Dirty Little Secret's we All Hide
I am in my room, in the bathroom, opening the box about to take it. I read the directions to know what I should do. Then I take a deep sigh and do what it says. The time is up, I look at it, it says-. "Oh my god." I looked at it, out of breath. I inhale breath before opening my eyes, I wanted to cry and scream. All I really wanted was my mom right now. When I looked at it, the word or sign I did not want to see is on it. I started crying, I really wanted Martin to be here next to be right now. I do not know what to do. I am very, very depressed. If I saw it coming, I would not be here today, looking at the test that lies in my hand. I put it in the drawer and then apply it within tissue incase someone comes in. I go down stairs and eat dinner with the rest of our family.
I walk down and see Martin, Kevin, Lucy and the whole family. I take a seat next to Kevin. I nudge him, he turns his head. "Kevin, can I talk to you later?" I whisper. "Sure." I than went and started to eat my food that lied on the plate in front of me. I sighed; he knew what Ruthie was going to say. He knew in his gut that she was pregnant, she had to be. She knows it. God, what was Mac thinking. Now, Ruthie and Mac are going to have a child together and they will be connected with one another as long as the child is in the picture. Kevin, he never wanted this for her. He saw a bright future for her. Going to college, then getting married and having a family.
After dinner, Kevin and I go outside and sit at the table in the yard. It is very peaceful at night I thought to myself. "Kevin." Now, the time has risen to its prophet, the run rose and the sun is now going to set. I am just hoping she is not pregnant. "Kevin, I don't know how to do this, but I-I'm well, pre-preg-pregnant. Why me, why me? Tell me; tell me why this had to happen to me. I hate god, I hate him. I just-." Kevin stopped her before she could finish her sentence. "Ruthie, Ruthie, Ruthie, calm down. First, it is not your fault, not yours at all. Secondly, if you do not want this child than you do not have to keep it. However, I do suggest that you deliver it. I have heard that woman or teenagers who get abortions get things damaged to their reproductive system. They cannot have any children unless they would consider adopting. I would highly recommend that you have the baby. However, I think we should get you tested from the doctor to find out if it is positive. Not all home pregnancy tests are accretive. I will bring you tomorrow, is that okay with you?" Ruthie was now sobbing in Kevin's arms. "Sure, it's fine."
Each time I look at Ruthie, I picture how it feels being Ruthie. I almost had a child also, well I cannot have babies, but I did almost make one. I am sad, very sad for her. She is so young, and regretless. How can this happen to her. She is a great person, a great human, a wonderful sister in law and very intelligent. What was Mac thinking that night? Was he drunk or high on dope or what? What has gotten into these young teenagers these days? He ruined his life long goal. He can no longer vote because once you are in jail, you have no privilege to vote anymore. That is the problem; too many people break the laws. Why can't people just do the right thing instead of the wrong?
I lie in the bed next to Lucy, I sigh. She keeps looking at me. "Kevin, what's wrong?" I look at her. "Crap, nothing gets pass her, nothing. How am I going to be able to pull this one off?" I asked myself. "What do you mean if anything is wrong? What would give you the idea that anything is wrong? Nothing is wrong." Lucy rolled her eyes. "Yeah, sure Kevin. Come on, please Kevin tell me?" I sighed. "I don't know, I promised though. I will tell you that it is about your sister. For now, my secrete is safe with her, sorry honey." I said smiling and giving her a kiss on her head and then rolling over on my side. Each time I think about, I think that Lucy and I are ready to have a family. I want to move out of here anyway.
What if I am pregnant, how could or would I tell mom, dad and the rest of the family? Why does it have to be Mac is? I always wanted children and a family. However, I did not want to have one now. I wanted to be married, out of high school. Could life get any worse? Yes, it can, now telling the parents. I sighed and groaned.
The next day after school Kevin picked me up from school. We are now in the waiting room on the hospital. I do not know, but it is hard. Even a very scary thought to think about it. I am different from most people; I though I would never be this scared about anything. Then again, now I am. Now, I am in this room going in to find out my worst nightmare of my life. I took a deep breath in. Them, seeing a nurse heading towards the door, I jumped. Hearing the nurse call, "Ruthie Camden, Ruthie?" Kevin looked at me. "Ruthie do you want me to stay here or come with you?" I thought quickly. "Please come, I'm scared." We walked into the room and did what the nurse said. After taking urine samples and waiting for the doctor, it was scary. Then, the doctor came in, to our luck, Uncle Hank, just the brightness to our day. "Ruthie, Kevin. Hi. How are you?" He asked us in a nice voice. "Fine, we're fine. Everyone is fine." "Okay, then lets get the show on the road." He goes over to the draw and grabs two tubs and a needle. "Kevin, please hold my hand." "Ouch, that hurt." Ruthie yelled when he out the needle in.
After 30 minutes went by, Hank called us in his room. "Ruthie, I am sorry, but you are pregnant."
Now, the time has come, to tell the family. To tell everyone. I do not know how mom did it, having seven children, wow. I am glad Kevin is helping me throughout this. "Mom, dad everyone, I have to tell you something." Everyone nodded and sat down. "Everyone, I am having a baby. The father is Mac." Martin looked furious. "That damn son of a bitch. I am going to kill him. He raped Ruthie and now got her pregnant. God, damn it. That baby should have been mine, but no Mac went and knocked her up. That bitch. Yes, I'll admit it I do like Ruthie, happy?"
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