This is a Pyro/Jean fic
SO FAR AWAY by Rod Stewart
John Allerdyce lay on the bed of his room at the Brotherhood lair thinking about Jean, beautiful Jean Grey with her hair that looked like fire and her eyes like emeralds. Jean who had helped him control is powers. Jean the older, unattainable woman, Jean who he had always loved. Jean whose very ideals he had betrayed and why? …Because she would never love him? No but it was too late, now she was dead and John was alone.
So far away
Doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore
It will be so fine to see your face at my door
And it doesn't help to know that your just time away
Long ago I reached for you and there you stood
Holding you again could only do me good
Oh how I wish I could
but you're so far away
-Flashback-
13 year old John standing in front of the Institute, Jean leading him through the school smiling as she told him of her life and then slowing as she talked about the arrival of her powers, John had been in love with her even then and he had wanted so much to comfort her. Bobby telling him later that day that Jean was dating Scott Summers, John had torched almost all the paper in the room in anger.
–End Flashback-
One more song about moving along the highway
I can't say much of anything that's new
But if I could only work this life out my way
I'd rather spend it being close to you
but you're so far away
Doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore
It will be so fine to see your face at my door
And it doesn't help to know you're so far away
So far away, yeah you're so far away
All he wanted was one last song, a chance to confess how much she had meant to him. But nobody was there to listen, Bobby knew and Rogue wasn't stupid, she'd probably have figured it out by now. The teachers didn't know, maybe Xavier did but no one else. He remembered walking through the night and "accidentally" seeing her changing, that memory had kept him sleepless for weeks. He always showed off for her but all that he was just egotistical.
Traveling around sure get's me down and lonely
Nothing else to do but close my mind
And I sure hope the road don't get to own me
There's so many dreams that I've yet to find
But you're so far away
Doesn't anybody stay in one place anymore
It will be so fine to see your face at my door
And it doesn't help to know
He had been dreaming of her every night, Bobby said sometimes he would call out for her in his dreams. He had some much he wanted to tell her but he would never be able to. So many secrets he'd hidden in hope of more time at sessions with her. It was his dream to see her at the door of Magneto's. He'd gladly leave if she cared enough to come get him. If only he could see her one last time
you're so far away, you're so far away
You're so far away, you're so far away
Oh I need to get in touch with ya baby
You're so very, very, very far away
You're so, so far away
He wanted to talk to her one last time, tell her everything. He had always had secret fantasies of stealing her away from Scott and showing her how much he cared. He wanted, no he NEEDED to talk to her again. He needed a way to banish the fires of Lust from his mind. He sighed. Fire like Jean's hair, that beautiful red color that he had always loved, God she had been beautiful, it wasn't sluttish beauty, no, it was a mature and sophisticated beauty. John closed his eyes open his lighter causing the small flame to take the shape of Jean.