A/n: Wow, I never knew this story could be so popular! Thank you my loyal fans! Oh, and by the way, people keep asking me, "Oh no! Is Sango really going to commit suicide? Will Miroku save her?" and stuff like that. Let me make this clear. SANGO WILL NOT COMMIT SUICIDE! AND YES! SHE WILL BE SAVED! Well, if you want to see what happens, check out this chapter.
This chapter won't be the final one. After an attempt, her life turns around…but something else happens. Okay, and to 'whee' I meant Hold on by, Good Charlotte. Sorry about that!
Disclaimer: Will you freaking lawyers leave me alone! I don't own Inuyasha and co.! I don't, I don't, and I don't! I also don't own 'Hold on' by Good Charlotte!
Chapter 4:
Hold on
Sango's P.O.V.
As the final hours pass by for the day at school, I quietly think about if I should commit suicide. It was 7th period, which was P.E. and since tomorrow was the last day, no more classes! We turned in our books and all. So we do whatever we want.
"Hey Sango!" Kagome called to me. I gave her a small smile, which is of course fake; she came over and sat down next to me.
In a low voice she asked me, "Are you really going to go through with this?" I sighed. I should have realized she would ask me such a hard question.
I told her in a quiet voice, "I'm not sure. I'm starting to have second thoughts." And I hugged her. I felt like crying, but no tears came out.
I felt so empty so alone in this world now. I kept bright until school was over. With my father's permission (Both drunk and undrunk. Is that even a word?) I was able to get a part time job to help invest for college. I was almost there to pay for those long four years, only 500 dollars more to pay. I felt so happy.
After the last day of school, my father constantly started to beat me up more. Soon he almost killed me a few times, but luckily past out. I no longer knew what I wanted anymore.
After school ended, I still met up with friends, and lied to my father about me working late. I still stayed up to study and chat online.
This world, this world is cold
But you don't, you don't have to go
You're feeling sad your feeling lonely and no one seems to care
Miroku was coming back for vacation today. It is the middle of August and I feel so alone. (A/n: Sorry for the time gap! But I want to move farther.) I miss my mother, but I miss my old life more.
Your mother's gone and your father hits you
This pain you cannot bear
But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through
It was my day off, but I told my father I had to work. Right now, he wasn't drunk, but I wanted to see Miroku. I knew there would be a punishment later, but who knows. I want a better life.
I was waiting at the train station for 10 minutes. Inuyasha and Kagome near were near by waiting for him also. I was tapping my foot impatiently waiting for the train to stop. When it did, everyone was slowly getting off the train. They were slower than grandpas!
Finally, after 5 minutes, Miroku came out of the train with a smile on his face. "Hi! Sorry I came out late. Traffic was er…slow?" he said, scratching of his head. "Feh!" Inuyasha said, "That's not a good reason anyways."
"Right, well, come on, I have only until 3:30 okay? So let's hang out." I said. All three nodded and we headed
Hold on, if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Your days, you say there way too long
And your nights, you can't sleep at all
Hold on
We headed over to the park and we played on the equipment. Weird part is, we were the only ones there.
I felt like I was waiting for someone or something to come into my life. But, who knows…
And you're not sure what you're waiting for but you don't want to no more
And you're not sure what you're looking for but you don't want to no more
I closed my eyes and gently swayed back and fourth on the swing.
"Hey." Someone said to me. I opened my eyes to see no other than Miroku. He smiled at me and I smiled back. Somehow, I felt like that smile was real.
"So, how is your vacation so far, Sango?" he asked me as he sat on the swing next to me.
"Very crappy, I've been working at a café for some extra money for college. I got the letter in July, saying that I got into Tokyo University, how about you?" I said.
"Why, my vacation was rather boring. My mom forced me and my dad to carry all her bags. We went to Kyoto also to visit my cousin. And yes, I received my answer that I got in too. So did Inuyasha and Lady Kagome." Miroku said with a grin.
I smiled at him. So we finally got into the same school. But I don't know if I will commit suicide or not.
But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through
Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking your one step closer
Don't stop searching it's not over hold on
When I realized that it was 3:40, I got scarred and said a quick good bye to them. I raced home as fast as I could. When I got home I opened the door. But when I saw the room was a mess and many beer bottles on the floor it indicated my father was drunk.
"And where have you been?" A guy asked me. I turned around, to see my drunken father.
"I-I was at work…" I said in a nervous voice. He started to laugh like a maniac. I closed the door, and then he stopped laughing.
He glared at me and snarled, "Yeah right, bitch! You were out without my permission weren't you? I have taken care of you and I've tired of you shit!"
He grabbed me by my hair and pushed me down to the floor. He kept kicking me over and over. He started to punch and slap me. I was used to this so I managed the pain. But this time, it was fiercer. I felt blood and saw it on my clothes, and around me. I realized something, that it was my blood.
After what seemed like hours, he finally stopped. I saw him leave the kitchen. I tried to sit up. When I did, I saw him come back into the room, with a knife in his hand. I screamed like hell.
"DIE YOU BITCH!" He yelled at me, charging towards. I suddenly found my strength and fought back. I kicked him in the stomach and groin. As he kneeled down in pain, he dropped the knife. I gasped and looked at what I had done. I started to cough. I felt something as I covered my mouth as I coughed…blood.
When I bend over to see my father, he grabbed my foot. I screamed as loud as I could, hoping that someone well find me. I hit him on the head and finally, he passed out. I felt like dying, and I couldn't take the pain anymore. I needed to die.
I took the knife and slit my wrists. Some pain went away not all. So I went a bit deeper. My vision blurred and I knew this would be the end. "This is it." I said. Slowly, I was going to take the final plunge. But before I could stick it through my wrists, I saw the door burst open. I barely made out who that was.
What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for?
"SANGO!" The person cried. By his voice, I could tell it was a guy. He ran toward me and took the knife out of my hands and threw it toward the wall.
"What were you thinking?" The person asked. I saw who the person was…Miroku.
Do you know what you're doing to me?
Go Ahead!
What are you waiting for?
"Miroku!" I gasped. But then, as I was about to speak, my vision blurred. The last thing I heard was Miroku shouting, "SANGO! HOLD ON SANGO! HOLD ON! DON'T LEAVE ME!"
After I heard him, I tried my best to stay conscious, but I soon let the pain take over, leaving me in the darkness. The last thing I heard was, "SANGO!" and then I drifted into utter darkness.
Hold on if you feel like letting go
Hold on it gets better than you know
Don't stop looking your one step closer
Don't stop searching it's not over...hold on
End Sango's P.O.V. Start Miroku's P.O.V.
I saw Sango faint in front of my own eyes. I whispered, "Did you know what you're putting me through? Hold on Sango, hold on." I looked around her house. I saw her father on the floor, out cold. I smelled his breath. It made me sick…the stench of alcohol.
Out of what I could make, I think her father had gotten drunk and hurt her. After he passed out, she tried to commit suicide. At that thought I pulled out my cell phone and called the police.
"Hello? Yeah, I need an ambulance and the cops to come here right away. From the looks of my friend's house, it looks like her father was drunk and he might have hurt her. She then tried to commit suicide, but I went over to her house and I heard her scream. I was able to prevent her from killing herself though." I explained.
I told them where Sango's house was and I hung up. I then called Kagome and Inuyasha, and told them to come by her house quickly.
By the time the ambulance came, Inuyasha and Kagome arrived.
They carried Sango and her father away into the ambulance, to make sure they were okay. "Hey dude, what the hell happened?" Inuyasha asked. After the ambulance left I walked over to Inuyasha.
I sighed and explained what I saw when I heard someone screaming. I told them also about how I found Sango and what she was doing before she past out. They instantly paled. "Let's follow them to the hospital." Kagome said in a shaky voice. I nodded and we got into my purple Toyota. I drove with anticipation, for I needed to know how Sango was. I cared for her too much.
After 5 minutes of driving over the speed limit, we reached the hospital. "Where's Sango?" I demanded the nurse to tell me.
End Miroku's P.O.V. Start Sango's P.O.V.
I saw my mother, along with my father, Kohaku, and me. We were all just having a family picnic. I felt like crying at this memory. 'Why did that happen to me?' I kept asking myself.
Suddenly, my eyes fluttered open. But I was no longer in my house, but in a hospital room. "What the freak?" I asked no one in particular.
"Ah. You're finally awake. How are you Sango?" Someone asked me. I turned around to the source of the voice, to find a doctor.
I felt pain around my whole body. I didn't want him to worry, so I said, "I'm just a bit sore, is all."
He nodded and left the room. As soon as he left, I sighed. What happened? My mind replayed what had happened before I blacked out. What made me stop from committing a sin that would make the pain go away? Then I remember who took the knife away from my hands. My tears weld up in my eyes, as I said,
"Miroku."
I now know that he wanted me to live, and I felt so ashamed. I let my heart out and cried.
I cried for the pain I went through, the pain I felt my whole life; I cried for Miroku, I cried for Kagome and Inuyasha, but most importantly, I cried for myself. I felt as if, my life was over, and I was able to start anew.
A/n: I felt so sad while righting this. But Sango is now free of that bastard, and next chapter, Sango will admit to Miroku, her feelings. And she will have a better life, in…college! Remember to R&R! I will try to update as soon as I can if you review! Ja Ne!