A/n: Hi guys. So, thank you to all that reviewed. But, I have something to say to one loyal reviewer to this story: casui!

I didn't know about that…for I am stupid.

Don't flame me for it! T-T for ya see, I am a baka! Okay? Also, because I told you a bit of what in this chapter, I didn't say anything about the problems ahead! Oh yes, there is a lot of drama for your momma! Lol…okay, enough of my ramblings!

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha!

Losing Myself

Chapter 5: Starting Anew

Sango's P.O.V.

I just kept crying, not knowing what to do. I was sitting in a hospital bed, full of shame. I had always been strong, like my mother. But I've never felt so guilty in my whole life.

"I'm sorry, Miroku." I whispered, as I cried. Suddenly, I was pulled into a fierce hug. "H-huh?" I said. And when I looked up, I saw the man that I loved, Miroku.

"There is nothing to be sorry for Sango. But please, may you tell me what has gotten you to try make you commit suicide?" he asked me. Sniffling, I looked up at his face. I looked straight into his eyes, which were full of anger, concern, shock, and most of all, relief.

He wiped my tears away and asked me again to tell him what happened. I nodded my head and when I was about to tell the tale of what happened, Kagome and Inuyasha came in. And when they did, we quickly let go of each other.

"SANGO-CHAN YOU'RE OKAY!" Kagome cried. Inuyasha said nothing and took a seat next to my bed, and Kagome sat down on his lap, making him blush.

"Guys, I think I should tell you what happened." I said to them. Taking a deep breath I began to explain.

"Well, after Kohaku died, my parent began to fight endlessly. Sometimes they end up fighting physically. And then, two weeks before school was over, I came home from school, to find my house a mess. And after I cleaned up, I heard my mother yelling at my father about being drunk." I stopped there for a moment, to catch my breath. Just retelling what has been happening makes me want to cry again.

"And then she yelled at him that she's on her way to get a divorce and she's leaving me and daddy. And right after, he started to beat me for every flaw in my work. And he threatened to hurt me very badly if I told someone else. And a week later, I came up with a plan: to commit suicide." Tears suddenly came out of my eyes.

"I told Kagome about my plan, making her tell no one." I was about to continue when Miroku cut me off.

"Sango, Kagome already told us." He informed me. I nodded and said, "Okay then. Don't worry, I'm not mad." And I gave Kagome a small smile.

"Okay, so then after school let out I got a job at a café, to earn some money. I needed to go to college and escape him. But today, I had the day off, so I told my dad I had to work, and I met up with you guys. Then I got home a bit late. And my father was drunk. Once again he started to beat me up so badly, I started to bleed. I then tried to commit suicide, I felt like dying. But then Miroku came and stopped me. And then I just fainted."

After I finished, I just closed my eyes and let the tears run freely. Miroku and Kagome tried to calm me down, but they didn't need to know I wanted to cry. I wanted to cry, for everything I did.

"I'm sorry." I said, as I wiped my tears away.

"Why are you sorry?" Inuyasha asked me.

I closed my eyes and put on a small smile on. "For everything I did: not telling you the truth, a suicide attempt, and for hurting you guys."

Suddenly the nurse came in and said, "Visiting hours are over. You can come and talk to her tomorrow, but she needs to rest right now." I looked at the clock, It was 7:50. Just how long was I out or how long were they here? The others nodded and left. But before Miroku left, he whispered in my ear, "I'll be back tomorrow."

Closing my eyes, I laid back on the bed. Thinking how my life would be. Suddenly, I remembered something. Tomorrow would be my 18th birthday. Mostly people would ask others what they wanted, but for me, I got what I wanted. To get away from that bastard I was forced to call father.

As for something else, I know what I would want to have…a simple kiss from Miroku. At the thought of that, I started to blush. Before I could think anymore, I fell into a peaceful, dreamless sleep.

I woke up from the sunlight pouring into the windows. It felt so early, as I opened my eyes I saw the nurse come in. She smiled nicely to me and said, "I'm Kari. Here Sango, that's breakfast, I'll take the tray away when you're done. Just let me or any other nurses know when you need something."

I nodded and she walked away. I slowly ate the French toast and soup they provided for me to eat. I felt safe now, away from him. When I finished I put the tray on the table next to me and sighed. There was nothing for me to do.

Suddenly, Miroku came into the room. "Hey Sango, are you feeling better?" He asked me as he took a chair that was next to the bed. I managed a smile and said, "Hai Miroku. Thank you. Thank you for everything."

He smiled and told me some good news. "Well, your father has been arrested for child abuse. So you can live at Kagome's house now. They've set up an extra room for you." He said with a small smile. I could see his hand twitching. I raised an eyebrow but ignored his actions.

"That's good. I got one thing I wanted to happen for my birthday." I said with a small smile. Suddenly he grinned and took out a small box and handed it to me.

"Happy birthday Sango." He said with the grin still on his face.

I opened the box and gasped. It was a necklace with a small golden chain and in the middle was a small heart, with a red diamond in the middle. It wasn't much, but to me, this was a lot.

"Thank you Miroku!" I said happily giving him a tight hug. He returned the hug and turned red. "Sango?" He said in an uneasy voice.

"Yes?" I asked slowly. He suddenly blushed harder and said, "Sango, I love you."

I gasped. "You do?" I asked, a blush creeping up on my cheeks. Still red, he nodded, and he did the unthinkable. He kissed me on the lips. When he let go, I was red. He looked down and said, "I'm sorry Lady Sango."

I smiled and said, "Its okay Miroku." And I kissed him back and when it ended, I said, "I love you too Miroku. I have for a long time. And to tell you the truth, it was my first kiss." I turned red and looked away. He chuckled and then he turned seriously red. "Sangowillyoubemygirlfriend?" He said really quickly.

Not catching what he said I asked him to repeat it again. He took a deep breath and asked me, "Will you be my girlfriend?"

My eyes widened. I squealed in surprise. "YES! I WILL!" I said while hugging him, then giving him a kiss on the lips.

"Well, well, well, look at what we have here." I hear someone say. We broke the kiss and looked over at the door. Inuyasha was smirking and Kagome looked so starry eyed.

"Oh shit! How long were you guys there?" I asked them. Inuyasha then said, "When Miroku asked you to be his girlfriend." The smirk looked like it would stay on forever. I turned red and hid my face out of embarrassment.

Two days later, I was out of the hospital and I couldn't believe it. I was packing everything important to me along with my clothes and money for college. I got out of my house and I was moving to Kagome's.

I smiled all day, and in three weeks, college will be starting. When I unloaded the last of my stuff into the guest room I looked around to find Mrs. Higurashi.

"Mrs. Higurashi?" I asked, finding her in the Kitchen. She stopped what she was doing and turned around. "What is it Sango?"

I smiled and said, "I just wanted to say thank you, you know, for letting me stay here." She returned the smile and said it was no problem.

I ran up into my new room and recapped what had happened. I was so amazed. Miroku was my boyfriend, my father is gone, and I'm living with the girl who is like a sister to me. I closed my eyes, thinking about how my life couldn't get any better.

Suddenly, two weeks later, I found myself unpacking in my new dorm. Kagome is my room mate along with Rin and Ayame from our high school, but I never really paid attention. Rin, like Kagome is a miko. Ayame is a wolf demon, like her new boyfriend Koga, who has finally given up on her after that 5 year long crush.

"Wow, how time flies by so fast." I said to myself as I walked around my new room. The walls were light blue, the curtains on the windows are white with a blue trimming, and the carpet was beige. I silently snuck out of the room, and headed outside.

I saw Miroku just lingering out in the halls, with a smile tugging his lips. I smiled as I walked toward him. "Hey Miroku. What's up?" I asked him as I draped my arms around his shoulders, leaning in to give him a small kiss. He smiled back at me and he gave me a quick peck on the cheek. We headed outside, to spend some time together.

Suddenly, he groped me! I turned beet red and smacked him on the head. "Perverted Monk." I mumbled, when suddenly, he didn't make up a reply, I looked at the floor, to find him unconscious.

"Oh my god! I am so sorry Miroku!" I leaned over him to make sure he was okay; suddenly his hand was on my butt. He would snoop that low! I hit him again, and helped him up. "I can't believe you houshi. You would snoop that low just to grope me." I said shaking my head. He just laughed and brushed it off. As we walked, I thought someone kept following us. But whenever I turn around, there was no one there.

I think it's just from lack of sleep, but suddenly, I felt so alone. Even with Miroku by my side, nothing felt safe. As we headed down the streets, into a normal café, I suddenly felt a familiar presence, like an aura, a dark one too. Like the one I felt in the court room of the murder of Kohaku. Could he have escaped from prison, and I never knew?

A/n: Hope you enjoyed this chapter! I don't know if Sango can sense an aura or not. But in this story she can… anyways, R&R and if you want to, give me some ideas or suggestions if you have any! Ja ne!