Love Just Is

Chapter 13: Kari's Feelings

Two weeks went by without much trouble. But two weeks later, Davis received a letter, informing him that the semi-finalists from the essay contest would be meeting in Tokyo later that week. Of course, Davis was thrilled because this essay meant a lot to him. After all, it was the one that helped him earn Kari's love and respect.

So he told her the next day...

"Kari! Oh, Kari!" Davis shouted, running up to her. Kari was pulling books out of her locker slowly and carefully, looking at the titles and her agenda book. Homework hadn't let up a bit since their return. It only got worse. But when she saw him, she smiled and put everything down in her book bag, turning her full attention to the excited boy.

"What's up with you?" She asked, smiling. Davis grinned widely and thrust the letter in to her hand. Kari cocked her head, but then began to read it. After she finished, she smiled. "That's great! I... I wonder how long you'll be gone." She said, kind of sad. Davis smiled.

"Don't worry! I'll be back as soon as I can, and I'll tell you all about it!" Kari smiled. How could she argue when he looked so happy. It was no secret that he had never really done something special like this before. Most likely it was his lack thereof that made him want to do it so bad. 'He's not still trying to impress me, is he? He should know by now that I'm beyond that.' She grinned.

"I know you will. Just... don't go doing anything stupid while you're gone, alright?" Kari said playfully. Davis rolled his eyes to the sky and laughed. "Don't even pretend to act all innocent! You know that is just something you would do. I know you better than that." Davis held his hands out in surrender quickly and winked.

"I guess you do. So I'll try not to... for you." Kari smiled and threw her arms around him tightly. Davis wrapped his arms around her waist and rubbed his face into her shoulder.

"I'll miss you." Kari said softly.

"Well, I'll miss you too! But it won't be long. When I come back, you'll just have to take me out for some food." He winked. Kari laughed and nodded. "Than it's settled. Thank you."

"Don't worry... I'm not going anywhere." Kari kissed him softly and smiled. "I'll help you pack! Let's go!" Together, the two of them ran to his house. But later that night, Kari sat down on her bed and cried. After she felt like her tears had ended she pulled out her diary and began to write as fast as she could. Emotions ran rampant for her, but she wanted to write them all down.

Dear Diary, Tomorrow I am going to watch my boyfriend get on a plane for Tokyo. Who knows when he'll be back. I know Davis loves me and he promised not to do anything stupid, but that's not enough to calm me. I feel scared and lonely. We just got together, and what if this could be the thing to pull us apart? I don't want that.

As much as I try to push it away, I feel like maybe there are more troubles and dangers ahead – things that I could never truly imagine, but they could still hurt me in the end. Davis isn't perfect and neither am I. So what if this love that seems so perfect really isn't. What if I just get crushed in the end?

There are a lot of things like that crossing my mind now. I don't want to believe any of it, but anything is possible. I'm so scared that... maybe he'll change or I'll change before we meet again. What if we change our minds and go separate ways? What would I do then? This makes me feel so lost. But I will prey every night and day...

Well, that's it for the THIRTEENTH installment. Hope you like it... so far people have, so I'll just hope I can keep going in the right direction. Thanks to all my great reviewers. This chapter is dedicated to my dear friend Angel. Stop being so hard on yourself and live life to the fullest! - R&R everyone! It's fun!

C.L.