Title: Because you were safe.
Author: HazelxEyes
Disclaimer: I do not own the newsies, but I do own Flicker, Crystal, and whatever else I make up. This is Rated M for a reason. Explicit sexual content.
Summery: "Why do you do this stuff with me Spot?" She said tears running down her cheeks. "Because you're safe."

"Well you know that dance that we have once a month at Medda's, well I wanted to know if you would uh be my date?" I looked at him, he seemed sincere, and it wasn't like I already had a date. "Sure." He smiled.

Chapter 5

We sat there in an awkward silence. "So uhm I am staying the night here so tomorrow night I will be able to escort you to Medda's" He said with a grin, I was still replaying the scene over in my head when he turned to walk back in to the Brooklyn lodging house. "Uh Jack!" He turned around to look at me and I stood on my tip toes and gave him a peck on the lips before walking past him into the lodging house I was the one now wearing the grin. The grin vanished when I saw Crystal sitting on Spots lap while they kept kissing and cuddling. I turned away and walked up the steps to the girl's room when it hit me…I have no dress. Fuck! Soon I saw Footsies walk in her and I had about the same stats and she was the only one that didn't hate me for the whole Spot incident. "Hey Footsies." She turned, "I was uh wondering if you might have a dress that I could maybe borrow for the dance tomorrow?" I looked pleadingly. "Yeah, whose your date!" I blushed. "Uh well its jack…" She looked surprised. "Wow, well that is quite a pairing you are going to need heals if you want to dance with him." She laughed. I knew a short joke would eventually happen. "Yeah, yeah, so how about that dress." I watched as she dug through her trunk and finally she made a squeal of happiness and pulled out a dress, a pair of stockings, shoes and another item I did not recognize.

I guess before we get further into this Footsies is not really an orphan her parents left her a large amount of money and she still has it but she could not stand to live with her grandparents so she ran away and stays with us instead always willing to lend us money if needed she just likes the freedom of being a newsie.

"What's that?" I asked poking the unnamed clothing item. "It is a corset it holds all the extra chub in." I was slightly afraid of that corset at the moment. Footsies handed me the dress, it was heavier than it looked, along with all the other items to stow away in my trunk I thanked her as she left the room. Not five seconds later did I hear the usual argument between Spot and Crystal.

The usual argument is that though spot fools around with girls he has never actually…had…well he hasn't had sex with any of them I don't know why, never bothered to ask. He is actually quite innocent when you think about it I mean I guess I gave him his first blowjob today. That thought made me shiver. Spot is a weird one. Suddenly I heard a crash from spots room this was my cue to leave the room before Crystal stormed in. I darted out to the main room where the boys including jack were all sitting around the table talking. "Yo Flicker come on over." Jack yelled when he noticed that I had come out of the room I saw footsies on the couch grinning at that. "There are no chairs over there." I yelled playfully flirting especially when I saw spot coming down the stairs with Crystal in tow both of them apologizing and acting perfect again. That was my deciding point so I walked over and sat down in jacks lap, he wrapped his arms around my waist in response. I saw spot look over slightly confused and responded by pulling Crystal into his lap. He was jealous. "Jack, may I talk to you outside?" I asked politely standing up, jacks response was to stand up too. I took jacks hand and led him outside whistling and clapping ensued while spot just watched us walk out the door.

The minute we were out there I leaned back against the wall and pulled him up close to me. Our lips met in a rough fast kiss. I shivered at the feeling of his hands roaming my sides. We pulled apart seconds later our foreheads resting against each other. We both had matching grins. "You better get to sleep you have a big day tomorrow." Jack said kissing me on the lips again. "Actually I am going to have a quick smoke before I head in." I moved past him to walk out the docks but jack reached out and grabbed my wrist pulling me back for one more kiss, as soon as it started it was over and he pulled back and headed into the house. I grinned smugly as I walked out pulling a smoke out from my shirt pocket and placing it between my lips pulling out a match to light it with then I heard the infamous. "You know smoking kills you." I just grinned and responded, "Good to know." Then took a long drag from the cigarette. "So you and Jacky boy are dates?" "Yeah and hopefully more that boy seems like he would be good in bed." My last comment made spot inhale sharply. "I am not sure I like you dating him." "Good thing I don't listen to you then." Another puff of smoke filled my lungs. "I am still your boss and I know what is best for you and what's best for you is to stay away from jack." Okay I don't have a problem with authority but I really hate being told who I am allowed to be around. I threw my cigarette in the water and stood up. "Why spot? Jealous? Do you not like the thought of him and I fucking so hard I am screaming Oh god harder. Or do you not like the fact that you lost your little fuck buddy?" I might have said that a bit harshly. "Well I don't like you dating someone." "All your arguments are the same give me a reason a good reason." He was silent for a moment.

"I like you." I just spit on the ground by his feet. "Only in bed"

With that I walked into the lodging house past everyone and into the girl's room. I didn't even change out of my clothes I just slipped into bed and slept. It wasn't fair of him to toy with my emotions. I know deep down that he is only doing this because I let him. I hated him yet I craved, his touch, his voice, his look, everything but as long as he acted like this I couldn't do it I can't do it, no, no I won't do it.

The next morning I was woken up the noise of all the guys and girls getting ready to go selling not bothering to switch outfits I climbed out of bed stretching soundlessly, before sitting back down on the edge of my bed to put my shoes on. The room was loud with girls talking about the dance tonight while the guys I am sure were making some kinky perverted sex joke. I stood up and walked out of the room checking to make sure I had my money to buy papes for the day. Normally spot was my selling partner but after last night the last thing I wanted to do was be around him. The day went by slowly it seemed as if Spot was trying just as hard to avoid me as I was to avoid him. Around 6 I ran back to the lodging house at the top of the stairs there footsies was glaring daggers into me. "Where the hell have you been…never mind get your ass up here and take a shower then come back into the girls room and I am going to help you get dressed!" I didn't give her a chance to say anything else and ran my ass up the stairs and washed everywhere it was possible to clean. As soon as I had finished I moved my way through the crowd of girls to my bed where Footsies was waiting with all my items laid out including the corset thing. She through a pair of underwear and a t-shirt of sorts at me which I quickly put on next was the item of clothing I would soon come to hate, position so I was gripping the bed post she quickly tightened this form of torture gasping and praying to god that I would just pass out already she continued. When she finally finished she helped me put on my dress I thought I was going to collapse under all the weight. Last but not least she got me to wear a bit of make up I wasn't going to lie I looked good. Slipping on the shoes I headed down the stairs almost tripping on one on my way down, jack was immediately at my side. Our arms linked we made our way to Medda's. Spot was a little bit ahead with Crystal joined at the hip and Footsies looked gorgeous as usual linking arms with Snoddy.

When we reached Medda's it was already loud as possible. Jack mentioned something about getting drinks and left my side so I looked around smiled at the newsies. It had been about 30 minutes when I finally started to wonder where the hell Jack was, they always said curiosity killed the cat, they were right. I checked the bar, no sign, I headed around to the entrance, once again no sign, I finally decided to check the back exit when I got there I just saw a tangled mess of Jack and his ex Sarah engaged in what could be mistaken for a soft core porn. I just shut the door and walked out. I knew things were too good to be true. To fucking good. In some ways I probably deserved to be ditched because deep down I was just using jack to make spot jealous, but it still hurts you know? I left Medda's and decided to make the long walk home half way across the bridge I took off my shoes and walked barefoot, the lodge house was oddly quiet, as I made my way into the girls room removing my dress, which was damn hard! The corset was easy I needed to remind myself to thank Footsies for making the knot easy to untie, I quickly put on an old button up shirt that went down to my knee's, and then I reached under my bed to remove a 5th of whiskey, I was going to make good use of this one.

I stumbled my way to the docks; I had already taken a few swigs of the whiskey on my way out of the lodging house, when I sat down against a dock on the post I just dazed off drunkenly singing, I didn't care how people saw me at this moment. I really didn't.

"I'm a long way from home
And so all alone
Homesick, like I never thought I'd be
I'm a long way from home
And everything is wrong
Someone please watch over me

I'm not accustomed to these feelings
The loneliness is burning in my soul
Sometimes the mind is so misleading
I wish I'd stayed at home like I was told"

My head fell to one side it was to much energy to hold it up; I could faintly see the outlining of something coming towards me. Not that it mattered because all that whiskey was starting to no longer like my stomach before I knew it I was on all fours my head hanging off the docks while I the sounded of my retching filled the air. Someone held my hair back to keep it from getting coated with my puke. "Christ Madison." I just closed my eyes I didn't have to much time to lament over the fact that it was Spot that was witnessing my drunken escapades, when the vile taste arose again and I started to retch some more.

I am not sure when I stopped puking I think I passed out just after, I woke up in a room that I recognized incredibly well, Spot's. I wasn't awake for 2 seconds when I saw Spot hunched over at the foot of the bed. Right about now would be when I think of something good to say to him…nope not for me of course not.

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Lyrics were "long way from home" by Shooter Jennings