If You Die
Can you believe I'm updating this? I can't! But I got my teacher to read it again after I read some of your reviews, and he re-thought his criticism. Not just that, but he gave me an idea to continue it. If you liked the first part, I think you'll REALLY like the next part. Hope you do. And please, keep reviewing! For those of you who think this is a good idea, thank my teacher .
Part Two: Something to Believe In…
I know you don't feel right, because I can see it in your eyes.
All the times you pushed me away, and now I realize…
With every hit, you really screamed out,
"Help me… I need you to be here."
Because you needed…
Never wanted…
Always loved, and now I'm here.
You had faith in me,
When that's all you had left.
Now I'm here…
I'll give you something to believe in.
Leorio sat on his bed, looking at his friend who was now his love. How long had he waited? The initial moment had been wonderful, but now it seemed like Kurapika had become his old self again… the one who was shy and hated any kind of contact. Leorio knew that no matter what Kurapika said, it wasn't over yet and it wouldn't be for a while. But he couldn't change that, now could he? All he could do was wait. Waiting: a promise made; a promise kept. He wasn't going to go back on his word. That was the extent of his true feelings. Now, he could only dream that the man lying on the floor, curled up in many covers felt the same way for him.
He turned on his side and looked out the window. It was raining again like it had been going for weeks. The gloomy atmosphere was starting to affect him, he thought. Normally, Leorio would have smiled and thought of something better, but not this time. 'Spiders are the foulest creatures on earth…' he thought to himself, closing the blinds of the window. Thunder and lightning started a short while ago, although Leorio didn't remember when he had heard it first. He quickly crawled under his covers and decided to go to bed.
Kurapika laid his head down harder onto the pillow. Through the storm, he couldn't sleep. Not to mention the horrible nightmares that he had. Kuroro and his men had taken a good part of Kurapika's life from him. It was all he could do to remember the days he spent with his people before they died. Kurapika slowly opened his eyes, staring at the wall opposite of Leorio, and he imagined himself back in the village, as if he was just coming back from a long journey, and they weren't really dead at all. His sister would have run to meet him, and his mother would prepare them a warm meal. Although he couldn't remember his father, he was sure that he would have been there too…
Not a day had gone by that Kurapika didn't imagine his family before him. As long as he did, he knew that they would never be erased from his heart or his mind. With all the pain in his world, how could he hope to find something true… something real, that he could trust, and put his whole self into? There wasn't anything like that, he told himself. That was how he felt. A single tear rolled down his cheek.
"Kurapika! Watch me!" Iori, his little sister shouted to him as she danced around the field.
"Kurapika! Don't do that! You'll get your nice outfit all dirty!" His mother said as he played with Iori in the mud. They were laughing and having such a great time. 'How old would she be now if she was still alive?' Kurapika asked himself sadly.
Then his thoughts shifted to the spiders…
"I never thought the chain-user would be a girl." Kuroro smirked at him with that smug look on his face. He acted like he knew everything… had he no regret? No honor? How sad…
He thought of them all… from Kuroro the leader, to Phinx the killer, Shizuku, Feitan, Nobunga, and even those who were dead now… Because they were dead because of him… and he remembered each moment clearly.
Kurapika shivered. The window was closed, but the cold air was coming in. It made him feel like a true, blue icicle. Just like his heart, he felt frozen to the core, and then he remembered why he came back: the reason he didn't end the struggle now.
"If you die… I won't forgive you."
Leorio…
Kurapika sat up and looked over at the sleeping man. A small smile crept upon his face. He couldn't help but feel so lucky, like a piece of his life had been restored in all. Maybe there was something…
Maybe you can't hear me…
Maybe you won't know the difference,
But I'm here now.
You don't have to run away no more.
I know you're still hurt.
The wounds won't just disappear.
But in the distance,
I'm sure there is something worth believing in.
Let me prove it to you…
He stood up and crawled over to the bed. Even now, he had left a nice bruise on Leorio's cheek for an earlier incident. Because of his frozen heart, he couldn't let the one he loved touch him. 'This is for you… because I know you'll be here. I know you won't go away, no matter how bad it gets… because… I love you. And I trust you…'
Because I believe in you…
And that's all I can do.
Kurapika crawled into the bed next to him and wrapped his arms around him gently.
Thank you,
For giving me something to believe in.
Please, let me do the same for you….
So? Whaddaya think? I was surprised by the turn-out! I thought it was going to be bad, but I like it! Please review! Not to mention a big THANK YOU to all my reviewers from before! Keep it up! I love reviews.