Author: XasaRa

Fandom: Gundam Wing

Rating: NC-15/M

Pairings: Duo & Heero (1x2)

Warnings: Yaoi, obscenities, abuse.

Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Wing. Sadly never have and never will. (

Summary: Is Heero on the verge of suicide? Why yes he is! Question on everyone's mind: Will he carry through?

Heero Yuy, You Bastard!

Sweat was pouring from Duo's brow. So many thoughts were racing through his head. If he did this, it would mean forever. This is the easy way out, and once he took it, there was no going back. Flashes of Heero's face raced through his mind. Who was he without his love? To him, he was a big nobody, with nothing else to offer the world. He took a quick glance in the mirror, still holding the blade pressed firmly to his flesh. Who was this person looking back at him? His violet eyes seemed so empty and translucent. He looked down to his wrist again. This had to be it. He pressed the blade down even further and licked his lips. He was finally ready to go.

BANG BANG BANG! There was a harsh knock at the door. This startled Duo, and he lost his concentration, accidently swiping the blade harshly against his wrist. He cried out in pain.

"Oh My God! Duo? Are you alright?" hollered Wufei. He tried to jiggle the doorknob open. Damn. Locked. "Duo, answer me!"

Duo began to panic. Looking down at his wrist and studying it further, the wound wasn't really too deep. The blood dripped down in droplets onto the linoleum floor. If it was his time to go, it sure wasn't the place. It wouldn't be fair to Wufei. "Yeah…I'm fine. Ill be out in a minute."

"Bullshit," was all Wufei said. He took a couple steps back, took a deep breath, and kicked at the door with all his might. The door swung open, revealing a rather sweaty and nervous Duo, sitting on the toilet with a towel to his wrist.

"Duo…what the fuck!" Wufei was in total shock. Taking a couple extra steps into the bathroom, he noticed the blood on the floor, and the bloody blade on the counter. He looked at Duo with such sorrow and horror. All Duo could do was look down, ashamed at the pain he knew Wufei must be feeling. It was hard to break Wufei's trust, or confidence, but once you did, let's just say that you were fucked friends wise. A tear managed to escape Duo's eye.

"Wu…I. I don't know what to say. When I was on the phone with Heero, I must have- it's not what you…" Duo kind of let him self trail off. He knew all the excuses in the world couldn't cover from the scene Wufei had barged into.

Wufei, at first, was numb. His fingertips even held no feeling. He flexed his hand into a fist, trying to get back some mobility. Once he had his fists clenched, his numbness turned into anger. He started to turn a beet red. He swallowed some spit and closed his eyes. Suddenly, he lashed out at Duo, grabbing him by the shoulders and pinning him against the bathroom wall.

"How the fuck could you do that! And in my bathroom! Are you fuckin' nuts!" This is my home! How would I explain to the police that I found you dead in my home! That makes me a liability you asshole!" Duo swallowed hard and started to claw at Wufei's hands trying to break free. Getting a little leeway in, he attempted to turn his neck in the opposite direction and moved his chest a little. Wufei felt this and pinned him even harder this time, causing Duo to smash his head against the wall. "And how could you do this to me if you're supposed to be my best friend? I couldn't deal with the fact that you were dead Duo!" At this point, Wufei was in kind of a screaming crying mode. Duo felt like dirt. Wufei released Duo, but still stood before him, crying and shaking. He stormed out of the bathroom and ran to his bedroom, bawling his eyes out. He flung himself onto his bed and buried his face in his pillow. Duo followed.

Duo stood in the doorway, watching one of his favorite people loose all control. He walked over to Wufei, put a hand on his back, and looked up at the ceiling. What could he say? What could he do? He didn't have a clue. All he knew is that he didn't want to leave his side until he was feeling better. Wufei felt his hand on his back, and turned over while simultaneously wiping his nose. They stared at each other, for what seemed an eternity, and then Wufei was the first to speak.

"Duo, listen to me. I'm so sorry that I lost all control. But…"

"Shhh. Don't apologize. I'm the one who caused all the pain and hurt, not you. You have been nothing but great to me our whole lives. There were some parts in life I didn't think I would be able to get through, but I knew with you there by my side it would be easy to deal with. And what do I do? I make you feel one of the worst pain's anyone could feel." Duo looked at him with such sadness, and such anger at himself.

"No, duo. You don't understand. My reaction was way beyond how a friend should react. I acted as if I were… in love with you."

This made Duo a little uneasy. He shifted on the bed and looked out the window.

"Well, Wufei. We have been best buds for a long time. It's natural that you care a lot about me. And I am so lucky to have that from you. Honestly, I don't know how you put up with me."

"Duo, I think there's something that i-"

"I mean, you're a good friend, no, make that a GREAT friend to me, and although I'm deeply in love with Heero-"

"There's some things I've been feeling, Duo. You see, whenever I want you to come over and we watch movies, what I really want to be doing is-"

"Heero treats me like crap sometimes, I know that. My heart always wants him though. It's indescribable. The way I feel…the things we do. Places we-"

"DUO I LOVE YOU!" Wufei blurted out. Duo went wide-eyed.

"You…you say you…excuse me?" Duo didn't want to believe what he just heard. Wufei sighed, feeling all the built up emotions stream out of his body. Talking after what he just said to him was going to take some finesse. He rubbed at his eyes with his finger tips then threw one hand in the air.

"I love you, Duo. I've loved you for a long time. At first, when we met on our first mission on the DeathScythe, and you almost lost your life to the Oz, remember?" Duo nodded. Wufei continued. "When you almost died Duo, my heart sank, realizing just how much you meant to me. I never wanted to feel that feeling again, and luckily I haven't…until tonight." Duo just blinked. All he could do was blink. "I'm so sorry Duo, to tell you in this way, but your right. Heero does treat you like crap. I don't like it. I would treat you like a king. I would never make sure you were alone at night. That's why I never reserve any plans whenever I can. With the hope and chance you might come over here. I know this is asking a lot Duo, but do you think you could give me a chance?"

Duo stirred. All this information being thrown at him was making his head spin. He was still gone from all the liquor, and now to hear this? He couldn't even think of a response. He stood up and started to back away. He put his hands, palms out, in front of his chest.

"Wufei…I'm flattered, really. I just don't think I feel the same way about you. I don't want to hurt you feelings, Wu. But you have to try to get a clear head of all this." Duo was at the doorway now, and Wufei lept up. He ran behind him and slammed the door shut, pressing his body up against it. He took Duo's hands in his.

"Duo, please. You have no idea how long I have been holding this in with fear of rejection. You are the most beautiful man I have ever seen…I mean, I didn't even know I could feel this way about another man until you. You've brought to life feelings inside me I haven't felt since I was a child. You make me feel so young and carefree. I could never have been by your side this long if I wasn't sure of my feelings! Say you will give me a chance."

"Wufei…I can't. I'm sorry. I'm in love with Heero." Wufei breathed deeply, and released Duos hands. He turned around, facing the door, and let out a scream. He banged with all his might on his head. Duo slowly backed away.

Wu…It's OK. Please…let's talk about this."

"No! I must have you! I won't hear any excuses!" With that, Wufei lept at Duo. Duo screamed and begged Wufei to let him go. But he didn't. Instead, he pushed Duo down on the bed. He held his hands above his head with one hand, and began to rip furiously at Duo's pants with the other. He managed to tear off his jeans and he started to rub at his cock. He was moaning and licking at Duo's neck, pulling Duo's member out and started to pump his hand around it. Duo was begging with Wufei, trying to say anything to break this horrific trance he was in. Looking into Wufei's eyes, he noticed complete emptiness, like it wasn't even him. Duo laid his head back on the pillow and started to cry.

"Shut the hell up!" He leaned back for a second and planted a hard backhand on Duo's cheek. "I'm going to make sure that I have you! Right here, right now. I want to feel you in me, and I want to be in you. I want my hard cock to slam into you so fuckin hard you'll be screaming my name. I don't care if you don't like it!"

Suddenly the door swung open. "Let go of him. NOW."

Wufei stopped and peered at the doorway. There, fists clenched, stood Heero.

FIN

OOO doesn't that suck! Did I leave you guys hanging again? LOL my bad…If you like…perhaps an upcoming fight scene, one on one…with Heero and Wufei? Hmmm? How would you guys like that? Lemme know!