Chapter 12.
not much to say...
oh wait! kiss is this chapter
Sawyer blinked countinually trying to get accustomed to the darkness. He was very aware of his hard breathing in the quiet room.
"dammit, don't they have a light in here! " he swore when he slammed into one of the walls.
A light flickered behind him as though answering his wish.He turned around and a first true smile broke his weary face.
"jack! "
"sawyer!"
"your alright!" sawyer said
"sawyer...your alive...i though,i thought you died...those gun shots..." jack's voice wavered and he smiled geniuly."it's good to have you back"
"likewise"
They clasped hands and overwhelming feeling of guilt arose in sawyer, he squimered trying not to think.His mind's voice however was to aloud to ignore. are you going to betray jack sawyer? the way he's smiling at you, trukly happy to see you? are you going to betray that trust?
Sawyer swallowed hard.
"sawyer,whats wrong your quiet, is it your gunshot wounds?"
"nah--no, trying to change the topic he asked, where'd you get the candle? they let you have one?"
"there was in my shoe,they did'nt find it" jack replied, listen i have some questions for you about----"Jack was cut off as sawyer glanced around through the flickering light and cried in exclamiation
"kate!" Sawyer ran to the corner, to a straw pallet where she lay.
Her eyes were closed,her hair tangled, her skin sallow but she was still beautiful to him.
"your alive, your alive" he whispered with relief.Though ethan had told them they were alive it was more reassuring when you saw it in person.Sawyer ran his hand through kate's hair whispering softly to her.Calling her, trying to wake her. He felt jack's presence behind his back,heard his hoarse hopless voice saying
"i've tried,i've tried so many times...she won't wake...not after they gave her that shot.she might even--die" jack bent his head.
"she won't"sawyer said firmly and jack stared
"how do you know?"
Sawyer did'nt answer.His finger ran down her ice cold face and brushed her eyelids,then her nose and hesistated as he brushed her lips.He countinued down to her neck and stopped as he felt the punture where the needle had entered her skin.
"sawyer!"jack said, listen to me!"
It told all of his fiber for sawyer to turn around and face jack and even then he could'nt look in his eye feeling ashamed at the thought of betraying him.
"yeah doctor?"
"how do you know kate's not going to die...?"
Sawyer drawled out " lucky guess?"
Jack eyed him suspiciously but countined " we need to escape but first we need more information,we need to help kate"
that's what i'm doing doctor,helping kate.you can help her your way and i can mine...he thought.But what he said was
"all i know from there conversations is that they experimenting on us" sawyer said
"what are they doing?" jack confronted
"that's all i know"
"lots of help" jack's tempered steamed.
"calm down doctor"
"kate's going to die! we're going to die! how can you be calm! " jack yelled.
Sawyer did'nt answer.Instead he pulled off his filthy shirt and showed jack his healed chest.Jack stared and finally said
"where are the gunshot wounds? you had three..i'm positive"
"they healed me. they want to..to experiment on me" sawyer said quietly.
Jack ran his hand through his dark hair "we have to do something" he said finally.
"like what?" sawyer questioned.
"i donnno know that's what i'm trying to figure out" jack blew out the candle.
"Hey! what'd you do that for! " sawyer said as everything turned back into darkenss.He could no longer see jack nor kate though he knew she was behind him.
"i only have one and we should'nt waste it" jack said from one of the corners.
Sawyer closed his eyes and tried to think. i have to ask about the hatch and the weapons...but i have to do it causallly
"what about the weapons?" sawyer voiced causally,maybe they can be of use?"
"they took the one i had and the others...are hidden..."jack said his voice hard.Sawyer decided not to question and sat in silence. One hour...two...he could'nt take this darkness...since his mother died he hated it.He wanted to ask jack for the light but he didi'nt it.Sawyer pressed his eyes to his knees.He could'nt take it,could'nt bere it...he wanted to be out of this stinking hole, out of this cluasterphobia.Just when he was about to yell out,to burst out the door opened and sawyer closed his eyes.The dull sunset light was enough pain for his eyes.He heard jack make a odd,hacking noise as a person entered.A black man with red shot eyes walked toward's kate holding a needle.When sawyer tried to protest he was flung across the room landing into jack's lap. They watched as the man injected kate in the neck despostiing this liquid.
Sawyer was about to walk over when jack grabbed his arms and w hispered
"wait sawyer,i forgot to tell you that's the antidote--they come every day and give it to her, i'm not sure why"
i know why,sawyer thought bitterly, me that's why
The man left and once more they were shrodded in darkness.
"have any plan yet?"sawyer asked hoarsly.His voice was weak from not talking.
Jack sighed and said "no,not yet"
Sawyer crawled across the room till he found kate's cold fingers.He held her hand trying to make her warm but it was hopless.
"kate,kate is what im doing right?" he whispered in her ear so only she would hear.She did'nt answer and sawyer sighed.Even though he knew she was unconscious he was half-hoping she'd wake up and answer his question being as confused as he was.The door opened anthor hour later and the same man appeared.He pointed at jack and jack stared bearily back.
"come w ith me.ethan wants to see you"Jack stood up face hard and sawyer stood up to.The man turned to him.
"no,not you" he said.
"but--"sawyer protested.
"it's alright sawyer,i'll be fine" jack said.Jack went out the open door leaving sawyer alone with kate.The man turned back to him and grunted,tossing him a oil lamp.
It glowed lighting the room up in weak light.The door shut and sawyer walked over to the precious oil lamp.He was no longer in darkness.He felt better.He grabbed the light in his hand and trudged back to kate's pallet.
The light made her eyelids flutter but they did'nt open.Sawyer sighed and turned around staring at the wall,worring.
i hope jack's ok...if ethan hurts him the deal is off.i-- his thoughts were interrupted when a voice called weakly
"sawyer?" the voice was weak but it was kate's.
He turned around hardly daring to believe it.
"kate!"
"sawyer...they caught you to..."
"i'm okay...how do you feel?"sawyer asked
"tired...so tired..."kate dragged off and asked,where's jack?"
A feeling,a feeling he knew was jealously stirred in his heart but he ingnored it.
"jack's fine.he's coming back and he'll--he'll take care of you..., sawyer hated himself but went on trying to make kate happy, he loves you,you know"
"i know...me to" kate whispered her eyes closing."thank you...sawyer"
"kate?"sawyer whispered.
"mmm..." she was barely conscious
"i--i love you to..." his voice was weak
Kate's eyes were closed and she did'nt answer.Sawyer was relieved he regretted his deciscion but was glad that she had'nt heard it.And then---
"i...love...you to...,kate mummered.Sawyer turned around, "jack..." kate mummered.Sawyer's heart fell.
There was the one girl he loved,he admitted to himself,and she does'nt care...she does'nt care about me...Sawyer sighed.
He looked at her in the flickering light and as though in a trance he leaned forward.Closer and closer...his breathe mingling with hers...her eyes opened dazedly halfway and cloing once more...sawyer did'nt notice...closer and closer...their lips touched into a kiss...
She lay unstirring on the straw pallet in the dim darkness, in sawyer's lap,who was leaning forward,his lips glued to hers.His mind was in agony
she does'nt love me that way! she loves jack! pull back! please..i must pull back...
but he could'nt.
It morphed into a open-mouth kiss and sawyer lost himself.A thrill ran through his body in a exchilerating rush.He was vibrating and heart pounding a mile a minute.
He drew her closer and closer to him,pressing hard on her lips when ---
"well,well,well,lokie what we have here.once jack's gone and your alone---"ethan said with a cold smile.Sawyer pulled back,feeling sick with himself.He pulled back so fast that he was on the other side of the room before kate's head slapped the pillow.
"well,since your not talking--i'll just ask you did you find out about the weaponary.
Sawyer shook his head.
"the hatch?"
Saawyer shoke his head again.
"location?"
"no"sawyer said.
Ethan's smiling face turned slowly into an angry grimace.
"well you'd better find out soon!" ethan snapped." or your lovely friend kate will go bye-bye" ethan slammed the door leaving sawyer huddling in the corner.
the taste of the kiss lingered on his lips and he hated himself for it.
why?why?why did i do it! what's wrong with me! moronic,idiot!
He berated himself for a half-hour untill finally jack came back.A man locked the door.
"sawyer,hey" jack said with a smile.
"hi...are you okay?"sawyer stared at the floor.How would jack react? sawyer wondered, if i told him i kissed kate without her permission or that i might betray him.He just wanted to be alone,by himself and he would'nt even mind the darkness if he could get away from jack's face and kate's.
"yeah...they asked me some questions about the location of our camp but don't worry---"jack smiled."i won't betray us"
that makes one of us...
"oh hey where'd you get the lamp light?"
"um they gave it to us..."sawyer muttered.
"are you okay.you look kinda flushed? how's kate? you've taken after her right?"jack walked next to kate and placed a hand on her brow.Sawyer's blush deepened.
"uh-yeah sure..."
Jack looked at sawyer and said "we're going to get out of this sawyer.we will get out of this predictiment i promise."
how can i tell you i'm the one making the predictiment?
Sawyer buried his head in his arms and cried. He did'nt care jack was watching,nor did he hear his comforting words.Sawyer lost himself in his own world and cried
what am i doing?
there end of chapter.tell me what you think.
told you i'd get you a kiss thou i no some of you are disappointed it was'nt jack's kiss...