Chapter Eleven

Though I try to look away
The pain it still remains
Only leaving when you're next to me .
Disappear- Hoobastank

The next morning I woke up to find that Sean was no longer in the room. I got up and went to find him.

I found Sean in the kitchen. He was sitting at the kitchen table eating some kind of chocolate cereal. I walked over to him. I couldn't see his parents, so I was trying to be quiet. I figured that they were asleep or something.

"Don't worry, they went out this morning." Sean said as he got up and grabbed another bowl from the cabinet.

"Thanks." I said and grabbed the bowl from his hand.

He wasn't talking to me. I guess he was mad about last night. I don't know why he was so upset. I mean, he had a girlfriend, and he had tried to kiss me. I'm the one who should be mad.

"Sean, are you mad or something?" I asked as I poured my own bowl of cereal.

"I don't really know. I guess I'm more disapointed anything else. Disappointed in myself. I just...I don't know. I really don't." Sean was getting frustrated. Nothing new there.

"I know. If circumstances had been different, then maybe..." I trailed off. I didn't want to go there.

"I know what you mean." Sean said. We were both silent after that.

I still hadn't poured milk onto my cereal. I wasn't hungry anymore. I sighed and poured my cereal back into the box. Then I put my bowl in the sink. Sean got up and put his bowl next to mine.

"You're going to be hungry later." Sean said. I could feel his eyes on me, like he was watching my every move. It was a little unnerving.

"Gives me more incentive for lunch." I said sarcastically and rolled my eyes at him.

"So, what's on our agenda for today?" I asked. I knew that there wasn't anything planned, but I figured that he would have a better idea as for what we could do.

"I don't know." Sean said, which was exactly what I thought he would say.

"Okay, then let's hit the beach. I did, actually, happen to bring a suit with me. And I'm sure that you have one that you can wear. So we can go swiming or something." I said. Sean, of course, looked like he could care less either way.

I didn't wait for his responce. I was already off to go and dig in my bag for my swim suit. I was ready to do something, anything, fun. Anything that didn't include drama.