disclaimer : I don't own the characters , never did and never will ! And the song isn't mine either . Some of you will say that the song doesn't fit this chapter but i think that will be very wrong because you'll agree with me that this songs fits this chapter really good when you are looking for a deeper meaning behind it ...Enjoy !
Chapter 11 : In this half light
Haruka turned around to look at Zen one more time before she walked away . She felt sorry for Zen . Sure she loved her but not the way Zen loved her . When they kissed it didn't feel right to Haruka , she felt like she cheated on Michiru even though they weren't dating . Haruka was almost sure Michiru would have a boyfriend by now and that painful thought haunted her . She sighed and walked into the plane . ' How will i make things up with Ranna and my mom ? '
Once upon a time there was a girl
In her early years she had to learn
How to grow up living in a war that she called home
never know just where to turn for shelter from the storm
Michiru sat on her couch reading a book . It was not like she was actually reading the damn thing . They only thing she could think of was this bad feeling inside of her . A feeling that said that things were about to go very wrong and that something bad was going to happen . It was also this feeling which made it impossible for Michiru to sleep. She looked up from the book to look at the time and was shocked .' It's too late to try and get some sleep .'
Sighing she closed the book . ' Why do i feel like this ? Nothing is going to happen , I'm save now . My father is far far away from me and Haruka is not here to break the walls around my heart . And i even made friends here in Tokyo , I mean look at heiichi . He is being so nice to me . No way things can go wrong again . The past is behind me .'
She stood up and walked up to the kitchen . ' I'm so hungry ...Dammit i can't even pay the rent anymore ...' Other worries suddenly welmed up in Michiru's head . Just when Michiru was about to open the fridge the bell rang . ' Who can that be , at this time ...' Then the bad feeling overwelmed her again and that feeling turned into fear . What if it was her father ? Maybe he found her ! Maybe Haruka came back , no wait that was a good thing ..was it ? What if it was Mizuki coming to end her live as she promised ?
It hurt me to see the pain cross my mother's face
Everytime my father's fist would put her in her place
Hearing all the yelling I would cry up in my room
Hoping it would be over soon
Michiru didn't feel like open the door and something inside her told her she shouldn't open that damn door . Just when she figured out it was the best thing to pretend she wasn't home the door was opened and closed again .' I thought it was locked .' Michiru thought slowly walking back into the livingroom holding a sharp knife she took from the counter . She felt like she was walking through a horror movie .
When she reached the livingroom a shadow stood there . Just standing there and not doing anything . The shadow was too small to be a man , but that meant a woman broke in , Mizuki ? It was the only girl who was crazy enough to do such a thing . Without thinking it through Michiru turned on the lights ready to atack the intruder . The same moment the lights were turned on Michiru jumped to the intruder but stopped when she saw it wasn't Mizuki . Looking at the girl in front of her in suprise Michiru almost dropped the knife . The girl had blue eyes , just like Michiru had . Her hair had the same colour as Michiru's , she could pass as Michiru's twin easily even though she looked a bit older .
Bruises fade father but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
And every morning that I wake I look back at yesterday
And I'm OK
'' Who are you ? '' Michiru asked , not showing any fear even though this girl freaked her out in some way .
The girl smiled at Michiru and sat down on the couch .'' Now you really don't need that knife .'' The girl said .
'' Don't tell me what i should or shouldn't do , who are you and what do you want from me ?'' Michiru asked . Her voice betraying her real emotions .
'' My name is Aurora Kaioh , I'm your sister .'' The girl answered .
'' I don't have a sister ! ''
'' Yes you do , i'm right here ...But i understand it fully . You were too young back then to remember me .''
'' Excuse me ? '' Michiru was losing it . Who the hell did this girl thought she was . Breaking in into her house and tell her fairytails .
I often wonder why I carry all this guilt
When it's you that helped me put up all these walls I've built
Shadows stir at night through a crack in the door
Echoes of a broken child screaming please no more
Daddy won't you understand the damage you have done
For you it's just a memory, but for me it still lives on
'' I walked away from home when i was seven , just like you did . Only it took you a little bit longer to finally understand that staying in that house wasn't any good . I know i was very young at that point but my father ...our father raped me just like he did to you . It started when i was about five or six when that bastard decided to abuse me in a sexual way . Everytime when i would return from school he would command me to go to my room and to undress myself .''
Michiru looked at Aurora in disbelieve . '' Why would he do that ?'' Michiru asked .'' You were five ...why would he hurt you like that ? Why did he hurt me ? Why ? '' Michiru now cried sounding desperate for an answer . Aurora wanted to stand up and hug Michiru , tell her everything was alright but when she moved up Michiru told her to stay put .
Aurora sighed for a moment before she continued .'' He did it because his own father used his sister the same way . He grew up like that , not knowing better . I'm not trying to talk everything right because i can't . I guess he just liked seeing us like that . I mean seeing us ...Helpless and crying . It gave him the ultimate idea of power .I'm sorry for not telling you earlier . I'm sorry for not being there for you but i was afraid too . Until now that is .''
Michiru was still crying and let the knife fall on the ground .'' I had a sister all this time ...why didn't you save me ? Why didn't you take me with you ? ''
'' Because i was too young , you were too young . I never thought he would ever do the same to you . I thought that if i run away that he would get the message .'' Aurora answered .
'' And why show up after all this time ? ''
Aurora looked down at her feet . She didn't want Michiru to see her cry .'' I was ...was looking over you ever since i was old enough .But now i see you are trowing your life away . You didn't walk away from home to feel bad in Tokyo or else you wouldn't even have bothered to walk away . You are pushing everyone away who are trying to help you . Just like you pushed that cute blonde guy away .''
'' Girl .'' Michiru corrected her sister .
'' Wow so you are a lesbian ? '' Aurora asked looking up .
'' No ! I don't like her in that way . I don't even like her at all ! ''
'' Yeah right ...''
There was a sudden silence for a few moments until Michiru finally dared to speak up .'' I'm not trowing my life away , i am happy .''
'' No you are not and you know it . I thought walking away would make me happy but it didn't becuase the past kept haunting me ever since . There were moments i wanted to kill myself but i couldn't . Running away from your problems isn't the answer Michiru . To get over them you have to face them .''
'' I don't think i'll ever be able to face them , to face him .''
'' I know ...Even after eightteen years i still can't face him either . I don't know how he can live with himself .''
'' Do you think god punished us for something we did wrong ? '' Michiru suddenly asked causing Aurora to look up at her .'' Do you think god is punishing us for things we done wrong , things we maybe did in other lives . For things we thought , things we said ? '' She added questioning .
Bruises fade father but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
And every morning that I wake I look back at yesterday
Aurora thought about it for a moment but shook her head .'' No Michiru , i don't think we are being punished . Myself i don't believe in god . Not after what happened to me . I mean if there was a god who wanted peace then why are all these bad things happening to me . And not only to me but also with other people . People die , childeren who didn't even had the chance to live die , people getting beaten by ones they love , war , Hate , racism . But i still believe we are not being punished .''
'' Well , i now can see we are real sisters .'' Michiru said smiling a bit .
'' And why is that ? ''
'' Because i just know you for ten minutes and i already disagree with you .''
'' Ooh ? '' Aurora said sounding confused but smiled when Michiru answered the unasked question .
'' I believe there is a god . Someone who is looking over us . Someone who gives us sunshine after rain , who gives us love .''
'' We are really related ? '' Joked Aurora rolling her eyes . Michiru just nodded and sat down next to her sister .
'' If i'm going to face him one day , I want you to be there with me .''
'' Deal ...''
It's not so easy to forget
All the marks you left along her neck
When I was thrown against cold stairs
And every day afraid to come home in fear of what I might see, next
Haruka now looked at her house . All the lights were out . ' I can't go back .' Haruka thought and took a letter from her pocket which she wrote while she was on the plane. The letter explained why Haruka walked away and what she had learned while she was staying with Zen . Haruka decided to give it to her mother in person but decided just to post it .' I hope they'll understand .' With that she walked up to the house and put the letter in the mail box . With that she turned around again and walked away ignoring the light that went on .' Where do i go from here ? Where can i stay ? Maybe i can stay at Megumi's . Nah that will never work , she thinks i'm a guy and she lives with her mom who hates the hell out of me .'
'' Michiru ...'' Haruka said thinking about it for a minute .' Nah she hates me , she told me herself ...I think i'll sleep in my damn car .Why the hell did i come back ?'
Zen sat in the livingroom at the dinner table crying . Her eyes were red and her sobs were there to hear across the whole house . She did not only cry because Haruka didn't love her , but she also cried because her only real friend walked away from her live again even though she said Haruka should go back home . She now sobbed louder hugging her pillow tightly .' Maybe i should go to Tokyo ... I have a feeling Haruka is going to need me ..'
And that was more than right becuase neither of them knew that a great and dangerous adventure had just begun . Neither of them knew that a black car stood in front of Michiru's house this instant . Neither of them knew jealousy would soon wreck them all up and neither did anyone of them know fate had just stanged its plans and made new ones for the four unexpecting girls . Michiru , Haruka , Zen and Aurora didn't know either of this even though this would be their path. This was what fate had in store for them , enter destiny .
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday
And I'm Ok
R&R Please pretens not to notice my spelling errors . I started writing this at 3.30 in the morning and i'm so tired ...but not tired enough to go to bed ! Anyway i hope you liked it . In the next chapter Michiru and Aurora will meet their loverly parents again and some guns will be drawn ,
Auraluna7: I'm afraid i have to dissapoint you ...He will try to hurt her again...Oh and thanks for you email ...Glad to know i have moral support ..
Rushingwind : Well i think i'm going to make things right again but ofcourse , I have to make things worse before ...
Jem : Just because you like Zen so much , she's coming back ! Anyway thanks for all the reviews you left me and i'll try to update Different and dangerous soon and you were very close with guessing what was going to happen ...
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