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Finding the Truth

Chapter 5

By: M Malfoy

"So what are all of these extra-curricular activities?" Harry asked.

"Well, first and foremost, you must learn occlumency. You do not need to see those meetings. Your fifteen years old for Merlin's sake, many men three times your age would not be able to stomach them. Perhaps after you learn occlumency I will teach Legimency, but that is not set in stone. You must learn how to duel properly even if Voldemort doesn't follow the rules of engagement. I will also tutor you in any other studies you wish." Severus said. "Are you ready to get started."

"Yes, as much information as we learn from me seeing those death eater meetings, I do need to sleep."

"First you must learn how to clear your mind. Let your mind go to a blank canvas. If you can't get your mind completely clear, think of one thing, and focus on that. For example, I often use the clicking of a clock. Its tempo is the same all the time, and it is easy to focus on when everything is silent."

"Sir, why couldn't you have told me this last year. It might have saved Sirius' life."

"I was too blinded by Voldemort. I have let him rule my life since I was your age. It's time I live my own life. I thought that if I gave you instruction you would be smart enough to figure it out on your own. But I was wrong, clearing your mind isn't simple. I should have remembered that. It took me months to learn how to clear my mind when Albus was teaching me."

"Sir, when I am a master of Occlumency, will you tell what made you become a spy?"

"Yes. I owe it to you and your mother to share my secrets with you. Now about this sir business. Call me Severus when it is just you and me. Now I have a meeting with the staff in about fifteen minutes, so I need to go back to Hogwarts. I should be back either tomorrow in a couple of days from now, I will send an owl to tell you. Don't forget to practice clearing your mind, then I will be able to tell you my secrets."

"Good Bye Severus, see you soon." And with that Severus left with a pop.

Fifteen Minutes Later

Staff Meeting, Hogwarts

"Ahh Severus you are back, how was your lesson with Harry?" Albus Dumbledore asked his potion's professor.

"It was informing to say the least. Did you know that the Dursleys' have been treating Harry like gum stuck to th bottom of a shoe. And you had the nerve to tell him that he needs to stay their for family protection. If I had known that years ago I would have taken him myself, and we wouldn't have to deal with telling him that I am his father."

"You would have never been able to take Harry after Lily died. Not only were you an accused Death Eater but you were emotionally unstable."

"If I was so emotionally unstable, as you put it, why didn't you send me to Saint Mungo's. The Dursley's showed Harry no love, your lucky he didn't end up being so spiteful about being an orphan, otherwise he could have become the next Dark Lord."

"Harry has always known love from a little age. Tom Riddle didn't even have that, he was thrown out right after he was born."

"Harry wouldn't have known that. I would have prefered if my son grew up knowing what love was. I still think Harry doesn't know what love feels like. His friends love him, but he thinks its just loyalty. He doesn't know how to distinguish between love and loyalty."

"Well I guess you are just going to have to show him."

"How do I show him with out telling him who I am."

"You are going to have to tell him at one point or another."

"He's not going to take abandonment lightly. He will question why I never raised him, why I never even met him before Hogwarts. I'm not ready to answer those questions yet. I don't know the answers myself. I have been wondering about my decision ever since I laid my eyes on him at Hogwarts."

"Perhaps when you spend more time with him, you will learn the answers. Some you may never know the true answers to, but explain your feelings to him. He needs to learn how to share emotions. It will help both of you in the long run," Albus lectured.

Authors Note: I'm sorry about not updating for so long. Fan fiction is something I do in my spare time, and unfortunately I have not had much recently. Add to the fact that I enjoy reading fan fiction as much as writing it, perhaps even more.