Chapter Three: Friends

"Today I would like to talk about the friends in your life. You've mentioned Lucky before. Let's talk about him."

"Okay. What can I say about Lucky…he's my best friend. He's been there for me through the good times, and the bad times. He was the first person I met when moving to Port Charles."

"Do you think Lucky understands you?"

Emily was silent for a long time. "I think so. When we were younger he took me back to Arizona. I didn't tell anyone that that was where I wanted to go, but he knew I needed to close up my past there. But lately he's been to busy."

"Why?"

"Because he broke up with Liz. I listened to all his rants about loving her, and why they broke up."

"Who is Liz? Is she another friend?"

"Yes. Liz is my first girl friend. We have had movie nights, chili with Lucky at Ruby's. We even went through Lucky's so-called-death together."

"What do you mean? Lucky almost died?"

"No. But we thought he had. Nikolas and Lucky are brothers, half brothers by their mother. Nikolas' grandmother is kind of a witch, she hates everything Spencer, and so she and one of her people made it seem like Lucky was dead so they could brainwash him."

"Oh, I see. What do you think about Nikolas and Lucky being brothers?"

"I couldn't really understand it at first, why they were so angry with each other. But then me and Liz pushed them to be friends. We started hanging out more, and we became the four musketeers."

"The four musketeers?"

"Yep – all for one, and one for all was our pact. We'd stick together through thick and thin, no matter what happened. But Liz and Lucky broke up, and Nikolas found Gia. I guess our friendships that used to be intertwined were broken."

"Do you feel like it was your fault, like you were apart of it?"

"No. Not really."

"It seems to me you do."

"Well, a little I guess. I know that everyone has to grow up, move on, find different people to…"

"To care about? Do you feel that they left you behind?"

"Yes. I kept on falling, falling. All I ever seemed to do was run to Jason when I was little, and I couldn't do that anymore. Every time I went over there, someone was always there to find me crying – but him. I didn't want to mess with all the other people in his life. I couldn't run to Lucky."

"Why not?"

"He'd either see right through me, or do his normal thing of joking everything off, trying to make me laugh."

"You wrote that you came here after a fight, which we already said was with Nikolas. Were you scared of 'ruining' Nikolas' relationship and his life like Lucky's?"

"Yes. He was so happy with Gia, even though she had hurt me in the past, he didn't seem to mind…I suppose he just forgot."

"How had Gia hurt you?"

"By blackmailing me. I was a model then. I don't want to talk about that, could we please pass by it?"

"Of course….were you hurt by Nikolas being happy with a person who used to be an enemy?"

"Kind of. It's like it always has been…everyone just leaves me."

"Before you came here, did Nikolas tell you that night that he wouldn't leave - is that why you got scared?"

"Yes. I suppose that was what I needed, though…"

"You were just scared to admit it to yourself."

"Yes."

"And its good that you have finally admitted to yourself that something is wrong with you. That makes it easier to go through this process."

"How long do you think I will be here?"

"However long you want to be, Emily. However long you want."