A/n: No one voted… TT I have decided though….

Will this be the last chapter of 'Losing Myself'? Find out….

Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha, Shippo, Kagome, Kouga, Ayame, etc. And thank god…But I would like to own Kikyo, Sango, Sesshomaru and Miroku…-wink-

WARNING: VERY OOC! DO NOT HATE! DO NOT FLAME

Chapter 11:

Knocking On Death's door

Sango's P.O.V.

I dropped the pan of cookies I was holding as Miroku's Foster Father told me something over the phone.

"WHAT THE HELL DO YOU MEAN MIROKU'S GONNA DIE!" I yelled at him over the phone as I shook the phone with both hands, trying not to cry.

"Don't blame me Sango, I'm just telling you what the doctors told me." He tried to explain to me, trying to calm me down. I didn't pay attention. My Heart felt like braking.

"I'm sorry Sango…we can't do anything but pray. Good Bye." He said before he hung up. I hung up too.

I just sat on the kitchen chair. Thinking…

He left me…I couldn't even say "I Love You" to him before he left.

The time we met…

Ever since I met Miroku, we hung out every day…and that was long ago…I can't remember my life without him.

I never knew he would leave me.

Miroku, I need you now more than ever. These past months since you were in a coma, it's been so tough for me. I need you to survive Miroku…what the hell did I ever do to the ones that control my life! I never asked them to make my life a living hell…one tragedy after another…

But…my love for Miroku is eternal. I lost part of myself after not being with him for so long…

I don't believe it…I refused to believe it at first….but it was nothing that could be helped. No matter how much I denied it, part of me knew it was true…

"I need to visit him…I just need too." I said to myself as I ran out of the Higurashi's shrine. It had only been a day since I last saw Miroku…but it felt as if I hadn't seen him since that day.

So I ran out of the steps, jumping and landing on every 5 steps. I don't care if I actually injure myself. I need to see him.

I jumped from the last step, and ran out on to the busy street, ignoring the honks of the annoyed drivers. It felt as if I didn't care. I just wanted him. My dearest Miroku, wait for me. Don't ever die without me by your side. I want to be with you until the very end.

I finally reached the hospital. I'm in front of the door, panting, and trying to breathe properly. The doctors near by me on their coffee break just looked at me and shook their heads. I didn't even see them before I opened Miroku's door.

The white room seemed bare to me; even if the only other person in there was Miroku. I guess I was expecting a fucking miracle: one that would never come true…that we could turn back time, and start again.

I sat and stared at the heart monitor. Beep….beep….beep… The green lines went up and down, like mountains. I grabbed Miroku's hands, his skin, was cold, but so warm to me. A small smile graced my lips as I held his pale hand.

Beep…wait…where was that other beep! I looked quickly at the monitor, which was glaring at me…by showing a straight line. A small mountain…and a straight line once more…

No.

God damn it, no.

Fuck you…it can't…

Another small mountain came up upon the green lines, and then, the beep…long and annoying.

"Doctor…" I mumbled as I walked out, and saw Miroku's usual doctor. "DOCTOR, MIROKU HOUSHI! HE…." I yelled out to him, screaming, crying as he came running towards the room, two nurses on their way.

They looked at the monitor, then back to me. They looked at each other and nodded. "Ma'am, please exit the room. We need you to stay clear, we will let you come in. Sire, get the supplies quick!" One nurse said as she pushed me out gently.

As soon as I was out, the door closed. I heard nothing else from them….nothing.

I blocked out all sounds, staring into nothing…I don't know how long I was staring, but the pain wouldn't leave.

Wanting to cry, the pain within my heart….I can't describe it…I never felt it…before.

Tears…

Heart…

Miroku…

"Ma'am…?"

Nothing left…

"Miss…?"

I felt a light tap on my shoulder, which caused me to look up.

God…my eyes feel dry…

"Y-yes doctor…What's the news on Houshi?" I forced out…waiting the news I expected.

"Well…Ma'am…I'm sorry…but he is confirmed dead…" He told me, filled with sadness….almost…..pity was written all over his face…

Cold ass bastard…

"Would you like to sit next to him…?" He asked me…no hesitation…at all…

God dammit…..he's a big. Fat. Bitch.

"Sure." I said…not knowing how the heck to act.

I walked into the eerie room; filled with nothing…I sat next to the bed. Miroku's body, still on it, and I ran my hand through Miroku's hair. So soft…so lovely, it felt to touch him before…

The nurse pulled the white sheet over his body. I put my hand back on my lap, as I saw her pull the sheet over his head.

The final time I get to see him…he last got to see me…all in the past.

I went home that night, knowing that Miroku's foster father had been informed. He sounded very, very drunk again. I smirked as I held a bottle of pills that I bought, not to long ago.

"I have no reason to live…now." I said as I walked out of the Higurashi home, leaving two notes, one for Kagome, and one for Inuyasha. One final look at everything, I ran out the door, slamming it, never looking back.

I didn't see the folded note fly open as I slammed the door.

Dear Kagome,

Thanks so much for everything you had ever done for me, but I am so sorry to announce, to inform you of Miroku Houshi's death. You are like a sister to me, to dear to lose. But I have no use to live anymore. I love you very much, but I am on my way to hell, never to see Miroku again. I know he's on his way to heaven and I am not. Committing suicide gives you one ticket to hell. Please, don't kill yourself, you have Inuyasha.

Love forever,

Sango

Dear Inuyasha,

You're like a brother to me. I am sorry to announce your cousin, Miroku Houshi, is dead. I decided to commit suicide for I have no purpose. Most of the things I'd like to say are in Kagome's note. Tell her to read it aloud.

Love,

Sango

A week later

Normal P.O.V.

"Ugh…I can't believe you came back as soon as we did!" Kagome said slowly as she opened her house door, Inuyasha beside her, helping her carry her bags. She and Inuyasha was informed of Miroku's death and came back as soon as they heard.

"Hey, what's that?" Inuyasha asked, pointing to the notes on the counter.

"Dunno, let's check." Kagome said, grabbing the unfolded note, which had her name on it.

"No…" Kagome cried.

Everyone read the note. They ran to the only place they knew Sango would go to when she felt depressed: her house.

They found her body moments later at Sango's house; Where Miroku had found her moments before her first attempt.

She was buried, along side with Miroku at the local graveyard. Both families came to an end that day. Both gravestones had said, they loved each other so much...they loved eachother to death.

Kagome and Inuyasha got married later, they have a little quarter demon, named, Shippo. A few years later, they decided to show Shippo the couple he never would get to meet.

"Shippo look at this grave stone…its where two very important people lie…" Kagome said softly to her baby boy as she kneeled on the ground in front of Sango and Miroku's grave.

Unnoticed by Inuyasha, Kagome and Shippo, a ghostly figured appeared, in the shape of a young women, who died by overdose a few years back.

Sango was her name; she looked pale and unhappy. She could never find rest again, until she finished her task…of watching over her friends, until they've died peacefully.

Kagome looked up; getting a feeling someone was looking at her. She saw Sango, who could offer a small smile to Kagome. Kagome smiled back, looking at her long time friend.

Sango sat on her grave, smiling a sad smile. She couldn't rest in either worlds…doomed to wander the world. No hope, no love, nothing at all.

"Sango-chan…" Kagome whispered. Shippo was too busy looking at the graves to hear, but Inuyasha heard it well enough. Inuyasha kneeled down next to his beloved.

"Kagome…" He whispered to her, holding her tight as she looked like she wanted to cry. She let go of Shippo and held on to Inuyasha. "Inuyasha…I….she…Sango….dead….sad…ghost of…" She murmured.

She looked at where her best friend's ghost once stood; she wasn't there, but a small note was replaced the young ghost.

She took a hold of it…the writing was messy but it touched her.

Dear Kagome and Inuyasha,

I didn't go to hell, but I must stay on Earth, to fulfill a task before I can go to any place. I will watch you when I can, so please know, you are always safe, no matter what happens. May you two love each other forever, and never ever choose death after an incident. Don't make the same mistake as me

Love forever,

Sango

Inuyasha peered over to see the note before giving off a small smirk. Kagome smiled, "See you …Sango-chan" she whispered to the grave and looked over to Miroku's.

She thought she saw a spitting image of Miroku Houshi, giving his usual perverted smirk. But as soon as she blinked, it was gone."Shippo…Inuyasha…let's go home." Kagome said, picking up her son, who smiled brightly in return. "Mama…Papa!" He said happily as he ran to his mother, tripping.

She laughed and picked him up, holding him tightly so he wouldn't cry.

It was their own lives now…friendless if so…but Kagome and Inuyasha would never forget Sango or Miroku. It was them after all; they got together in the first place.

"Sango-chan, Miroku-kun…I hope you both will get reincarnated…to find each other again." Kagome thought, looking back and the graves one final time, before she went back home with Inuyasha.

The End

A/n: Okay…very crappy, I know. So sorry if you guys hate it. I tried. Also, I tried my hardest getting it done as soon as I could. I'll be without internet for 8 days.

ATTENTION TO IF YOU READ JUST ANOTHER DAY: I plan on discontinuing this story for a few reasons:

I don't like Kagome even if I support Kag/Inu, but I support Kik/Inu more. So this story won't be as good as I thought it would be…opinions change, you know.

I wasn't even planning on making it great anyways. It was almost a filler story that I wouldn't really put a lot of effort in.

I run out of ideas a lot for this story…I didn't even plan Kikyo coming into it. I decided to add a little spice into it…

I think you guys will kill me when you guys read the ending.

Thanks for paying time to this…for those who haven't bother to read it, read it any time. It will be on my profile page. Thank you guys for reading Losing myself.

My most successful story, this story is.

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