A/N: Hehehehe, I wasn't aware that I hadn't posted Chapter Five, so you readers had to wait extra long until I finished my next chapter. Sorry. But at least now you get two chapters that are relatively close together in posting dates. Just need to go over the next chapter for any screw ups and it'll be post-able. I kinda changed the story a little from how I wanted it to go in the beginning, so I'm debating putting it up at a lower rating. I dunno what to do...

Disclaimer: No, I don't own Demon Diary.

Chapter Five:

Raenef was laying on his stomach, almost swallowed up by his huge, fluffy down comforter, his index finger tracing the wood carvings in his head board. It displayed a pleasant scene of cute forest animals playing together under the canopy of large trees, but Raenef wasn't paying attention to the minor details of the carvings, his mind was in a different place.

He sighed and turned over on his back. The light blue gossamer curtains swayed in the wind from the open window, and his blond hair tickled his face. He sighed again. He had been doing that a lot since yesterday, and the reason didn't escape him. But what was Raenef going to say to Eclipse? Before they parted ways last night, Raenef told Eclipse that he would tell the older man all about his past, but he didn't want to recall that. He had spent so much time repressing those images that he had no desire to relive them. He was so pulled that he felt on the verge of tears, but then he would remember the kiss and be elated again. These mood swings can't be good for me, he thought. Raenef looked over at his miniature grandfather clock and frowned. He only had thirty minutes before Eclipse would come, expecting to be told a fabulous story of adversity. It was a story a adversity, but Raenef didn't feel up to telling it. He turned over on his side and stared out the window. The sky outside was a perfect match to his mood, a fine day, but marred with a solitary gray cloud that threatened rain. He pulled his knees up and hugged himself, pulling the blankets up around his body like a cocoon, and fell asleep.

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Eclipse was in a serious state of distress. He may as well have been banging his head on the desk, and had considered it at certain points. He sat in his chair, his elbows perched on the desk and his hands threaded through his long, black hair. He had kissed one of his patients! And it wasn't just an innocent little peck, it was full on! What had happened to him? He used to be so disconnected from his patient's lives, he would observe from the outside and make suggestions, he would never get involved. Yet, what did he do? He got involved, he got fucking involved. Eclipse balled his hands into fists and pulled his hair. Involved! He dropped his head on his desk and stayed there, letting the cool wood calm him down.

Eclipse took a long, cleansing breath. If he was going to go have a session with Raenef, one that promised to be a very long session, then he was going to have to pull himself together. He would just have to push down these emotions until he could resolve them at a more appropriate time. He felt like a hypocrite for doing that though, because he always told his patients to confront their emotions when they happen, and not to bury them.

Eclipse sat straight up in his leather chair, took another deep breath and held it. He closed his eyes and counted backward from ten, letting all the stress release from his body. This method had always worked for him in the past, when he needed to be very calm very fast. When he got to one, he exhaled slowly and opened his eyes. The world looked fresh and new, and he felt as though he could tackle anything. He would not think of what he had done, or the repercussions of it would be if anyone found out. He would go to Raenef's room and sit in his big chair and listen to everything Raenef had to say, just like he had done countless times in the past.

Comforted with his resolve, Eclipse stood up and walked toward the door. He had a look of determination in his eyes, and only one thought on his brain, not to think too much. If he thought too much he would get back into that downward spiral and possibly not be able to get back out. So when he was walking down the halls toward Raenef's room, he was thinking about the weather, or about the fancy oil paintings hanging in the hallway. Really, he would think about anything that wouldn't lead him back to the events that happened earlier.

He was so busy not thinking about Raenef that he walked right past the boy's room. He had gotten a few doors down before he realized this, and inwardly laughed at himself all the way back. Eclipse stood in front of Raenef's door, key card in hand and prepared to be slide down the slot to allow Eclipse entry into the room. Eclipse took one last breath in and quickly swiped the card down, feeling oddly relieved when the door clicked open. He walked inside and automatically looked over to the couch, but seeing no one there he turned his head to the balcony. The two doors were slightly open, to allow a little breeze in the room, but no one was out there. He heard something come from the bed, and since this was Raenef's room, it must've been Raenef in the bed.

Eclipse pulled back the curtains and found a small ball of blankets wrapped around a peacefully sleeping Raenef. His face looked as if he was on the verge of nirvana, with his pink lips curled up at the ends. His hair was out of it's ponytail, falling around his face as if it was placed specifically there by the angels. Eclipse bent down and brushed some of the stray hairs from Raenef's face. Then he heard something. It was quiet, and almost sounded like half of a word, so Eclipse bent down further to hear what the blond was saying. His ear was just centimeters away from Raenef's mouth when Eclipse could finally make out what he was saying, and a small smile appeared on his face. Raenef was saying Eclipse's name, over and over again at a slow pace.

He started to come back up, when he noticed that his head wouldn't move farther than about two feet from Raenef's head. He looked over at the source of the problem and groaned. Raenef had the majority of his hair in a tight fist. Eclipse offered a little resistance to see if he could get out of the vice, but to no avail. He was just about to bring his hands to Raenef's when suddenly his face was on the bed, his eyes wide in surprise. He shifted a little to have a better view, and just barely had enough room to arch his head back to see Raenef's still peaceful face. He didn't want to wake Raenef, but he didn't want to be in the uncomfortable position of kneeling on the floor with his back all crooked and neck arched at that angle. Eclipse didn't have to wait long, for within a minute in that position Raenef's eyes slowly opened.

"Ah!" Raenef screamed in surprise. He immediately let go of Eclipse's hair, and Eclipse stood up stretching out the stiffness in his back. He frowned, and as being stiff from being in one position for a minute was a sign of aging, and Eclipse didn't think of himself as being that old.

"I'm so sorry," Raenef apologized. "Sometimes I have this reflex that makes me grab things in my sleep..." He drifted off.

"That's okay, you only surprised me a little," Eclipse said. "I've never had a patient that had pulled me in his bed before." The moment that came out of Eclipse's mouth he regretted it, it had sounded completely wrong. Raenef turned cherry red, and his eyes grew large.

Raenef scooted toward the edge of the bed closest to Eclipse, unable to look the taller man in the eyes, and tentatively put his feet on the cold floor. Cautiously, he looked up at Eclipse, who was still kicking himself for saying something vulgar. Eclipse looked back down at Raenef, and there was a moment of silence.

"I'm going to go get dressed," Eclipse noticed that Raenef was in his pajamas, which matched the color theme of the room. "You can sit on the couch." He continued.

Eclipse was grateful that Raenef didn't ask any questions, and walked over to his chair. He plopped down into it, slouching to a level he had never reached before. Ever since he met Raenef he had been doing things that he would've never thought he could do. Like kiss a patient...NO! Eclipse told himself he would not get caught up in that again. He couldn't wallow in self pity in front of Raenef, that would only embarrass him more. He barely had enough time to compose himself before Raenef returned.

Eclipse almost laughed out loud, and in his haste to cover up his hilarity he choked on air.

"Are you okay?" Raenef asked in concern.

"Y-yes," Eclipse managed to say.

Raenef was wearing the most ridiculous pair of blue jean overalls that made him look even younger than he already was. He may as well have been wearing a little sailors hat with a mother duck and three ducklings embroidered on it and carrying a pail and shovel, just to complete the outfit. With that thought, Eclipse tried to swallow more laughs.

Raenef was completely oblivious to Eclipse's visions of him, and he fell onto the couch, throwing his legs on the end of it and getting comfortable.

"Why aren't you wearing your coat today?" Raenef asked. This pulled Eclipse out of his own thoughts, and he looked down at his attire. He was wearing a plain black button up shirt, but there was no white lab coat over it. Eclipse quickly came to the conclusion that he was so distracted when he left his office that he had forgotten to put it on.

"I guess I left it in my office," Eclipse said.

"Oh."

There was another silence between them, Raenef was stalling because he didn't want to start talking about his life, and Eclipse didn't know how to start the conversation about Raenef's past.

"Shall we start?" Eclipse asked.

Raenef shifted uncomfortably in his seat, but finally stopped the battle within himself and acquiesced.

"Yes, alright," Raenef relented.

Eclipse could feel the resistance radiating off of Raenef, and it made him confused and pained. He didn't want to force Raenef to do something that he didn't want to do, but then again, it was Raenef who said he would tell Eclipse this information in the first place. He let his kindness overcome his curiosity.

"You don't have to tell me if you don't want to," Eclipse said quietly. He was hoping that Raenef would understand that he was trying to be nice, but also wanted to give the feeling that he really did want to hear this.

Luckily for Eclipse, Raenef sat straight up and started waving his arms in an attempt to stop any more of those kinds of ideas from entering Eclipse's mind. "No, no, no, I do want to tell you," Raenef said hurriedly. "It's just, I don't know where to begin..."

"Start at the beginning, start with your parents and early years," Eclipse offered.

Raenef seemed to consider this. "Yes," he nodded his head. "I'll start at the beginning."

A/N: It's kinda short, but I didn't want to put anymore in it. Please review. Next will be up soon. I'm not lying this time!