell you why though . When you said you'd help me if i told you who beat me , did you mean it ? '' Michiru now asked and Haruka nodded .
'' Sure , why would i lie about something like that ? I can't stand it when people try to hurt my frie ... Uhm ...well other people .'' Haruka said knowing she had said the wrong thing when Michiru suddenly looked very angry . ' What did i say wrong ? She isn't my friend is she ? I mean ...well ..i don't know it just doesn't look like it .'
Michiru stood up and turned away from Haruka .'' Leave ! '' She said sounding cold and emotionless .
'' What ? why ? ''
Michiru now turned around to face Haruka who still sat on the couch .'' I tell you everything that's in my heart and you can't even call me your friend ! That's why , I can't believe i trusted you this much when i knew in my heart that you would be just the same as everyone else , leave ! ''
'' Michiru , please let me explain . It was a mistake ...I ..''
'' Yeah it was a mistake to trust you and if you don't leave i'll call the police now get the hell away from me ! '' Michiru yelled through her crying .
'' Fine ..'' Haruka said sounding tired . If Micihru wouldn't listen there was no point in staying . Haruka stood up and walked to the hall but before she walked out of the house she turned around to face Micihru onece more .'' You will never learn to trust if you keep pushing people who try to help away .'' With that she walked out of the house and closed the door leaving a very confused Michiru behind .
'' You are wrong Haruka because i do trust someone and that person is you but ...I'm afraid to get too close ..''
Why can't you give your promise to me
Is love so blind that you cannot see
I'm trying hard not to walk out the door
Know that I, oh, know that I can't take no more
Haruka stormed into her own house and ran upstairs . '' Damn this whole Tokyo ! I'm leaving . It seems that whoever i try to help ends up hurt well damn that ! '' She yelled . She was anrgy , very angry . ' It's time to visit an old friend .'
Haruka took the phone in her hands and dailed a familiar number , at least familiar to her . ' Please pick up the phone .'
'' Hello ? '' A voice asked yawning on the other side of the line .
'' Hey , it's me Haruka , i need to ask you a big favor .''
'' Damn Tenoh it's two am in the morning couldn't this wait ? '' The female voice asked .
'' No it couldn't , so will you help me or what ? '' Haruka asked impatient .
'' Wow someone's got an attitude and ofcourse i'll help you , It's been years ago since i last saw you .What do you want ?''
'' How do you feel about a sleepover , kind of .'' Haruka asked and she could hear her friend laugh on the other side of the phone .
'' Well it could be fun but how am i helping you with that ? ''
'' Don't ask questions , just meet me at the station tomorrow Morning around ten okay ? ''
'' Sure ...Goodnight Ruka .''
'' Goodnight Zen .'' Haruka said and hung up . She felt a little bit better already .
Each time you break my heart
I try to put my pride aside
Each time you break my heart
A little voice inside me cries
Michiru on the other hand didn't feel any better . Her brain told her she did the right thing but her heart told her she was doing herself wrong and that Haruka was right . To trust she needed to open up and not to close away from the world . Not everybody was as her father , mother or Mizuki . Haruka was different . And The boy who helped her at school against the rich brown haired boy . Maybe this world wasn't so bad . '' I need to thank him , I was kind of rude to him even though he helped me .''
The next morning Haruka stood on the train station in Osaka where her friend lived . She looked around smiling . Nothing changed . Everything was just the same as she left it . Haruka felt guilty for leaving her mother and sister alone like that but she just couldn't take it anymore . She was hurting them . Her mother was dissapointed in her because she dressed like her father and because she was a lesbian , Micihru she hurted by not listening and understanding her and she hurted the whole school with her lies . Then Haruka saw a flash of Blue hairs walk over to her and her worries were gone .
Whent he blue haired girl noticed Haruka in the crowd sh esmiled happily and ran over to Haruka not stopping until she was in Haruka's arms who fell backwards on her back . Luckily for her she fell on the grass .
No matter what you do or say
I'm gonna love you, I'm gonna love you anyway
And if you're so sure that I'm not your kind
How come you can't just walk away
'' I missed you SO much ! '' The girl cried and kissed Haruka what seemed a thousand times on her cheek . Haruka couldn't help it but laugh and so did all the other people around them who thought they were a couple who hadn't seen eachother in a while .
'' I missed you too Zen .'' Haruka said trying to sit up but the blue haired girl Named Zen stopped her .'' Come one Zen every body is watching .''
'' Just give me a moment .'' Zen sobbed in Haruka's white shirt . Zen herself was wairing blue jeans and a black bikini top . Her hair reached below her shoulders and on her face was a calm but sweet and caring smile .
In the beginning we were nothing but glad
Those were the best days that we ever had
There's no compassion, all your warmth is gone
Tell me how, oh, how can I keep holding on
'' Let's go to your house now .'' Haruka said when she finally had the chance to sit up and look Zen into her eyes . They were blue just like Michiru's . ' No i should be thinking about her , she doesn't like me and i don't like her .'
'' Whatcha thinking about ? '' Zen asked and shook Haruka out of her thoughts .
'' No one important .'' Was the answer .
Zen smiled innocently .' I asked ' what ' about not ' who .'
Okay , let's go Ruka .'' She added and climbed off Haruka's lap . But then gazed at Haruka with worried eyes .'' Are you going to face him , Ruka ? ''
'' I don't know .'' Haruka felt her heart ache . She knew where her father lived . He lived here , in Osaka and she had planned so many times how she would face him and what she was going to say . But whenever she got close enough she just couldn't think or move anymore . ' Quess i'm still afraid to face him after all those years .'
That's okay , I understand .'' But Haruka didn't hear her , her mind was somewhere else , somewhere in Tokyo where a aqua haired girl lived . ' I wish you a nice live Michi.'
I see the look in your eyes
I know you're hurting inside
Let me try
To make you love me again
I'll say that I knew you when
You were mine
You were mine
R&R I hope you liked this chapter , someone told me it was going round in circles my story so i decided to give it a turn . Don't worry though this isn't a Haruka/zen fic . And don't blame me for that strange name Zen , it just came up with it and i had to use it !