Title: Learn to be Lonely

Person Responsible: Jodie

Summary: At the end of the journey, Goku has to learn to be lonely until his sun rises again.

Rating: PG (character death, depressing situations, did I mention angst?)

Exhausted Disclaimer: I don't own Saiyuki, that sucks, but it is a fact that all us fan fic writers have to except that fact to avoid lawsuit. I don't the song 'Learn to be Lonely' it belongs to the musical genius mastermind Andrew Loyed Webber. This is a one-shot plot bunny that attacked while listening to 'The Phantom of the Opera' soundtrack and reading the manga.

Child of the wilderness

Born into emptiness

Learn to be lonely

Learn to find your way in darkness

/ If my cage had been deep within the earth, I would never earn for a sun I never knew...

It's so shiny; it's just like the sun...

I would never had to know what true loneliness was...

Till a golden light reached out and saved me... /

But the sun had to set sometime.

Who will be there for you?

Comfort and care for you?

Learn to be lonely

Learn to be your one companion

"Sanzo! Sanzo hold on!"

It was futile statement, and they both knew it. Goku put hid hand over the bloody hole in Sanzo's robe, hoping he bleeding would stop. He could feel his heart still beating.

Thud, thud... thud...

"Shut up, ya stupid monkey."

"No! Hold on, ya hear me!"

"How can't I? You're screaming in my ear..."

Never dream that out in the world

There are arms to hold you

You've always known

You're heart was on it's own

/ Sanzo's always been my savior, but I can do nothing to save him... /

Something was pressed into his hand, the scripture. Rolled up and blood splattered.

"Sanzo... you can't leave..."

"Baka... we all come back... deal with it till then..."

"I can't!"

"You have too..."

...Thud...thud...

So laugh in your loneliness

Child of the wilderness

Learn to be lonely

Learn how to love

Life that is lived alone

"No! You can't...

"Don't fall apart now monkey... you said you wouldn't let me down, right?"

/ Then the one thing you can do is to make sure you never let him down...

I won't fail you, I promise /

...thud...thud...

"Yeah... but I can't without..."

"You're gonna have to learn to... you did in that summit didn't you?"

...thud...

"... ...Wait for the sun to rise again, right?"

"Yeah..."

Learn to be lonely

Life can be lived

Life can be loved alone