Chap19 - Love Said No

Week 7

Hermione laid in her bed Saturday afternoon, she couldn't stand herself for being so miserable over a boy, she vowed she wouldn't slip so easily again if this was going to be the result. She turned over as she hugged her pillow, she caught a sight of the old corkboard, the letter he had sent her which was written in invisible ink was still pinned up.

She dragged herself out of the bed and slowly walked over, she unpinned the letter and walked back over to her bed and back down as she read it again... her smile was reborn. Those words came from Draco and they were about her, her heart melted and yet at the same time, cried out in pain.

She held the letter against her heart as yet again tears produced in her eyes, she freely let them fall as she missed Draco and despreately wanted him back.

"Hermione stop crying" her inner voice told her.

"It's one boy, one boy who you've hated from day one of the first year, he's a bully... let him go" it told her.

Hermione however, disagreed with her inner voice.

"He's not a bully, he's misunderstood" she said aloud.

"He's a bully!" it argued.

"He's slept with nearly half the girls in Hogwarts, he only wants power, he's going to crumble you for his own amusement!"

"He's everything" she cried to herself as she refused to listen to her conscience.

In Draco's room, he sat on his bed with his back on the backboard, he was playing some of his music as he tried to vanish Hermione from his mind.

His headphones were in and his eyes were cosed, foot tapped to the beat of the music... the song ended, and the new one played, one which brought Hermione back to mind, 'And Love Said No'.

Draco sang the words quietly as he wasn't the best singer.

"Kill-l-l-l-l me, I begged and love said no... leave-e-e-e me, for dead and let me go" he remained tapping his foot.

With his headphones on full blast, he didn't realise he was singing alot louder as he got into the song, relating it to himself.

"Kill-l-l me, I cried and love said no... kill-l-l me, I cried and love said no!" he sang.

Hermione who was sat in her room, could hear the... 'singing', she became curious and left her room, she heard it coming from behind Draco's door. She slowly crept over and listened through the door.

""Kill-l-l-l-l me, I begged and love said no... leave-e-e-e me, for dead and let me go, kill-l-l me, I cried and love said no!" he continued.

Hermione stopped intentionally listening and sighed heavily. She wondered if he was singing it because he still wanted to be with her and yet couldn't, or was it just because he liked the song and wanted to sing?

She soon left his door and went into her bedroom to get ready, after that, she decided she would go see Harry and make an effort and actually talk for longer than five seconds.

Draco pulled out his headphones and sighed, he couldn't get Hermione out of his head, nothing helped getting her out of his head, she had posioned him as far as he was concerned.

He climbed off his bed and walked out of his room, he looked over at Hermione's door and inhaled.

"You can do this" he told himself.

He walked over and knocked on.

"Hermione... it's me" he said nervously.

There was no answer... obviously.

"I hate this Hermione, I can't stop thinking about you" he said through the door.

His head leaned on the doorframe as he continued.

"I miss you" he said lovingly.

Still, no answer.

"I'm crazy about you Hermione Granger... please open the door" he begged her.

Again, still no answer.

"Hermione please... I can't bare it any longer... I feel like I can't breathe without you... I love you" he truthfully said.

The door remained closed and 'Hermione' did not speak.

Draco leaned up from the doorframe as he felt rejected, he hung his head in shame and slowly walked away from her door. He walked into the bathroom and closed the door slowly...

"She doesn't love you!" his conscience taunted.

Draco believed his conscience and felt the tears well up, they slowly fell from him eyes, one by one leaving streaks and falling him his face. He stood at the mirror and wiped his face from the wet tears, he didn't know what to do anymore... Hermione never replied to him... he knew now she really didn't want to be with him.

Draco's face frowned as the tears poured out, he whimpered in agony as he sobbed his eyes dry.

"The first ever girl I love, and I lose her... why do I always have to fuck things up?" he cried loudly to himself.

He caught a sight of a razor and stared at it in deep thought... he picked it up slowly and stared at himself in the mirror... he pressed the razor against his wrist and bracefully pulled rapidly.

The stinging sensation kicked in and Draco fell backwards onto the wall in bewilderment, he stared down at his wrist and noticed he'd took a chunk out of his wrist and noticed the blood kept coming out.

Draco grabbed the white towel and threw it onto his wrist.

He cried even more as he slid down the wall, the towel sucked in the blood and Draco felt himself lose conscious...

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