Rated: R for language, some violence, adult content, sexual content, dark themes, etc.
Disclaimer: I do not own any character from Degrassi. I sure wish I did though.
A/N: Here's chapter IV (4) done in Craig's POV. I had a few days of writer's block so, I hope it's good. Also new chapter in the original part, The Writing's on the Wall will be updated Sunday or Monday.
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Chapter IV: Chaotic(Craig's POV)
Friday the 13th huh? Like I said, I despise movies like those. But it was entertaining to see Marco jump 20 feet in the air and hide at the scary parts. He's a cool guy. But I sure didn't mind teasing him about it.
Some guy got killed with an arrow in his neck. What a way to go, right? That was just, blah. First time that Craig Manning has no comment. No side remarks, no anything. What the hell is wrong with me? I've been so off today. Either I'm changing or those pills are actually working. Damn medication. Why did you work and knock some damn sense into me when I thought about heading to England? Think I was going to deal with her rejecting me and leaving here in Toronto? Fuck that. I wasn't gonna do that.
That was a dumb idea.
Hell, in the end, I got my ass kicked and my guitar stolen. All that for Ashley. I hate her. I love her. I don't know what I know. I know she damn well confuses me greatly. I hate that. Manny was a fling, a long fling that I moved on but Ash was my soul mate. She was my everything. My other half, my music partner. Even with this whole me becoming a psycho bit, she was there. And now she isn't. Yeah, I'm dealing with it. Writing dark lyrics on how I hate her, how she made me feel, and how fucked up I am. She's not here anymore but as she hasn't left my mind.
Marco, along with Jimmy and even Joey are all I have. Joey's been more on the moping part since Caitlin left. Even Angie's moping. But not me. Despite Jimmy's you know, situation, he's been there for me, even Marco. And now he brought Ellie into the picture. I don't even know Ellie, except she's best friends with Ash and Marco. But other than that, I don't know her. And she doesn't know me. Marco told me that Ellie thinks I'm a psycho guitarist and she's right, I am.
And sitting near her and being around her was sight to see.
She just, I don't know, seemed more of a free spirit around Marco. And even Ash when she was here. Marco said that we'd rather be here than at home. What was her problem at home? It's none of my business but I'm curious. And watching her lie to Marco so perfectly made me more curious. Yeah, I knew she was lying. Too bad Marco didn't, but the way she left so abruptly was weird. Did I just say that it was weird? I have no right to say that, huh?
I was so deep into my thoughts that I didn't see Marco snapping his fingers in front of me. "What?" I snapped.
Marco just raised an eyebrow. "You were spacing," he shook his head. "And I think you should get home, right?" I sighed and thought about that. I should start heading home. Besides, I promised Angie I'd teach her how to take pictures with my camera. Better now than later.
"Yeah, I should get going." I said to Marco. I stretched on the couch and felt relaxed. Marco nodded his head and went to the TV and took the movie out.
"Never again." He shoved the tape in the box. I just laughed. He could never get through a horror movie alone. I picked up my stuff and said goodbye to Marco. And left his house. The clouds were getting darker, like cloudy. 'Is it gonna rain?' I wondered cause I would get wet. I only had a few blocks to get to before something would actually happen. I even started humming a Ramones song. Now it was stuck in my head.
It was the same one that Ellie was singing earlier today.
It was an addicting song.
And Ellie knew it like I did. We sure did have a lot of things in common. Things that I didn't even notice.
Great, now I was thinking about her.
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Girls are not my best subjects. I mean, Ashley was the girl I thought was for me. I still do. Manny was just a lust thing that I know she hasn't gotten over. But why was I adding Ellie to that mix? She was just a girl.
I felt little water drops on my head. Great, it was starting to rain. But I was already close to home. I opened the door and heard Angie's voice from upstairs. "Craig!" she hopped down the stairs. Her hair was in her ponytail.
"Hey." I just put my stuff down near the door and locked it behind me. I heard thunder from outside.
"Dad was worried about you if you were gonna get home before it started to rain. And now you're not gonna get wet." Angie said. Sometimes she can be so cute but also a pain in the ass.
"Where's Joey anyway?" I asked her. She just shrugged her shoulders and went hopping into the living room and went back to watching TV. Cartoons were her only thing. She was in love with Spongebob Squarepants but now it was Rugrats. She was a rugrat.
I went past the living room and into the kitchen to find something to drink. I opened the fridge door and looked at my options. Milk, water, orange juice, some of those ice tea things and Pepsi. I took a Pepsi instead.
"Craig?" That was Joey. And it sounded like it came from upstairs.
"Yeah?" I said from the end of the stairs.
"Can you come up here for a sec?" He said. He didn't sound too good. I got a bad vibe. I went up the stairs slowly and the last stair creaked some.
"Joey, where are you?" I asked the upstairs.
"In my room." Joey said. His door was creaked open some. I felt a bit nervous. I knocked on the door and let myself in. And there was Joey, just sitting on the edge of the bed with his face in his hands.
"Hey, you okay?" I asked it. That was a dumb question. Nice going Craig.
He just looked up at me and I saw an empty bottle on the floor near the trashcan. They weren't any of mine. I put the two together and threw the bottle away. "What was that about?" I asked him. I was the one who was supposed to try to kill myself, not him. He was supposed to be the smart one.
"I, I..." He just treaded off. With Caitlin leaving, he hasn't been himself. And I could definitely see why.
"It's okay." I tried to calm him down.
"No it's not. I was so stupid and blind to let her go. I was stupid to fight with her and now she's off in a whole other country." Joey said. It seemed we had a thing for girls leaving the country.
I couldn't do anything but stand there and put a hand on his shoulder. "Remember Joey, I do understand." I told him. He just looked straight ahead at the wall where there was a picture of all four of us, smiling together. I was with Angie on one side and Joey and Caitlin was on the other side. And now there were only three of us.
From that point on,
I knew it was gonna be very chaotic.
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A/N: This is also updated first over at my livejournal, phoenixflame87 If you want sneak peaks, etc, go there first, most likely I'll give you guys a sneak preview before I post the whole chapter. Chapter V, done in Ellie's POV will be up soon!