All Harry could feel was a throbbing pain in his head as he sat up.Without warning the events of the day came rushing back to him.The Dursley's are dead!Harry wasn't sure if he should feel sad or relieved.
"are you ok" a voice asked him. He turned to find the Weasley's along with Hermione and the order against the far wall.
Hermione had been the one that had spoken as she rushed forward to embrace Harry.
"What happened" He muttered rubbing his eyes. "you fainted when you heard us talking"Remus said
"they're dead" Harry asked "because of me"he whispered
"Harry it isn't because of you" Mr.Weasley said as he stepped forward, Ron following him
"Yes it is"He snapped "they wanted me" Remus shook his head "It's not your fault"Remus said trying to comfort Harry
"I shouldn't have left" He said shaking his head as he stared at his hands "If you stayed you would of died" Ron whispered, his face as red as his hair
"Then I should have died" Harry said "you don't mean that" Ginny said, her eyes glistening with tears.Harry found it amazing how she could be so beautiful on any occasion.
"you don't get it" Harry mumbled "this was my fault" He said "I wanted it" He quickly jumped up from the couch
"where are you going" Remus asked alarmed
"I can't be here"Harry said as he headed for the guest room."I'm a danger to everyone" Ron shook his head as he and Hermione walked towards Harry
"No"Harry snapped "stay away! I'll just get you killed"and with that he turned on his heal and ran to the guest room slamming the door and locking it.
Remus made to follow him but Mad-Eye grabbed his arm "He needs some time alone" Mad-Eye said.Remus nodded
"Well lets start the meeting then"Tonks said as she led them to the kitchen, tripping over a chair on the way there.
Harry sat alone in his room, tears streaming down his face. He was a murderer. He had killed his parents,Cedric,Sirius, Dumbledore, and now the Dursleys.He was soposed to protect them yet he let them die.
He needed to get rid of the pain that was once again overwhelming him.He quickly crawled to his trunk and digged to the bottom until he found what he was looking for. The knife Sirius had given him.
He flicked the blade open and was marveled at how the light reflected on the shiny metal.He rolled up the sleeve of his shirt rubbing the other scabs before bringing the blade down on his arm.He hissed as the sharp edge sliced through his skin. He made another cut and another until blood was rolling down his arm.
He sat there just watching himself bleed until he finally snapped out of the mezmorized trance. He once again crawled to the trunk and took an old shirt out.He carefully ripped the shirt in half and tied it around his bleeding arm and patiently waited for the bleeding to cease.
He wondered if the others had left yet. He decided that he would do his best to keep them all away from him because he didn't want them to get hurt. He would never forgive himself if something happened to the remaining people in his life.
After sitting there for what seemed like forever the bleeding finally stopped and Harry took the knife and bloodstaind shirt and put it back into his trunk. He kissed the cuts on his arm before pulling his sleeve down to cover them.He knew he could never let anyone see the cuts because they would just take this newly found release from him and then he would truly be alone.
Harry was pulled from his thoughts by a knock on the door "Harry um we're leaving now and we wanted to say bye" Hermione whispered through the door. "ok bye" Ron said as Harry opened the door.
"I'm sorry"He whispered as Hermione and Ginny pulled him into a hug. "You have no reason to be sorry mate" Ron said stepping forward as the girls released Harry. Harry nodded "If you want mum said you could stay with us for the remainder of the summer" Ron said. "No I'm ok here besides I think it's best if I'm just alone for awhile so I can figure things out"He said as Ron nodded "Well mum's ready so come on Ginny" Ginny quickly gave Harry another hug before turning to follow her brother.Hermione smiled as she too turned to leave.
Harry stood in the hallway even after Ron and the girls had disappeared from sight. He loved his friends but he had to stop if he wanted them to stay alive.
"hey" Fred said as he made his way towards Harry with his twin George behind him "we had to get away cuz Ron and Mione are snogging again"George said
Harry's eyes widened "they're finally dating" Harry asked suprised "well took em a while"he said as Fred and George nodded
"how's the joke shop" Harry asked.The twins eyes lit up "great" the said at the same time "we've made tons of gallens"Fred said "we actually came to think our investor" George said with a grin.Harry nodded "A little humor never hurt anyone" He mumbled trying to sound happy "well tell Ron that" Fred said as George nodded "He's still mad about the sniveling snack boxes" Harry forced a laugh. "Fred, George! Arthur's ready he found the floo powder" Molly shouted "Well better be going Pleasure talking to you" Fred said "bye" the 2 said as they left.
He quickly went back to his room and closed the door, lying back on his bed. "I have to" he whispered to himself thinking of ways he could keep his friends away.
When he was sure everyone had left he got up from his bed and made his way to the kitchen. He desperatly needed to talk to Remus.
He stopped just outside the door as he heard voices.
"we have to tell him" A familar voice said
"no" another voice said "this is all for the best"
"How could this be for the best he just lost everything that was ever familar to him"Remus's voice snapped
"this will just hurt him more trust me" the tired voice whispered
"no it'll make him happy he's missed him" Remus snapped "it made me happy didn't it" he asked
"I need to see my godson"the familar voice said.Harry's eyes widened as he realized who the man speaking was.
He immediatly threw open the door to find Remus,Sirius and Dumbledore grouped around the table
"Harry" Sirius said as he jumped up from the table.He bagan to walk towards Harry.
"What no you're both dead" Harry whispered taking a step back.Sirius shook his head "Yes but we're back"
"How long have you known" Harry asked turning towards Remus "only a few weeks"Remus answered
"Did you know Dumbledore faked his death" Harry asked "You lied to me" Harry immediatly turned to run
"No" Sirius yelled as he grabbed Harry's left wrist causing him to whimper "Harry let me explain"
Harry shook his head "what's to explain you took orders from him" He said referring to Dumbledore "You hurt me more then anyone ever has"Harry screamed "You know what your death did to me"Harry asked "a part of me died when both of you died and just because you're back doesn't mean that the pieces can put themselves back together"
"Harry we're trying to help you" Dumbledore said stepping forward
"no"Harry yelled "you're trying to kill me because knowing that you lied to me puts me off guard and makes me want to die"
"Harry"Sirius whispered "you don't mean that"
"You don't know me so you can't tell me what you think i want"Harry yelled breaking free of Sirius's grip and running for the guest room again
"Harry"Remus cried running to catch up with Harry.He grabbed Harry around the middle and forced him to the floor
"Get off of me" Harry cried struggling to get away
"we just want to make it right" Remus whispered as Harry broke free
"how can you make it right" Harry yelled "you're not even right you killer"at this Remus lost his composure and raised his hand bringing it down across Harry's face.
Harry clutched his cheek as he stumbled backwards "I'm sorry" Remus said horrified at what he had just done
"You're all the same" Harry snapped "You're just like them"Harry yelled running past the 3 and flinging open the front door "You're all liars"
The 3 rushed towards Harry as the door flew off the hinges knocking them all to the floor.
Standing there was at least 20 death eaters and Voldemort himself.