Title: Because you were safe.
Author: HazelxEyes
Disclaimer: I do not own the newsies, but I do own Flicker, Crystal, and whatever else I make up. This is Rated M for a reason. Explicit sexual content.
Summery: "Why do you do this stuff with me Spot?" She said tears running down her cheeks. "Because you are safe."
Chapter 2
Wait what the fuck am I doing? This shouldn't be happening he has crystal, as annoying as she is, she is still is girlfriend. With one soundless whimper I chose to push him off me. "What's wrong flicker?" Spot said as he smoothed his hair back. "Are you and Crystal in an open relationship?" I looked at him accusingly. "What? No of course we aren't, but are you going to tell her?" I started to play with a button on my shirt as I mumbled "no…" "Well then we don't have a problem." He started to crawl back towards me with a look of pure lust. The only thing that would save me from my raging hormones would be the boys coming back from Medda's or he suddenly gets a conscience…neither seemed to want to occur.
"And the talking
leads to touching,
and the touching leads to sex"
I let him push me back into the bed my head was cushioned by pillows as spot gripped my hips thrusting and grinding our clothing covered crotches together. Creating a feeling of euphoric pleasure. I felt his left hand snake down to my crotch, Due to reflexes I grabbed his hand with my own and just let out a hoarse "no" placing his hands back on my hips, I did get a weird stare, but for some reason I didn't feel like such a whore because I wouldn't give him the pleasure of being able to grope below the belt. He started to un-tuck my shirt, I helped him along the way by unbuttoning my shirt our hands met in the center he grabbed my wrists pinning me to the bed. Our eyes met for the moment, in his you saw lust; in mine you saw need, want, love, lust, and most of all guilt. He leaned in for a kiss my first thought was 'turn your head to the side Madison for the love of god turn your head to the side.' I did just that so instead of receiving a kiss I felt his teeth gently sink into my flesh not enough to break the skin, but just enough to leave my skin red. I felt like a sitting duck, I wasn't really doing anything to pleasure him everything he was doing was for my benefit. Was this how things were for Crystal? Or did he just use her for a lap trophy? And he will use me for a bed decoration…fuck I can't do this…with that final though I shoved spot off of me and re-buttoned my shirt and ran out of the lodge house looking for any of the Manhattan Newsies that would know where Jack was.
All I could think about was why is he doing this with me? I mean he could get any girl he wants and yet he chooses me? God damn this is so confusing. I am such a god damn whore with no self control, I shouldn't stopped this before it started…I was broken from my thoughts when I saw Snoddy. "Snoddy I have a favor to ask of you." He looked at me skeptically. "What is it?" "Well I can't really explain everything just spots at yawls lodging house and well it is probably best it I stay away. So I wanted to know if you could come find me in the all around the back of the lodging house when spot heads back to Brooklyn?" He looked at me unsure of how to respond. "Please? I want to tell you more details but I can't." I gave him the best pout I could muster up. "Fine, fine…" If I get in trouble with spot your ass is mine." I was so relieved we said our good byes and I walked back to the alley to wait for Snoddy. I found a crate to sit on and just watched the sun set.
I saw a couple walk down the street hand in had while what seemed to be the father figure was holding a kid that was fast asleep head resting on his shoulder. Sometimes I feel like I am missing out in life with two things. I didn't know my parents, but Medda is like everyone's mother. And I just wish I would know what it feels like to be loved in return. I hugged my knees to my chest and let a single tear slide down my cheek.
"God this hurts."
The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
But I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find, you and I collide
I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
You somehow find, you and I collide
Don't stop here
I've lost my place
I'm close behind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find, you and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide
A/N: lyrics are from "Portions for Foxes" Rilo Kiley and "Collide" Howie Day