Chapter Twelve

Let me rise, let me fall
Let me breathe
I wanna lose control, I'm not afraid to lose it all
Let me break, let me crawl
Cause I will get up again if you let me fall
Let Me Fall - Alexz Johnson

The beach idea was great. Me and Sean did have a good time for once. Now I am seriously trying to get a tan, while Sean is off playing volleyball or something.

It's almost perfect. Almost. Sometimes I wish I knew how everyone was at home. I can't call or anything. Somehow I know that they will be fine. They should, by now, trust me and my judgement.

"Hey, writing more?" Sean asked and he collapsed on the sand next to me. I closed my journal and faced him.

"Yeah. Nothing big or anything like that." I said and slid my journal back into my bag, which I had taken with me.

"Cool. So do you need anything? I'm going to get some water." Sean said getting back up. I shook my head no.

He ran off and I quickly pulled my journal out and wrote one more sentence down.

Sean is starting to get to me more.

When Sean got back I decided that the whole tanning thing wasn't going to really work out. I didn't have enough time, and I just didn't feel up to it. I did need water now, though.

"Okay, so I do need aqua." I said getting up and dusting the sand off myself.

"Here." Sean said and handed me a dollar. I shook my head and pointed to my bag. All my money was in there, and I could get my own bottle of water.

"Take the money. I'll get your money out of your bag. Then it will be like you got the water all on your own." I sighed and rolled my eyes, but I took the money anyway.

I took one long glance at Sean before I turned to go to the bar thing that they had. I figured I could get a bottle of water there.

"One water please." I said and handed the guy my money. He just took it, not even looking at me, and went to get the water.

I got my water, though, and started to walk back to where Sean was. When I got closer I saw that he was hunched over reading something. When I got even closer I saw that he was reading my journal.

"Sean! What are you doing!" I yelled as I ran over and grabbed my journal out of his hands.

"Emma..."Sean trailed off. I guess he couldn't figure out what to say. I didn't really feel like hearing it anyway.

"Save it! I don't want to hear any crap from you! Just leave me alone!" I said grabbing my bag. I shoved my journal back in my bag, and ran off.

I heard Sean try and catch up to me, so I ran faster. I ran until I couldn't run anymore. I stopped, and looked around for Sean. I could see him far behind me, so I walked into the nearest open store.

"Well, well, well. Look who couldn't keep away from me." A very familiar voice came from behind me in the store.

I slowly turned to face the person, even though I already knew who it was. Jordan. I had to get out. I had to do something. I couldn't just stand there like I was helpless.

"Emma, right? You and this one guy came to my house last night and then ran off. Now that was rude. Do I need to-" Jordan rambled on until I cut him off.

"Don't even think about finishing that sentence, you perve! Now, I am going to leave, and this time, I wont run. Cause if you even think about touching me, I wont think twice about kicking you in the balls." I said. I knew my voice was shaking, but I didn't care. Then I did what I said I was going to do. I turned around and walked out.

Sean was standing outside with a look of shock written all over his face. I walked over to him and took his hand, for support. We walked away and after a few minutes I started to cry.

"Are you going to be okay?" Sean asked turning me to face him. It was a stupid question, but I guess he had to ask it.

I...I don't know." I said and wiped the tears from my face. I didn't want to cry anymore. I had done it too much lately.

"Okay, now that you're done crying, I have to go and kick his ass." Sean said and turned to go. I grabbed his hand and stopped him.

"No! I think...I think it's time that we went home." I said. This made Sean turn back around.

"Are you sure? I mean, it's only been one day. Your step on the wild side wont look so wild if you go back one day after you leave." Sean said. It kind of pissed me off.

"Not today. Not tomorrow. We'll go back on Friday. Just do me a favor. Don't piss me off anymore." I corrected him with a slight smile. I didn't know why I was smiling. Maybe it had to do with the fact that me and Sean were still holding onto each other's hands.