No warnings really. This and the next two are kinda connected….at least in my mind they are. Just a bit of drama.
The Hardest Part
The hardest part….watching her go without being able to do anything. Letting her go without taking part.
Protected.
Again.
And when she was gone and he was left alone with the rain, he wondered if this is what a broken spirit felt like. Or a broken heart. All he knew was that something inside him had torn and as much as he feebly tried, he couldn't put it back together.
Useless…
Helpless…
Rukia.
Come back.
Please.
It was becoming harder to see. And even harder to stay awake. Eventually, his mind became as dark as the night around him.
It wasn't broken anymore. He questioned if it ever had been. And now all he cared about was getting her back. Saving her life like she had saved his. She deserved at least that much.
So he set himself to work.
No room for self doubt or shame…he could lose trust in himself in his dreams and answer back in the morning.
But nothing would stop him from going to save her.
…why?
He found he couldn't answer. He could only try to explain what he felt in his mind.
It was strange without her.
And he hated pretending that she had never had a place in this world.
She had a place no matter what anybody said.
Even if they couldn't see it. She had a place.
And after he realized this, the hardest part was left behind him.
It was simple to explain, really.
Rukia had been the one to change his life.
A little dramatic, I know. But I can't help it nowadays….just feeling a little blue….