Whoops.Yeah just to say i did'nt mean to make half my last chapter in italics it just happened. i did'nt even know till october sky told me bout it and maybe later i'll fix but right now i feel to lazy...also thanks for the ppl who told me jin isn't chinese but koeran i did'nt know that detail...i'm writing now because i have the time right after christmas..i'm going to see the movie King kong with my family in like a couple hours in cinmea it's sort of like a tradition...so i'll prob right a chapter here and there..anywaz plz tell me ur vote for jack/sawyer and here goes:
hope you enjoy it and sorry it took so long
CHAPTER 18
Jack ran,ran with all his might.His desperation gave him new energy and new legs.He tore feverishly through the forest not bothering to avoid branches and brambles but going striaght into him.His chest was a mess of bloody scratches and the clothes he was wearing were tearing.He glanced back every moment or so but could see no one but he knew they were their.There whisperings filled the forest and jack started to seriously regret his decision of being the guinea pig.His heart pounding a mile a minute,fear in every step he hoped he would'nt get a heart attack.
Sawyer sat crouched in the bushes, his hands pressed to his ears,his eyes tightly shut.Though the others had'nt found him the whispering they uttered had gotten to him even minutes later when they and jack were gone.The whispering seemed to linger and echo in his ears.Tears stung his eyes.Sawyer did'nt know how but the whispering had brought back old memories.Bad ones, ones he had tried to forget.Basically nightmares.
Sawyer was little boy again.Helpless, unable to accomplish anything.Everything out of his hands...
He remembered the growing fear and the darkness...he seemed to fit right into the skin of the younger sawyer as though they were both living it together instead of it being a memory...
"Sawyer? Sawyer! listen to me hid under the bed and and don't come out no matter what! his mother's voice pierced his ears.
"but mom--why?" he questioned back scared
"darling there's no time.just promise me that you won't come out no matter what you hear" her voice grew faster, more anxious,fearful.
Dread started to grow insawyer his mother was the bravest person he knew and she was scared, so should'nt he be?
"but mom---" he protested again but was interrupted.
"promise me ! " she said staring into his eyes.
"i promise" sawyer said his eyes huge and trembling.His mother's eyes softned.
"i'm sorry" She whispered softley.
"mom?"
"yes sweetheart?"
"is everything going to be okay?"
"yes,yes, everything's fine" she replied distractly.She ran her hand through his blonde--short cropped hair and glanced out the window every few seconds.Sawyer clung tight onto his mother's arm,shredded in darkness.Car lights flashed in the driveway.
"under the bed now sawyer" his mother said her voice wavering with tears.
Sawyer dropped to the ground immediatly and rolled under the bed.Anything to make his mother happy.
His face pressed against the carpet.He waited in silence.
"sawyer i love you" his mother said before the door opened.
Then there was yelling crying,groans of agony and sawyer lay helpless,fearful,waiting,listening
The memory changed he was older now and angry.he could feel the anger burn in his heart like a fiery seed.He had shot a mad.the wrong man..tears streamed down his cheeks.He was older but no more in control.just more lost,more confused...
"i love you sawyer..." in his mother's voice.
"i love you to..." this time it was kate's voice,jack's name had c onveintly disappeared.Sawyer was reminded horribly of his father hurting his mother, how he had taken advantage of her...
Then it ended.the memories seized and he was himself aware of his surrondings.
Sawyer breathed in gasps but stopped his flow of tears.
"dammit!" he shouted.
"DAMMIT IT ALL!" he did'nt care who heard him, did'nt care about anything.
"SCREWIN WITH MY MIND ARE YOU--YOU BASTARDS!" he roared and climbed up the tree towards camp.
"YOU CAUZ ENOUGH DAMN TROUBLE ROUND HERE BUT I WON LET YOU KILL KATE, NO SIRRE YOU'LL HAVE ME TO DEAL WITH!"Sawyer pulled at the bark and wrenched himself upward.
Amazingly when he reached the top and stood firmly on the wooden boards it was a ghost town.Not one person in sight,all silent except for sawyer.Sawyer stormed around still filled with anger that made him daring,creating as much noise as possible but slowly the anger ebbed away...
ever so slowly...it could have caused him his life...
Sawyer's hard breathing calmed down,his shoulders stopped shaking, and he stopped yelling.He started to creep round,cursing himself for putting so many lives at stake,by letting his emotions get to him...
Still though, if you looked into his eyes you would see the anger form like a seed.
Sawyer stole towards a door to the right, like the one he had been captive in before and opened it a inch so his eye could peer through.It was dark and it took a few minutes for him to get accustomed.A small figure was shaded in the darkness.
Sawyer blinked trying to get a better veiw.
It looked like a child...
Immediatly he thought of himself as one.Scared,lonely,frightned..
Without thinking of the consequences he opened the door so the light from the sun drifted in.
Sawyer glanced at the child now in the brillainant light.It was a girl maybe no older then eight.Her head was bent, her long blonde hair covering her face,streaked with dirt.Her body was huddled around herself,a thin wirey body...a starving body...
Sawyer felt sick.Never had sawyer felt like this but when it came to kids,hurt or lonely, he always tried to help them...
"hey...kid" sawyer said softely.
The girl did'nt answer.
"come on...everything will be fine.." sawyer said trying to think of how to get a little girl to follow a total stranger even if it was for her benefit.
"ummm--er--i've come to rescue from the evil dragons?" his voice was a question wondering if that was the right thing to say.
The girl remained motionless.
Sawyer was starting to get impatient,he had to leave,find the antidote,save everyone since it was his own fault.
"come on kid" sawyer walked forward and grasped her arm.
She jerked away her grip was suprisingly strong.
Then the whispering started, it seemed everywhere at once and sawyer started to panic.
"girl come on!" he pleaded.
Sawyer was about to pick her up and stopped suddenly,frozen in shock.
The whispering,the whispering was coming from this child's mouth.
Sawyer backed away.
NO!NO!NO!
Her dark chapped lips moved in the strange tongue while her body shivered and trembled.Her shoulders shook and her legs jerked as though she were having a fit.Sawyer backed away till his back was to the door but he could'nt seem to leave.The horrific fascination and not wanting to leave the girl behind stayed his legs that is untill he saw her face.
The girl looked up and sawyer gasped with fear.This was to much for him,everywhere he went he felt fear,his heart was always going a mile a minute as though that were now his normal heartbeat.
The girl's face was pale and chapped and it looked at though it were peeling everywhere,maybe it was. Her eyes were red with no pupils and circles drooping under them.The face drew in like a skeltaon from starvation and knife scars that never would heal cut across her face.
The girl stood up slowly and dragging towards him,whispering.
Sawyer opened the door with jet speedness slamming it behind him.
There was pounding on the door for at least a minute and when it stopped sawyer could see dents in the door.
that's not normal! that can't be normal. no one can make dents in a wooden door let alone a little child...that girl...what didi they do to her...i left her behind!how could i, he argued with himself, but it's not my fault she was going to--going to--what was she going to do?
Chills spread through his body as he suddenly relized with dead firmness
it was the experiments.the others experiments..what they wanted to do to us...this girl was probably on the flight plane and they captured her..
More memories flooded his brain as he went back into thought of when ethan brought him here,as he was in chains glancing in wonder around ther camp.Sawyer had glanced into one of the cabins and had seen a young little girl looking out.
It was the girl in the cabin that had just tried to attack him, who had n ightmarish look on her face.But before..but before...
Sawyer felt like crying.He had'nt helped her before,when she was normal.A sweet little child and he had let her be locked up and now, now she was different.He could think of no other word for it.She had changed.She had lost there normality.
That's what they were going to do to us. to the castaways! i can't let them!
Cursing himself he moved on, promising himself he would not be distracted again.
Jack was hiding. He had been running for at elast a half-hour striaght but he knew he was slowing down and would'nt have a chance of surviving from the others if he did.So he had hidden.Right out of the blue he had just jumped into a brush,stilled his breathing and prayed they would'nt find him.
His legs felt like deadned heaps,like corpses,he doubted he could move them an inch and did'nt want to anyway.He was content just lieing here.Jack closed his eyes.
He had enough adventures for one night...
Against his better will he fell asleep.
The first thing jack heard was the voices.
Jack opened his eyes groggily and peered around.His head dazed and he shook it trying to get it into action once more.
He was hiding, he remembered,from the--the others.Everything flooded back and he stared around widely.
how long have i been asleep! moron! this night everything could change and i fell asleep!people could die! but the sun's still up there was still time..or was it tommorow already! then it was all his fault..
But he felt so tired...it could'nt be tommorow...
Then jack remembered the voices.
"others" he muttered to himself immediatly.Jack crouched lower hiding among the weeds and waited.
Soon Jack could hear there footsteps and then he could see there feet.They were in veiw.They were whispering to themselvess.
Jack tried to get a better veiw.He pulled his head up so that only his eyes were showing and glanced around.
A smile crept to his face.IT could'nt be?
Jacks tood up.
"Sawyer! Kate! guys" he called out.
They turned and Locke rushed towards him,sayid following behind along with jin and sawyer who had kate in his arms.
"your alive!" jack said with relief."so it is still today! there's still time! thank god"
"what are you talking about?" sayid said,frowning slightly.
"did'nt sawyer tell you, jack looked at sawyer questioninly,sawyer shrugged.
"no he did'nt" locke said.
"we need you to take a look at jin's knee" sayid said pointing down at the koeran's leg.
"not now..there's no time" jack said distractly, "we have to leave"
"no time for what?" locke said sharply.
"how's kate? did you give her the antidote? id you f ind it?" jack asked frantically.
"antidote?what are you talking about?" locke said again.
"yeah i did she'ss fine.she'll wake up soon" sawyer said in a drawl.
Jack let out a sigh of relief."that's one problem fixed now come on we have to get to camp"
Sayid,jin and locke did'nt move only sawyer with kate in his grasp followed jack.Jack looked back impateintly.
"what! we don't have time for this!"jack said in frustration glancing at the sky.IT would be dark soon.then they would come.
"we don't have time for what jack! your not telling us! your frightned but we hae no idea why!"
Jack closed his eyes and opened them.
"how about this, he said, i'll tell you on the way back to camp."
Sayid and locke glanced at each other before mummering an assent.
"alright then, jack said breathlessly, which way is camp?"
Locke pointed.
Jack was about to head off in that direction when sawyer called out.
"wait!"
Jack and the rest turned.
"i know a short cut! this way" sawyer pointed in the opposite direction.
locke frowned."you sure?"
"positive"
Sayid glanced at sawyer with distrust which was probbile from the amount of arguing and fighting they had in the past.
"come on!" sawyer said again.
Jack was hesistating.
"don't you want to help them! this way is shorter!"
Jack nodded finally and sawyer walked ahead the others trailing.
"can we trust him?" sayid whispered.
"it does'nt seem right, that way won't get us to the beach..." locke mummered.
"guys,don't. i trust sawyer and that's final." jack stated.
THere was silence for a bit as they trudged along then sayid interrupted it
"so why the rush back to camp?"
and jack started to explain from the beggining.
It had been an hour and Sawyer had'nt found anything.He had searched every nook and cranny((an old expression i know)) and peered through every door though not opening it from past experience.
flashback in sawyer's mind
young girl.normal.hours later.strange.weird.abnormal.whispering.attacker.
flash back over.
Sawyer shuddered.
where was the damn antidote? how was jack?and kate?
This unknowing was driving him crazy.The only person he had ever cared for before was himself and he knew exactly what was happening to him but the island was changing him..making him different...making him care...
sawyer scowled
"hell with the island"
Sawyer stomped again over the same wooden planks and stopped as something creaked under the boards...a loose board...
Sawter dropped to the ground and pulled it open.
It opened ever so easily...
A grin smiled on sawyer's overtired face.He had finally done something right, he had found the antidote.
He pulled out the precious bottle,there was only one and stood up.
Chills ran through his bones as a voice behind him said
"i see you betrayed me Sawyer but i does'nt matter you and your friends will die...and i will take the antidote from you now,by force...prepare yourself sawyer for death"
A metal gun clicked to his head and sawyer stood frozen the antidote hund loosley in his grasp but he managed not to let go.HE was face to face with death as he had been many times but as usual the fear was let go and he was ready for action
"i can't have a minute of peace and no action can i? no sirre..,sawyer gritted his teeth, hello ethan"
"hello sawyer"
the end of this chapter.
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