Chapter 4 Shizophrenic Silence

There she was again. Back at the usual big white lovely house,with the usual Jeep standing in front of the garage.

Everything seemed to be usual,but for Summer it was now all turned upside down.

She hesitated,before she opened the door.

She was afraid to hear that silence again,she heard hours before,the silence which wasn't silent.

Without cogitation she opens the door, and by that, a stone fell off her heart.

The excpected silence did not occur. Instead she heart the tv in the living room,beeing tuned up really loud.

"Hello !" Her voice did not get through the loud Tv Sound. On was the Jerry Springer Show, Summer hated that show because of its stupid guests who always show their boobs by chance or punch immediately each other.Before she would watch something like that,she would rather wath the Teletubbies,but of course without telling anyone about it.

She went through the hall,the kitchen and came up to the living room. Her mother was lying in front of the tv on the sofa,sleeping.

Summer turned off the tv,and tiptoed back through kitchen and hall up to her room. As she wanted to shut her door,she heard her mothers voice very loud,nearly as loud as her parents fought before..

"Summer Roberts,WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN ? I have been worrying about you ! "

Summer affrighted by the moment. Normally her mother was not screaming at her,and first off all not worrying about her in the afternoon.

She stepped out of her door,downstairs.

"Mum,it is like 5 pm in the afternoon! Where should I have been ,I was outside with Marissa,anything wrong with that?

SO why worrying about me,Im not a little child anymore!"

Her mother looked really angry. " Of course you are a child. You are only 13. I am responsible for you little Miss Roberts."

That was,what Summer hated about her mother. She could not stand her little Summer growing up,beeing independent and not motherbounded like a baby. But it was humbug to argue with her about that. She would always see little Summer in Summer,even if she was married and 32 or something.

Summer grimaced her face to an annoyed expression. " Won't you stop that ! Don't be rude to your mother,do you understand ?"

In the rush of the moment,Summer's mother hauled off her right hand. Summer was frightened and shocked,she ran.Again like she would run for her life. She ran up into her room,banged the door and closured the door twice.

Her mother was banging against the door,yelling like she yelled at Neil before.

Summer was near tears.She always told herself to be as strong as her mother,but now,what had happened to her mother?She seemed like a monster,turned about 360 ° into another direction she was before.

Summer did not want to be strong anymore.She wanted to cry.

Summer hold Princess Sparkle tight in her hands,while a first tear was running down her beautiful face.

She sank down to the ground leaning on the door,which stopped banging.Her mother stopped banging at the door.

Summer's mother was bitterly whiny crying,whispering excuses,accusing herself beeing a bad mother and unable to raise Summer.

Summer cried even more as she heard what her mother said those accusations. She did not know ,what was wrong with her mother,

or even who her mother was. It seemed like her mother had developed through the fights with her dad,two faces.

And now,she had shown the other one to her daughter.

Summer's mum sank down on the ground on the other side of the door.She wanted to say sorry,but she was to ashamed of herself,of what she had done to the only one she still loved of her family.

Suddenly Summer's mother heart Neil entering the hall.She was not able to face anyone in that situatuion,she jumped up and went immediately up in her bathroom and closured the door.

While that,Summer started to breath slowly and normal again,she stopped crying.

It was hard for her to imagine,that her mother,she mostly loved more than her father,had hault her hand off to slap her.

She felt like she needed to vomit,she enclosured her door and went down the stairs.

Neil was standing there,looking straight in her eyes.Summer did so ,too.

-What is wrong with my little baby girl?What happened,why is she crying?-

Neeil was suddenly filled with so many questions,but he was not ready to ask . It was unthinkable that he would ask his daughter about something emotional. He wanted too,but he was shiftless .

So they stood there,looking at each other in silence.

Then Summer went on to the bathroom...