A/N: Here's a longer chap. I had this proofread before I posted it but if
there are still mistakes that you feel should be corrected, tell me. BTW,
those who wanted me to e-mail the Tagalog version of chapter 1... I promise
I'll do it as soon as I can. Enjoy.
Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto, okay?
If you were mine
Chapter 2
Does he really notice me? Does his eyes really travel from the tip of my head down to my toes? Does his eyes wander through the crowd, searching for my face?
If so, I am flattered.
I don't really want his attention. I don't really wish for him to notice that I'm here. I just want to watch him. I'm contented with that. I admire him for his every move, his actions, the way he smiles... almost everything actually.
Everything about him is the total opposite of me. He is confident—arrogant and stubborn as the others prefer to call him, persevering and hard working while I am shy and uncertain and as my Brother Neji pointed out, I can never be brave. I believe that I am all that I mentioned. I believed that I couldn't really change what I am.
But he taught me something else.
As I watch him, I understand him. I understand why he acts that way around people. I understand what he goes through, I understand what he feels. I understand him. He had taught me a lot while I was watching him and I have realized that it seems Brother Neji was wrong. I can change. He made me realize that.
He taught me the value of never giving up. He taught me the bitterness of defeat. He taught me the joys of success. He taught me to change—and I admire and gratify him for that.
All the while I was watching him, a part of me wanted to hold him tight all the times he had been down. Cheer him when he achieves something new. He never fails to impress me with his effort and I can proudly say that he isn't to be pushed around.
Yes, I have noticed that my feelings reached a different level. From the budding admiration that I had felt for him during the times I was watching... had evolved into the indescribable feeling I have now.
I don't really know how to deal with it. Every time he's near, I usually get nervous. If he throws a glance at me, my face immediately heats up. It sometimes scares me about how I react by his mere presence. It's as if it were my instinct. I haven't felt anything like that before and everything is new as well.
Maybe that's why I stay away. Because I'm afraid. I don't know the extent of my feelings for him yet so I don't know what I else I might do in front of him. That's why I established a rule for myself... that I always have to be at least two steps away from him. I shouldn't disregard this rule since it doesn't harm neither of us since he doesn't notice me and I'm content watching him. So I have no excuse to break it.
I'm watching him again.
To nobody's surprise, he's training. Today, he is training with his team mate, Haruno Sakura.
Oh.
He tripped. I almost forgot my rule and would've recklessly ran towards him. It was a good thing something pulled me back because Sakura immediately rushed to him. She inspected him for injuries and after being convinced that he had received none, she hit him on the head.
There had been times that I wanted to do that too. Not hit his head, though.
I wanted to hold him. I wanted to touch him. I wanted to make sure that the person, who I adore the most, is really true.
But as I said, I can't.
I can't comfort him. I can't cheer him up. I can't ask him how he feels. I can't nurse him back to health. He has his friends to do that. All I can do is watch.
I'm glad that he feels happy with his condition now since he has a lot of friends to help him. Unlike in the past, where everyone wouldn't even go near him.
But...
In case he doesn't know... when all else is lost... he can go to me...
I'm just two steps behind.
Disclaimer: I don't own Naruto, okay?
If you were mine
Chapter 2
Does he really notice me? Does his eyes really travel from the tip of my head down to my toes? Does his eyes wander through the crowd, searching for my face?
If so, I am flattered.
I don't really want his attention. I don't really wish for him to notice that I'm here. I just want to watch him. I'm contented with that. I admire him for his every move, his actions, the way he smiles... almost everything actually.
Everything about him is the total opposite of me. He is confident—arrogant and stubborn as the others prefer to call him, persevering and hard working while I am shy and uncertain and as my Brother Neji pointed out, I can never be brave. I believe that I am all that I mentioned. I believed that I couldn't really change what I am.
But he taught me something else.
As I watch him, I understand him. I understand why he acts that way around people. I understand what he goes through, I understand what he feels. I understand him. He had taught me a lot while I was watching him and I have realized that it seems Brother Neji was wrong. I can change. He made me realize that.
He taught me the value of never giving up. He taught me the bitterness of defeat. He taught me the joys of success. He taught me to change—and I admire and gratify him for that.
All the while I was watching him, a part of me wanted to hold him tight all the times he had been down. Cheer him when he achieves something new. He never fails to impress me with his effort and I can proudly say that he isn't to be pushed around.
Yes, I have noticed that my feelings reached a different level. From the budding admiration that I had felt for him during the times I was watching... had evolved into the indescribable feeling I have now.
I don't really know how to deal with it. Every time he's near, I usually get nervous. If he throws a glance at me, my face immediately heats up. It sometimes scares me about how I react by his mere presence. It's as if it were my instinct. I haven't felt anything like that before and everything is new as well.
Maybe that's why I stay away. Because I'm afraid. I don't know the extent of my feelings for him yet so I don't know what I else I might do in front of him. That's why I established a rule for myself... that I always have to be at least two steps away from him. I shouldn't disregard this rule since it doesn't harm neither of us since he doesn't notice me and I'm content watching him. So I have no excuse to break it.
I'm watching him again.
To nobody's surprise, he's training. Today, he is training with his team mate, Haruno Sakura.
Oh.
He tripped. I almost forgot my rule and would've recklessly ran towards him. It was a good thing something pulled me back because Sakura immediately rushed to him. She inspected him for injuries and after being convinced that he had received none, she hit him on the head.
There had been times that I wanted to do that too. Not hit his head, though.
I wanted to hold him. I wanted to touch him. I wanted to make sure that the person, who I adore the most, is really true.
But as I said, I can't.
I can't comfort him. I can't cheer him up. I can't ask him how he feels. I can't nurse him back to health. He has his friends to do that. All I can do is watch.
I'm glad that he feels happy with his condition now since he has a lot of friends to help him. Unlike in the past, where everyone wouldn't even go near him.
But...
In case he doesn't know... when all else is lost... he can go to me...
I'm just two steps behind.