"I think...she hates me Jaki."

"Why...would you think that? What gives you that idea?" I wonder...

Lately, I've often found myself having these sorta conversations with Bankotsu. One minute he's completely fine and then he stares at Kimi( whose been depressed beyond infinity lately) and he starts getting these ideas.

During the two months she was gone, The Shichinintai mainly focused on doing what we do best: Killing for money. We reached an all time high. We managed to become so famous overnight. I think it's because we just didn't talk about the "Incident" It was like unspoken taboo or something.

Now that Kimi-chan's back, Bankotsu's not his usual arrogant self. He's actually self-concious. Like is he allowed to stare at other women or can he get laid or...whatever. I think he should go for it. Then again...I might be sending him into the lion's den.

3 years ago, Bankotsu was the strongest fighter in our district. Stronger than any man in Ryosuke's army.Not to mentionalmost all women had a thing for him. They thought tanned skin and blue eyes with black hair was exotic(needless to say, Ban didn't have the oriental look).2 years ago he was practically in the prime of his young life. He had money, women, a palace to live in, strength, looks...you name it, he had it.

Still, he laways complained to me like(mocking Bankotsu) "Jaki, I'm bored with life." "Jaki, we need more excitement!" or "SCREW THOSE DAIMYO! It'll be a cold day in hell before I take orders from anybody."

But mostly, I heard "Jakotsu, I feel like something's missing in my life."

Then one year ago, He happens to find a women. A women he was sent to kill..well, 'subdue' because some onigumo character told Ryosuke the demon was stronger than most. Ryosuke sent Bankotsu to kill it because sano is too damn weak to kill anything and Ryosuke is too damn lazy. The only reason Bankotsu went was to test his strength.

I remember when Ban-san came looking for me weeks after he killed Ryosuke. I still remember my Reaction when I first met Kimiko.(sigh) Now she's like my best friend. Weird, huh?

As for the other Shichinintai memebers, I sometimes feel we're growing apart. Suikotsu walks around in a daze all the time. Ginkotsu doesn't really aknowledge Bankotsu as leader. He's loyal to Renkotsu. Mukotsu is soo self-conscious and Kyokotsu has the biggest ego this side of fuedal Japan. as for Kimi...I feel like she is keeping something from us, ya know? Like she refuses to just...let herself enjoy life. She won't confess her love to Bankotsu. Bankotsu thinks she resents him and Rankotsu acts like he resents us all.

Renkotsu worries me. I know he douts Bankotsu alot. I know he disaproves of his Relationship with kimi(for various reasons) and I don't want to seem like I don't trust him but we can never tell what he's thinking. He never talks to us anymore or give us his opinions about anything. I don't want to think Renkotsu will stab us in the back but this small voice in the back of my mind is...telling me to watch out.

I hope I'm wrong about this.

but I'm usually not.