so things are heating up and drawing to a close...kate is near the end of her life unless they get the antitdote, jack and sawyer are about to kill each other, the others are going towards towards the camp,hatch and weapon storage...the search parties are drawing closer...
da-da-dum
chapter 15.
Jack stood facing sawyer his hands trembling, kate lieing on the ground behind him.
"TRAITOR! BETRAYER! " jack yelled angrily.
"hold on! i was helping you guys! saving you!"sawyer stammered but sounded unsure.
"by capturing us? that's a hell of a lot help" jack snarled.
"you don't understand--"
"oh i do, jack said, i heard you last night giving a way the campsite, the hatch any little bit of secrecy we had from them!"
"you don't understand!"
"i hate you sawyer!" jack said
Sawyer was starting to get angry.
"now you listen here! you were gonna get kate killed! i was saving her! the others were gonna give me the antidote to save her life--they promised."
"and you call me the naive one?" jack countered."that's bull and your lieing"
Sawyer has stopped talking his gaze had fallen at jack's feet.
"kate" sawyer mummered his eyes softening.
Sawyer looked at her crumbled heap.She was pale,sweaty,drooping,wet,and shivering.He knew that if he touched her she would be death's touch.
"what did you do to her?"sawyer said quietly.
"i---"
"you did'nt give her the antidote did you?"
"i--"
"DID YOU? IT'S YOUR FAULT IF KATE DIES I WAS TRYING TO PROTECT HER!" sawyer eye's were red and angry. Jack was stuttering on words,his head was swarming. was this his fault? was he the one killing kate? no...no..no...
Sawyer head ran ito him pushing jack into the mud. They were coated in it.Sawyer landed ontop of jack and they started to fight.Neither had a upperhand.blood scorched everywhere, there were cries and groans of pain.They both knew that the first person who let the pain get to them first would lose.Neither would give up, neither would stop.
Blow after blow.Jack grabbed sawyer's shirt and wripped it giving him a bloody gash.Sawyer slamed jack into a tree.Each was breathing heavily,and neither knew how long they had fought or how long they would have countinued if a weak moan had'nt drifted into the clearing.They both stopped.Sawyer let go of jack's leg,and jack stopped his fist mid-way.They both glanced around as the moan came again.Drifting from kate's mouth.
"kate!" they both cried in usion and ran to her.
Her breathing was shallow and when jack put his head to her chest her heartbeat was barely there.Sawyer was pacing around in a circle.
can i trust him? jack wondered.should i?...i need him to help kate and i think that's what he was trying to do in his own way.he screwed up pretty bad and he knows it...and i- i feel i can trust him now..
Jack hoped he was'nt making the biggest mistake of his life when he said:
"sawyer?"
Sawyer turned and saw jack's hand stretched in front of him.
"pack" jack said simply.
Sawyer clasped his hand and muttered "pack"
"sorry about...everything...you know" sawyer said without looking at him.
Here was jack's chance to brag,stamp itin his face, show kate but he shook those dark thoughts from his head and smiled
"yeah,me to"
They looked at each for a minute silent,studing each other.
"i really did a number on you did'nt i doc?" sawyer said in a drawl.
"nah, i'd say you look way more weared out then me." jack said with a hesistant smile. Sawyer nodded which jack supposed was the best he could get from sawyer,never mind a smile.When kate started coughing they remembered and quickly turned back to her.
"we have to give her the antidote" sawyer said worridely.
"no,we can't then we'll need more and we won't get any--you relize that now don't you?the others tricked you?" jack asked susipoisuly for sawyer was staring into space.Jack knew that sawyer would do anything for kate and that sometimes made him dangerous...
"what? o yeah?so what're we gonna do ?"
Either way jack was'nt letting sawyer out of his sight.
"i'll have to make some more...i'm pretty sure i can concote some more..." jack mummered and pulled out the shot filled with yellowish liquid.
"pretty sure? pretty sure! is that good enough! what if kate--"sawyer exclaimed.
"alright sawyer--i'm positive if that's what you want" jack mummered now sniffing the antidote.
"it's not what i want! i want you to be absolutely sure!" sawyer said more forcefully.
"yelling's not going to help kate...why don't you stay with her?"jack said distractically.
Once the words came out of his mouth he wanted to take them back.Even in this critical time,deep down inside his emotions were stirring with jeaolusy.When he saw sawyer still standing in front of him,his shadow casting shade jack glanced up.He had presumed once he spoken sawyer would go straight to kate just to get on his nerves.But he had'nt.
Though sawyer was good at hiding emotions at that moment jack could see right through it. His face had flushed and his eyes were--different.The reaction to this however was kate.Jack sighed and asked
"what's wrong?"
"nothin" sawyer said, that'd i'd likely tell you"
Jack frowned and muttered " alrighty then, then go stay with her." Jack pretended he did'nt care but he did. it was a weight in the back of his mind.He shook it.
"concentrate" he whispered to himself and turned back to the antidote.
Sawyer crouched down beside kate and left jack to scribbling furiously on a piece of paper.
"hey kate" he said speaking softly to her, you probably can't hear me anyway but when you wake up you'll get a kick bout how much i screwed up..."
Sawyer paused and went on lowering his voice further.
" i hate it you know, caring about someone it's never happened to me before, that fear when i heard you scream in the forest...when you were with ethan and i could'nt do nothin for you..i never felt this way before usually i just care for myself, survive for myself...i did'nt know what happened to you but me i know what's happin...kate i feel if you died a part of me is gonna go missing" Once that statement left his mouth and he comprehended it he chuckled
" i'm turning into a love-sick fool like the doc, ain't that funny,sawyer sighed, ...ah hell kate you cause me lots of frickin trouble and you drive me crazy but still...your so wild i wonder if anyone can handle you?"
About ten minutes later jack spoke
" you know, what about the others? what're we going to do? they're coming tonight..." jack did'nt say anything about it being sawyer's fault but sawyer felt a sting and burn in his heart anyway.I know, i know, he wanted to shout out, it's my fault get it out and blame me! hate me! i'm used to it...everybody does...
But he did'nt.Instead he said
"it's early morning now we have at least ten hours to think of something..."sawyer trailed off.
There was a pause and then jack burst out--
"this is going to take me at least a couple of days and kate's not going to survive this long!"he clutched the antidote in his hand so tight that it probably would have shattered if sawyer had'nt wrestled it off him.
Jack went to kate, eyes wet, his shoulders shaking
"i'm sorry--i can't--i don't---" jack broke down into silence and pulled kate a motionless lump onto his lap.
"kate,kate,kate..." jack mummered indistinctly.
Sawyer stood frozen in shock
"you can't help her?"
"by...the time i do...it will be too late for everything"
"we have to go back" sawyer said firmly.
"what?"
"we have to go back..back to the others and get the antidote. " sawyer was about to run off fearing jack would try to stop him or did'nt agree with the theory when jack stood up.
"alright. but we'll do it my way...but first help me move kate into the cave" Jack had regained his composer though his face was still red from his outburst.
Sawyer managed to move his legs though still suprised.
"alrightie then"sawyer said in a drawl as though he did'nt really care but sawyer could see past his own lie and so could jack.They were both deathly afriad.
Together jack grabbing the arms and sawyer the feet they laid kate gently in the darkest corner.Sawyer walked out immediatly his eyes shifty and waited for jack to come out.
Jack was kneeling beside kate
"kate...i don't know if you can hear me but if you do i want to tell you i like you...wait no i mean as more then a friend. if i had the time i would explain throughly but i just want you to know i love you incase i don't come back and i'll do my best to protect you...i'll...we'll...be back soon" his voice ran faster as sawyer called out
"HURRY UP DOC!"
"i was to afriad to before...but i'm not anymore ifact, jack laughed hacklingly, i think i got to know sawyer better and acuatlly like him...well goodbye kate..." jack's voice drifted off as he stroked her cheek but he could'nt get up and leave.His feet were heavy...
Jack leaned over bending towards kate...
Sawyer watched his lungs frozen, barely breathing as he watched jack.His face paled and his heart roared and twanged.He wanted to holler out,to yell to tell jack to stop but he could'nt move his eyes or lips but just watched...
Jack hesistated his lips barely above hers.And then he pulled back.Jack closed his eyes and sighed.
i can't do it...not with her helpless unable to stop me if she hates me..
Instead he kissed her quickly on her cheek before leaving.
"if you love me, jack had whispered softly in her ear, next time we have a moment like this i won't be feeling guilty."
Jack walked out striding into the lead without looking back,leaving sawyer to follow him if he wanted to.sawyer did but grudglinly.
alrightie im done. sorry it took so long like i said i've been busy and im not sure how i did on this chapter because i did'nt have time to read it i just posted it on fanfiction.sry bout that.but i hope you enjoyed it and bye.