The Dirty Little Secrets We all Hide

Author's Note- I am very sorry for not updating, I totally forgot about this story. I will try to update more often. Please forgive me.

Life if strange, very strange. I just cannot comprehend all the feelings I have from the other week. I cannot, just cannot let them go. I try yoga, counseling, everything. Nothing, not one thing works. I tried and tired, I am sick and tired of everyone trying to tell me it is not my fault. Kevin, he is such a great person, he helped me, helped me through this time. Still, that does not change the past, change the past I cannot change. We can't go back in time and reverse time, but can we? Why did god have this happen to me? Right now in my gut I am scared, scared I might be pregnant. I never got my period this month, I need to take to someone, I cannot talk to my mom, dad, Lucy, Simon, or Mary. Not even the twins. The only two people I can take to are Kevin and Martin, but will Kevin tell Lucy? Later I will talk to Kevin; he is more likely to understand, since he almost got a girl pregnant in high school.

Later that day I walked into the garage apartment where I see Kevin and Lucy sitting at the table, talking. "Hi, Lucy, Kevin. Um, Lucy, may I talk to Kevin, alone." I tell her glancing at her waiting for her to speak. "Sure." She said looking at Kevin and leaving the room. "What did you need to talk about?" Kevin asked while he cuffed his hands. "You know about the Mac thing right, about a month ago about-" Ruthie stopped and paused for a second. "About the rape issue." I told him in a low voice. "Yeah, is there something wrong?" Kevin said unsure and putting up an eyebrow. "I-I-I-, think I-I-I mi-might be pre-pregnant." I told him scrambling my words. "Are you sure, did you take a test to find out?" he asked. "N-no." I look around the room. "If you want I can get you one." "Really?" "Yeah." "Thanks, I'm scared, what if-." Kevin took over. "If you are, you can tell your parents or something. It isn't your fault."

I walked into Martins room, I have done that a lot lately, and I think I may like him. "Martin!" I scream. "Yeah." "I think I may be pregnant BY MAC!" Then I run out of the room. I meet Kevin at the end of the hall and he hands me a bag it was white, with two boxes in it.

My mom comes in the room. I shove it into my draw so she does not know. "Hi Ruthie, how are you doing?" She asked taking a seat, then she looks at me, I do not speak, she goes and leaves.

Back down stairs, everyone is down there, including Kevin. "I feel so bad for Ruthie." Lucy says putting her hand on her head. "I know, I do too." Kevin said. Everyone sighs and puts their heads down on the table.

I am in my room, in the bathroom, opening the box about to take it. I read the directions to know what I should do. Then I take a deep sigh and do what it says. The time is up, I look at it, it says-.

Authors Note- Cliffhanger, sorry, you would just have to wait to find out. Read and review.