I'm really,really sorry it took so long for me to write this chap.Writers block y'know? i despise it everything i wrote just came out wrong and basically sucked and i could'nt put it on fanfiction.I just like drew a blank.It did'nt help that i have basically no time cause all my teachers give these essays and tests and quizzes ugh! hate it! whoops...guess you don't want to here me complaing...i just wanted to tell you this chapter is not going to be very long but the next one will...

Alrightie i've been counting the votes and so far i got

charli92--kate & jack

octobersky--kate & jack

nyr88--kate& jack

orlandocrazy--kate& jack

xxdestinyangelxx--kate&sawyer

domanoic--kate&sawyer

so far jack is winning

i have'nt voted.i'm some where in the middle.They're my 2 favorite characters,it's two hard so i'll leave it to you guys.

if you have'nt voted,vote.so far jack is winning in the romatic chamber but hey it could change.

you still have a couple more chapters till the big romatic one,i'll let you know on the changes in the voting..

thanx again for the reveiws.if it had'nt been for them and your support i probably would'nt countinue this story because no one liked it but i'm glad some of you do..

i know my grammer isn't the greatest.i'm more of a person with words and i'm sorry because i know it can get annoying...umm..let's see i'll have my friends look over it...and maybe something eles..because...well...they are'nt great spellers no offense if one of my friends is reading this...anyways i'll get all my chapterrs spell-checked some how--so well here's chapter 19

CHAPTER 19

Sawyer felt the metallic coldness pressed against his temple and shivers ran down the spine at the gun cocked to his forehead.All ethan had to do was pull the trigger...make one tiny movement...press down and bang! he'd be dead and gone but for some reason he had'nt shot yet.

Sawyer closed his eyes waiting for death, even though his cold exterior inside he was quaking.

Is he using me for bait? the thought turned him cold, is he luring Jack here? Jack and kate and the rest of them? but no! jack's going far from here isn't he? what if they already got him? what if Jack knows that i'm right about to be shot? would he...would he come back for me?

The relization hit him.If Jack knew would he come back for him? he knew back home no-one he had left would risk anything for him but here and all he had gone through, survivng with other people and going through ordeals had opened him up to many people and he gotten used to them for the first time in his life.

What if something happened? what if the others are there already? is it all my fault?

Everything that came into his mind led him to questions.It was driving him crazy.

But he knew one thing he did'nt want them to die.The thought suprised him.He cared more for the survivors then himself.But no--he cared for kate and charlie, sayid and Sawyer grimanced, Jack.

Somewhere on the island he had lost his selfishness.

Coming back to the present Sawyer gritted his teeth and said to ethan

" ain't you gonna kill me yet? hell, the gun's at my head all you have to do is pull the triggor.if i had the gun you'd be dead in an instant."

"no.no i'm not going to kill you...not yet...i need you"

For bait?for experiments?

He remembered the little girl he saw, how she had changed from the sweet thing she was before to the monster she was now.

"what did you do to that girl in the room?" Sawyer spat out as Ethan started to rebound his hands and legs in rope.

"oh you'll know soon enough, better then me saying, after all you'll be experincing it firsthand--you and your little friends"

Sawyer's hands were locked tight behind his back with rope and Ethan stooped towards his feet.

"where's your pals?"Sawyer questioned,wondering despertatly if he could overpower him somehow.Frantic hope.Everything was deserted after all.

"hmm...no reason not to tell you.your not going anywhere and it can torture you in y our sleep that it was you who betrayed them, ethan said with a evil grin, some of them are sharping their weapons to use on your friends, some are already there watching,waiting in the trees for night fall...some are looking for the search parties and some for Jack and some..some are here with me"

Ethan stood up...

Jack,Sayid,Locke were running and following Sawyer who was far ahead of them.They could only see his back among the branches and weeds.Jin hobbled behind, his best with his twisted ankle but they had no time to waste to wait for him.

No one was talking,everyone was concentrating,trying not to trip,worried,anxious.

Jack's breathe came in gasps.He was so tired...tired of everything...but he could'nt stop this could be the end if he did.Everything was drawing together, all ties were tigthning...

"this way! this way!" Sawyer shouted ahead, kate in his arms.

They followed the blonde southern's back trustlinly.Past puddles of water, dirt,and distrubed mud, thorns and ivy.

this place...it looks so familar...but...it's not camp...it's--it's not our camp...it's the others---it's---sawyer was--betraying us?

Jack felt weak and stopped dead.

There they stood right beneath the houses of the others.Sawyer grinning sayid and Locke looking above in amazement.

Jack dropped to the ground,weeping.

i'm so stupid! sawyer lied! i thought--i thought he had changed! it's my fault..all my fault...i've failed...we're done...we're done...

Jack banged his fists into the ground,he looked up his dark eyes filled with savagement.

He did'nt care anymore but he would kill Sawyer.Right now.right there.Jack looked up, his eyes drawing into the blue intense ones.He stood up, fists clenched.A sense of de-ja-vu washed over him as sawyer lowered kate to the ground and prepared to fight...like at the caves when they had fought kate asleep as she was now

"I SHOULD HAVE KILLED YOU THEN"

Locke was transfixed by the sight around him, Sayid's forehead was creased...

And then

"JACK! "

Jack turned around at the familar voice and looked up.

His stomach clenched. not possible.

"SAWYER! " jack said incredously looking at the bound Sawyer in the trees,Ethan beside him and then turning around looking at the other sawyer who was smiling smugly,arms crossed over his chest.

Two sawyer's?

Short chap i know. i'll make the next chap wicked better promise.

not one of my greatest chapters, i know but it was a bit of a rush since well--you know it took so long but i will work hard on the next chapter and use every bit of writing i have in me and it will be long.It will be the action pact chapter and then coming up soon the romance chapter so if you have'nt voted vote.