Title: Because you were safe.
Author: HazelxEyes
Disclaimer: I do not own the newsies, but I do own Flicker, Crystal, and whatever else I make up. This is Rated M for a reason. Explicit sexual content.
Summery: "Why do you do this stuff with me Spot?" She said tears running down her cheeks. "Because you're safe."

Fuck I twisted my hair up and hid it under my hat as I walked briskly past them. I knew I would eventually come back when I wasn't quite sure.

Chapter 7

-Third Person-

The first year after Madison's disappearance Spot spent his time sending newsies to the different territories in search of her. There was never any sign of her. He started to keep to himself, there were times when he thought he saw her walking across the street, but he knew it wasn't. He started relationships 2 or 3 at a time, but it seemed he couldn't get his mind off her. Eventually he would have to move on, but inside he really wished he could just see her one more time.

Slowly his heartbreak turned to anger, anger at her for leaving him like this, anger for her inability to commit. "FUCK!" Spot screamed throwing a punch at the wall, he didn't even stop to examine the damage on his hand, instead he continued on with his rampage, throwing a chair across the room, and tearing apart the newspaper he had kept for himself. All of his newsies were use to these outbreaks and knew it was best to just stay away. He leaned back against a wall and slowly slid down onto the floor so he was in a sitting position. "Fuck you Madison." He closed his eyes and just sat there.

The Bronx

Madison had been staying in the Bronx for about a year or two. She still didn't know why she left, and she knew she had to go back but she wasn't ready not yet. Leopard the Bronx leader allowed her stay there not really knowing the Madison was really a girl. When she left she knew spot was going to send people to look for her so she cut her burgundy locks off and hid her chest, she was no longer Madison/Flicker, and she became a he on the outside now known as Matt/Moody. She just kept to herself to avoid being hit on by women, just made her money and did was she had to, to keep Leopard happy. Sometimes she would toy with the idea of sneaking over to Brooklyn just to see the newsies because even if they had loyalty to her they had more to Spot and would inform him of her being back and like it was stated before she just wasn't ready.

-3 Years later-

-First Person-

I hiked my bag onto my shoulder as I left the Bronx lodging house for good, I had already said my goodbyes and now I was ready to go home. My hair had grown back and man have I missed it, I took off my hat letting my hair be shown, I was finally able to dispose of my alias and go back to being Madison. I knew where I was going I heard plenty of what has been going on with Spot in the past years; he now held an actual job at a local dinner place, from what I heard he is still single 4 years later. Fixing my clothing a bit I walked into The Nutshell, the place Spot worked. I found myself a booth and slid in waiting for a waiter to come up.

When they waiter finally did I just ordered a coffee, I was way to nervous to be hungry more than anything I just wanted to see spot. I didn't expect a warm welcome, hell if he was happy to see me I would think he was smoking more than just cigarettes. I jerked to attention when I heard the sound of a coffee mug breaking followed by a "holy shit." Now if only knew what to say back, but before I even had a chance to say anything I saw him turn his heels and walk back towards the kitchen untying his apron and leaving it on the floor, I immediately got up and followed. I needed to talk to him running through the kitchen and out the back exit I saw his figure pacing back and forth attempting to light a cigarette.

"Those things can kill you." He stopped and looked at me, I wanted to kill myself right there. Looking into his eyes all I saw was hurt and hatred. When the silence became too painful I spoke up stepping closer to him. "Listen I don't expect you to forgive me I don't expect you to love me I don't expect anything I just needed to see you." He stared at the gravel on the ground, "four years." He looked up and stepped closer to me. "Four goddamned years." I flinched with each word that was spoken. This was harder than I thought, "I am sorry." He laughed at that but not in a good way. "Oh the irony I remember so long ago when it was I always apologizing now the roles have switched. I spent a year looking for you, but I guess you can't find a person who doesn't want to be found." I squirmed under his gaze.

"Well what do you want me to say, do you want me to say I am sorry again? Or that I should have told you? I didn't plan on sleeping with you that night. I didn't plan any of this. I was scared I didn't want to go through all the shit I saw you put other girls through. I sat and watched on the sidelines while you would tell those girls you loved them and then turn around and make out with me on your bed. I have liked you since the day I saw you, I loved you since the first time you said hello. I just can't take being hurt." I was sure I was crying right now I was so sure of that. "Go just fucking go." I didn't wait for another word I turned and left I just walked away. I let the tears flow freely I didn't care who saw. I fucked up. I know that. Before I knew it I found myself at the very docks where spot had found me drunk off my ass. Lighting up a smoke I sat down and just stared into the water one cigarette turned into two then three. Night was coming and I had no place to stay, it didn't matter though I didn't even think I had the strength to stand up. I sat staring off into space holding a smoke in my left hand.

"You know smoking kills you." I fell out of my daze smack dab back into reality, and grinned to myself. "It is a good thing I don't listen to you then." Spot came down to sit beside me. I turned to look at him, before I could say a word he did, "Listen don't talk listen. You hurt me too Madison, I spent the first year after you left looking for you I didn't sleep and destroyed my room praying that I would eventually get an answer as to where you have been. I never got into another serious relationship in fear that you would come back and also because I only wanted you. I loved you from the day you helped me hide from the cops, when you forgot to let go of my hand after pulling me into an alley to hide. I know I have hurt you so many times but you hurt me too, and we are even. After you left I told myself that no matter how mad I was at you I knew I still love you so I swore that I wouldn't let you leave again." I looked at him not sure what to think. "And that's why I am here now." He leaned in and kissed me. No more words were spoken that night, there was no need. He wrapped his arms around me as we watched the nights sky his warm breath tickled my neck. Inside I was scared, I didn't want to get hurt, but I knew he was just as scared as me. I knew this wasn't a smooth road but neither of our lives have ever been smooth to begin with, besides no matter what excuses I had produced one feeling countered them all. I loved him.

At the mirror you fix your hair and put your makeup on
You're insecure about what clothes to wear
I can't see nothing wrong

To me you look so beautiful when you can't make up your mind
It's half past eight, it's getting late
It's OK, take your time

Standing here my hands in my pockets
Like I have a thousand times
Thinking back it took one breath
One word to change my life

The first time I saw you it felt like coming home
If I never told you I just want you to know
You had me from hello

When we walk into a crowded room it's like we're all alone
Everybody tries to kidnap your attention
You just smile and steal the show

You come to me and take my hand
We start dancin' slow
You put your lips up to my ear and whisper way down low

From the first time I saw you it felt like coming home
If I never told you I just want you to know
You had me from hello

And when you're laying down beside me
I feel your heartbeat to remind me...

The first time I saw you it felt like coming home
If I never told you I just want you to know
You had me from hello

From hello
From hello

The End!

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Lyrics are "You had me from hello" by Bon Jovi